I had a feeling I'd been here before. I was sat on my bed with my knees clutched into my chest as the tears rolled my cheeks. The events of last night replaying over in my mind again and again.
The hatred faded from his eyes, replaced by sadness, heartbreak."I…"He leant in closer, our noses touching.
…
"I said get away!" He pulled the gun from inside his jacket, pointing it at my head. "Either stay away from me, or I'll kill you."
And to make things worse, I told Aidou. Why did I do that? I knew he would get angry. He already hated Zero as it was along with everyone else. They all had it in for him and I just fed the fire. Stupid, stupid girl.
I ran. There was no telling what Aidou and Zero would do to each other. How could I have been so stupid.
"Hanabusa!" I called. "Hanabusa where are you!?"
There was no reply. Where the hell could he be?
Then I saw them.
Aidou, Kain, Ruka, Shiki and Rima. And in the very centre of them was Zero. He had his gun out and I could tell he was just itching for a fight with them.
The ground was frozen . The branches on fire. They weren't actually going to, were they? Had those two learnt nothing?
"WAIT!" I cried running in between Zero and Aidou, my arms held out wide. "Stop this! All of you!"
"Taiyou!" Aidou's eyes widened. "What are you doing?"
"No Hanabusa. What are you doing? Do you think Kaname-sama will praise you for what you're about to do?! Why don't you use your brain for just a second and think before you do something that you know is gonna get you in trouble. Is that so hard?" I turned my eyes on all of them, my eyes stinging from unshed tears.
Aidou was the first to back down. He was followed by Kain and they all headed back to class.
I sighed with relief. But now I realised that I was stood near Zero, Bloody Mary still in his hands.
"What the hell d'ya do that for?"
I didn't turn to face him. "Hanabusa and Akatsuki are like family to me. I didn't want them getting hurt."
"Next time stay out of my way or I really will kill you."
Such a fool. How could I, for even one second, have believed that he could possibly have had a change of heart? I was a vampire. He was the son of vampire hunters. It was in his blood to hate us. I was so stupid. Maybe if I'd just let Aidou and Kain kill him then perhaps things would have been easier. But the sad truth is…I couldn't live knowing he wasn't in this world anymore. How pathetic am I?
It seems all I do these days is cry. And when I'm not crying I'm wishing I could just be alone so I can cry some more.
"I'm so tired of crying," I breathed as I felt Aidou's arms around me. "I don't know how Ruka does it."
He never said a word but I didn't need him to. I just wanted someone to listen to me and Aidou was always there. He never tried to hurt me or break my heart. He was always trying to make me feel better. I tried to seem better but he saw straight through me. He knew me better than I knew myself. What a pain he must think I am.
"I'm so sorry I'm always crying on you," I apologised through the tears.
"Don't worry about it. I don't mind."
Still, I was so tired of everything. I was tired of being so pathetic. Of sitting in my room crying to myself. Of lying awake unable to sleep from the ache in my heart. Of getting up to more heartbreak. This had to end. I couldn't go on like this. I'd end up killing myself. I was growing thin from hunger. I was weak. My skin was deathly pale and I had no strength anymore. I was just so tired.