the future

i looked in the mirror but I was staring at a stranger, my smile wagons and I forced one staring at the reflection of the mirror. I wore make up and I didn't recognise it and I dint know why I was t doing anything about it. Why was I because of what happened- because I was foolish.

just be yourself and stay strong everything will work out, but be prepared.

that's what mum said right? I can't remember but I know it was somewhere along those lines. I was sad I think I was the only one who could see it. I should never have sighn-

" your on in a few minutes Tohru"

I knew it was his fault, but I found I couldn't blame him I gave a nod and a smile. When he closed the door I slumped in my chair and cried I cried and let the tears wash down my face as I walked down the halls, the halls towards the halls surrounding me silently and empty, a light still glistened in my heart and I will never let this life extinguished it no matter what. And that's a promise.

The lights flashed before my eyes, as the little heads of people gleamed t me in expectation. The judge se waiting for what I have, I felt nervous and still, like a deer afraid to move but pushing past it I sang.

i chose the song, I have loved you for a thousand years. Because it seems that it was close to my heart, because before, when the curse was made was a thousand years ago, and I love Kyo and the sohma's it may be slightly different the lyrics but that doesn't change the meaning to me it didn't.

i wore a blue skirt with a pink shirt, they said you could ware whatever you wanted and Ayumi said that he couldn't stand a young maiden wearing something so simple. But I think I felt more relaxed in this.

heart beats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

how can I love if I am afraid to fall?

but watching you stand alone

all of my doubts suddenly go away some how

one step closer

I sang sang with my eyes closed, and I heard people rouse from there seats encouraging me and I felt a prick of confidence and power serge me, like an ocean. I continued to sing, I think I messed up a line but my mind payed no attention. Soon I finished, with my hands still gripping the microphone as I sang the last note.

I'll love you for a thousand more

and I listened to the provided music drift off the song perfectly In a beautiful surenedy. the I heard the applause of then I listened for the judges opinion eagerly, and I gave hearty smile towards them.

the woman had tanned skin, green eyes, and blonde hair. She had a purple dress that suited her nicely. A Japanese man, with hair that had a flicked back fringe, with purple hair, and wore a pair red glasses, and a red suit. And a man with brown hair that had a thin layer of his brown hair, with blue eye, and olive skin, who had one hand on the yellow lighted table. He wore a denim jacket, and a brown shirt.

" I love it, you have a beautiful voice and the meaning, and the feeling in it it's astounding" said a woman on the sear, in the middle of two judges.

" I have to agree Renge it- your voice is so powerful and so gentle, and it matches your image somehow, when I saw you I went mmmm, I had my doubts and you blew me away" he had a female voice but I bowed.

" Thank you" I said.

And I looked to the next judge, his lips were twisting and turning as if weighing and analysing something. I guess he has to it's part of his job, but that doesn't mean it wouldn't have made tummy churn and do flips, even if it did.

" Well" he leaned forward and leaned his mutha to his fist " your voice is great" he pointed his fingers at me, his hands in a gun position " but your not ready for this competition" I stepped back slightly and the man on the other end of him argued.

" O come on this-is - my-" he looked at me " don't listen Tohru you have an amazing voice it's a yes for me" he raised his hands and people cheered.

" It's a yes for me too" said Renge hands crossed on the table giving me a genuine smile. I looked at the judge who I guessed name was Nathan.

" No, m sorry but I don't think your ready- that you can't handle the downs of being famous"

...

" Kyo! Kyo!- Kyo Kyo" I said as I ran to him.

i was i kyos arms as he congratulated me made it through, and I must admit what that judge said hurt but I shook it off.

" Great job Tohru, don't worry about that poofter" he said fiercely I smiled.

" How about we go out to elaborate" I said smiling.

" Sounds good"

" Tohru"

i turned to find Momiji he smiled and gave me an energetic smile. I saw yuki and Kagura walking towards us too, Kagura joining the hug, and yuki smiling at the scene. I always wondered why yuki always gave people subtle and peaceful smiles.

" Tohru I can't believe it! Congratulations" said Kagura in her cute and innocent state of Kagura. I couldn't help but blush slightly.

" Tohru I'm so sorry that I didn't come. To hear the wedding announcement!" Said Momiji crying slightly.

" It's okay I have to go now but I will come see you soon"

and at that momment like a shade in the night, Nathan strolled towards me like I was. His competitor. I stiffened slightly, andi saw Kyo tighten his arm around my waist slightly, and he stopped in front of me. His eyes blank and empty worn out, like he had no soul.

" I hope you know what you pave gotten yourself into" he said blankly and eerily, and he gave me a piece of paper wich I took silently.

" What are you talking about! Leave her alone" Kyo defence.

" You'll find out soon enough"

...

me Kyo walked down the streets hand in hand, and I felt like some people were staring but I tried to take no notice. We walked I to the restaurant it was silent strangely not the restaurant on our way there. Kyo was silent and it filled me with dread. Had I done something wrong? doesn't he like the fact I'm on this TV show? Should I give up? Would he tell if I ask? Should I? Will he get mad? Would he tell me?

