Chapter Four: Wave Shock (KPOV)
"So you don't want Stan to know you're gay because he's your best friend and you think he'll dump you." Kenny summarized our conversation as he walked into a snow embankment and started to make a snow angel.
"Basically," I responded as I watched him act like a 5 year old. "And also, I might…"
"You might what?" Kenny interrupted me and stopped acting like an idiot.
I started to stutter, "I, um, it's really nothing." I started to walk away from him.
"Oh no you don't!" Kenny pounced on me and we both fell into the snow. I tried to get up but it was useless.
"Kenny just stop it ok?" I cried out as I fell limp from underneath him. I gasped as he rolled me over and pinned me down. I could feel his hot breath as he gave it to me straight.
"You have the hots for Stan don't you?" he bluntly stated as he stared me down waiting for a response. I didn't give him one.
Kenny shut his eyes, "Dude how long have you kept this bottled in?" he opened them again in a look of mixed confusion and shock. He rolled over so that we both were facing the sky.
I eventually sat up, "I really don't know Kenny," I felt like crying, "It's just that now that Stan and I have been best friends for almost twenty years it's like… he's always been there." I looked at the sky.
"He was always there when I needed him. Whenever I was depressed or angry, he was there. And even when we were having the best of times, he was there with me. I can't remember a time when he wasn't there with me." I looked at the snow. Then I saw Kenny look at me.
"Go on," he nudged.
"And now, I realize that no girl or guy that I will ever meet could ever compete with the relationship that I have with him. I don't think anyone would ever care for me as much as he does. And I don't think I'll ever meet someone that I will care for as much as I care for him." I tried to hold back my tears.
Kenny sat up and hugged me, "That's completely understandable Kyle. Even Cartman and I have always noticed how you guys always seem to pair off and leave us out all the time."
I sniffled, "Yeah, sorry about that." I quickly apologized for the past. "But now, I really just want to find out if Stan feels the same way about me. Like if I got into a serious relationship with someone, would he get jealous? God knows I would." Kenny removed himself from me and offered to help me up.
"Come on, it's getting cold out here, let's go into a coffee shop and talk this over some more." I steadily arose and regained my composure.
"Thanks Ken, I'll pay for it. I owe you from last night anyway." I got my wallet out to see if I had enough.
"Thanks man," Kenny patted me on the back, "I'm broke as hell anyway".
I rolled my eyes, "Kenny, you wouldn't be so broke if you didn't keep spending your money on porn."
"Screw you!" he punched my side.
I elbowed him, "Just keep walking…"