Cloud
Damn it… How did this happen?
Who are these guys? Why do they call me Big Brother?
Why do they look like… him?
What the hell… I've got to be dreaming. I have to be. But it hurts. I can't stop the bleeding. I can't wake up, because I'm already awake. And alive.
They keep asking me where their mother is- like I've got some sort of clue?
Unless, they mean…
He always called her Mother, he even thought she was his mother. And they look like him and act like him and stare at me like him…
They can't mean her. We killed her.
I am not…
Gods, damn!
-…a memory.-
Get your fist out of my face…!
Maybe I should've seen this coming. Maybe I deserved this for ignoring the signs. The nightmares, the sickness. This sickness that… makes me see their faces. The, the faces.
This is what you get for turning your back on me, Cloud.
Ugh!
I don't have your "mother," okay? I don't have your goddamn mother. We fought her for a reason. She's a parasite. She doesn't care about you. She doesn't care about anything but feeding. She was going to kill us all! Gods, are your heads as thick as his? Don't fall for the same trap he did. Don't idolize this monster! Don't bring her back! She'd make us all monsters! She made… him a monster.
And monsters rarely, if ever, have happy endings…
That's right, I'm staring at you, buddy.
You're the worst. Just, just leave me alone. I don't want to be your brother, I don't want to be part of your gods-forsaken monster family. And even if I knew where your "mother" was, I'd never tell you. I'd never let it happen again, ever.
How does that feel, Cloud? How does that feel?
Family. Love.
Your love isn't real. Your "family" isn't real. It's obsession, it's instinct, it's insanity. And stop, stop it, stop calling me Big Brother. Stop throwing that in my face as if it means anything! I was an only child. I am an only child. What was forced into my veins doesn't make me a part of your family. It makes me a prisoner. It makes me a prisoner in a dark jail made of tainted flesh. I'll die before I accept you as family. In another time, in another place, maybe, just maybe I could've…
-On your knees.-
If we'd been brothers… Yeah, there would have been love. Acceptance. Forgiveness. Blood is thicker than water. But this is oil. This is poison. Poison murdered my hero. It's poison I'll never forgive. And it's poison I'll never welcome as family.
-Join me.-
Leave me-
Alone.
7-22-2008 A/N: Not necessarily by "popular demand" did I decide to add one last chapter to this thing. Interpret it how you like. Here's hoping it might be enjoyed as much as I...might've enjoyed making it. Thank you to whoever reads. And have a good night.