I decided to leave it, I found him staring at me and when I caught his eye, he would force a smile before looking away. He gave me some squeezes on my hand every now and then as if to reassure me for what I didn't know. Until we walked into the restaurant then I think I had some idea of what's happening.

everyone stopped working, even the waitress stared stopped while the customer kept talking but soon the customer stopped. I was confused then all eyes were pointed in the same direction at me. I stopped and was confused and snuggled up to Kyo for protection, it was creepy like walking into an alien movie.

then I heard my song, I loved you for a thousand years. I looked and realised there was a small tv and I was singing, I remember reading I. The contract things would go on air as about two hours after you've sung. The Everyone removed themselves for there seats and they charged at us like a stampede.

then Kyo grabbed,me bridal style ( which I blushed slightly) my hair cascading down his arm that supported my back and we were off. My hair flew in the wind as people still chased after us, then Kyo placed me in the car, the felling of flying disappearing from my body, and Kyo got in the next car seat. But by that time people swarmed the car like bees, and we drove up, luckily we didn't hit anyone.

" Are you alright!?" Asked Kyo concern in his voice up hidden.

i was panting still refers tearing what was happening. Why did they?- I mean I think I understood, but I think my brain was placed in a washing machine. They ran after me as soon as they saw me, do they love me or something? Then I remembered the applause. I also remember seeing a rockstar boy band I think they were called ID ( hate ID and for all 1D fans THERE NOT A BOY BAND THREE DAYS GRACE IS!)

and how all the girls swooned at them and wanted to see them. i was afraid they ran at me, and I feel so stupid for cowering away when...

" Hope you know hat you gotten yourself into" Nathan's voice flowed in my mind.

is this what he meant? Or was it something else?something worse? How did he predict it? Then I remembered his worn out eyes. Had he been through this? Had it hurt him? How did it feel for him? Was he afraid? Did he lose anything? My eyes flew over to Kyo, I would really die if I lose him. And I wont I would never hurt Kyo.

" Kyo you were quiet before are you okay?" I asked in a small voice, he looked at me.

" I sensed some people staring at you, but I wasn't sure if it was me being protective or nothing, and when we walked into that restaurant I knew what I sensed was right" he said then gripped the wheel " anyway what right do they have to touch you like that! I should rip there skulls off!" he exclaimed.

" Kyo do you want me to forfeit the competition?" I asked unsure of the answer, for a while it was silent.

" No I want you to be happy, do what you want to do Tohru but I will be here it may piss me off though but I want the best for you" he said I could tell in his voice he was trying to find the right words.

i leaned over and kissed his cheek and gave him a smile. Then when we parked the car we couldn't believe our own eyes, and I couldn't either my body was on ex again dripped on shock, and a tinge of dread.

i front of us was a crowd of people at our house, they weren't A big crown but they weren't small either, and as soon as they saw us they broke into cheers like an on and off switch. I heard shouts as me and Kyo stated, they were exclaimed to people, and I must admit I was touched and a but frightened.

but then I thought all these people love me I should be grateful and happy thats how they feel it's so sweet. I looked at Kyo and put my hand on Kyo's, I tried to tell him silently I knew what to do. And he got out of the car and I did the exact same. People tried to grab me, and some asked for autographs but Kyo grabbed the back of my shirt luckily and pulled me inside.

But before he did I slipped my hand out and stepped on the front porch. I stood before everyone and people wee yelling speech and I spoke quietly at fist but they couldn't hear till.

" HEY SHES TRYING TO SPEAK GIVE SO SHUT UP!" Yelled Kyo and that silenced, them he grabbed my hand and I smiled at him feeling reassured and happy that he was by my side.

" I would like to thank you people for your support and it won't be forgotten, and I feel so ahhpyo, it's really sweet of you." I said I wasn't sure what to say but I continued I thought they deserved to know how I felt about this and I only hoped they would except this.

" I'm not sure what to say I'm lost for words of your kindness, and I have a favour could you please leave Kyo and I to sleep, and when you see me walking the street I wouldn't mind a simple fretting that would be fine" I said hoping they'd understand.

" Go Tohru"

" your gonna win"

...

the shouts went on, and it annoyed me slightly, but I understood. So me and Kyo lay in our bed trying to get some sleep but sleep wouldn't come. It was ten-o-clock and now they finally died down and left, Kyo and I sign simultaneously, I knew this was my opportunity.

" Kyo will you be okay with this" I asked, he shuffled slightly.

" It's annoying Tohru but I will always be here, just do one thing" he said pulling me into a warm embrace, by wrapping his arms around me " just don't let it get to your head."

then things were silent, and I had my mind become a washing machine of thoughts. What's going to happen now? Kyo seems so sad and unsure, is he upset? I decide not to push it wouldn't help. I felt different like I just stripped naked in a crowd, and I felt so bare.

" Just don't let it get to you head"

i hope you know what you got yourself into"

" be strong"

then my mind drifted to Nathan. Was his words a warning? Something to throw me off my game? What has he been through? Why does he always look so sad? Should I ring his number and ask? Would that make him mad? If it did would that ruin my chances at the competition?

I don't know why I was worried about the competition I honestly couldn't care, there was more important things to worry about. But I couldn't distinguish the feeling I wanted to win. I don't think I should ask because I had a feeling I would find out anyway.

hose words had different meanings to me, and I felt my life full of so many meaning it was pushing the others out. And I didn't like it it made me feel sick and uneasy. I don't know but I was scared, not scared maybe...anxious I don't know what was going on. I did but I think there was a lot in store, I just hopped with al l my heart., that this wouldn't ruin the relationship between me and Kyo.

if I lost Kyo I think my life would be drained, and now I think I understood what was in his eyes. He was afraid to lose me, that explained the.. Hand squeezes and the hugs and protection. I think. I looked at his face, his face was gentle and tense but only slightly relaxed, I knew he was asleep.

he was like a man in the army, a man so hurt and injured yet so pure still. So strong. I hugged him,wrapping my arms around his neck, and his scent filled my nostrils before I fell asleep I think I head him say.

" I don't want to lose you"