*Roxas' POV*

I couldn't sleep that night. No matter how much I tried I couldn't get that girl out of my head. She had the courage to stand up to me. Courage that even adults didn't have. Of all people why help me? I tossed and turned in my bed. I couldn't erase the image of her from my mind… The way she looks and talks just cause my heart to leap and flutter.

"Huh… Why is life so complicated?" I groaned miserably.

But all in all having her by my side is the second happiest time in my life… The first was when I lived with Axel and Demyx…

"Namine…" I spoke the words soft. They were new to me. I'm usually so cold to people, but why soft when I'm around her?

"I hate myself…" I finally decided before closing my eyes and going to sleep.

Unknown to her though, I'll dream about her once again…

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I finally decided this morning that I would avoid her at all costs. I went buy a Sea Salt ice cream and sat on a park bench. I was completely content with watching the little kids run around and playing. I couldn't help but smile… Do you think it's weird for a serial killer to want to have children? No? I didn't think so.

I quickly fell into a light slumber…

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I could hear screaming off far into the distance. I recognized the screams and I smiled. It was eight years ago… I walked to my old house. With every passing same recognizable scream, my grin grew wider and wider. Yes, I know it's heartless of me, but I don't care.

I finally arrived at my house. I heard two final screams and my grin cracked into a wicked smile and I laughed quietly. I opened the door and prided myself. I was indeed happy. It was a sick and cruel happy, but it didn't matter.

I watched gladly as my parents fell to the floor in a pool of blood. My younger self fell to the ground and cried.

Not of sadness.

But of pure joy.

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I cracked open my eyes slightly and blinked as the sun was blinding. I opened one eye and was met with two sapphire orbs, brightly shining.

"Hey, sleepyhead!" I recognized that melody anywhere.

"Namine…" I said slightly happy, annoyed, and groggily.

"What are you doing out here in the broad daylight?" She asked slightly suspicious.

"Napping…" I said massaging my head to prevent the on coming headache.

"You're boring." She said as if was the most obvious thing in the world. Which it was.

"And you're an idiot." I said furrowing my brows in an annoyed manner.

"Why do I even try… I know! Let's talk." She said getting serious. I observed her suspiciously.

"About what?" The frown never leaving my face.

"Your past." My heart seemed to stop at that moment.

"Fine. But where?" Why was I agreeing? My heart seemed to answer for me.

"Your place." She said as she took my hand. My heart fluttered at the contact of her warm touch. It sent shocks through my body.

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"What happened in your past?"

We were now seated at apartment on the couch. I wanted to laugh and tell her she'll have to beat it out of me. My brain was telling me to just laugh and kill her here and now. However, my heart was telling me to tell her the truth. I sighed, as I got a little nervous.

"A lot." That was the best answer I had… I'm pathetic. My heart seemed to beat rapidly as if angry. It beated all the more rapidly when Namine stared me down, hard and cold. She wanted answers. I sighed again.

"Fine." I sighed as well as glared.

"My parents were abusive. They had the highest social record of anyone in this town. In front of people, they were the perfect couple and idols. We were the perfect family. Only at home did one see their dark side. One little mess up… One wrong word out of my mouth, would give them all the reasons in the world to nearly kill me." I said disgusted. I unclenched my fists, which were near bleeding. Namine was looking at me with concerned and anxious eyes. She nodded so I continued.

"When I was seven, I came home from school and they were on the ground in a puddle of blood…" I smiled wickedly. "Or at least that's what I told the police…"

Namine's eyes grew wide in shock. But she didn't dare and interrupt.

"I never went to school that day… Instead I stayed behind. My father and mother beat me once they found out. I regained consciousness to find a knife next to my neck. My father was about to split my throat. Out of reflex I kicked my father. He fell to the ground and the knife slid across the room. My mother was helping my father up while yelling at me."

I paused trying to remember, and taking a deep breath. I was getting too excited and I can't let that happen or otherwise I would kill Namine.

"I thought about calling the cops but then I realized if I did that, they'll come after me and torment me again. I remembered the knife and thought, 'Why stop it for just a day, when I can end it forever…?'" I took another deep breath and relaxed myself. My smile turned into a deep frown.

"I took the knife and stabbed my parents over and over until they were dead. They screamed multiple times, but my smile grew every time I could hear one of their melodious screams. It was like music to me. Once I was satisfied and heard their last piercing screams, I dropped the knife unsure of what to do. I quickly changed the bloody shirt and pants with my school uniform. I cleaned the blood off my face and wiped my fingerprints clean off the knife. I called the cops with fear in my voice knowing they'd buy it. I waited a while before Axel and Demyx came running in. I positioned myself over the bodies and I cried. Unknown to them though, I was crying not because I was sad. I was crying out of pure joy." I finished with my wicked smile now in tact and I knew from the adrenalin rush I was having I had a crazed look in my eyes.

"How could you?" She whispered so soft. Just like her. Her heart and everything about her is soft. She needs to toughen up!

"Were you listening to anything?!" I said raising my voice, but she didn't move or flinch.

"Yes I was. But just because they abused you, that doesn't mean you have to kill them!" She yelled back.

"You don't know anything about me or what I went through!" I yelled just as harshly.

"Yes I do! I know you don't want to kill! I know you want to change!" She said. Her harsh words were getting softer with each word.

"Yeah right! Like I would want to stop!" I said. Her softness was having an effect on me…

"You say that, but your eyes tell a different story." She said seriously, with all harshness gone.

"Tch. You still don't know anything about what I went through." I said with my own usual harshness gone.

"Before my mother left she abused me…" She said with a sadness cracking her voice. My eyes went wide with shock. Namine? Abused? Who would want to abuse an already fragile girl like Namine?

"My mother abused me until I was two. She wanted me dead. But she wouldn't dare try. My father found out when he came home from work and saw her beating me. My father was horrified. My mother tried getting Dad to help her, but Dad refused and kicked her out. He said as long as he was breathing no one would ever hurt his little angel. I cried because I was so happy that my dad was there. I knew at least one person in this world me." She smiled.

My eyes went wide with shock and realization. Could things have really been different if I called the cops first? Would some one be there to show me the love that I craved…? Then it hit me… There are people who care about me… Sora, Uncle Leon, the cops, and my best friends… Axel and Demyx…

Namine and I jumped slightly when I suddenly heard a knock on my door.

"Hey Rox? You home?" That was Axel's voice.

I opened the door and was met with Axel and Demyx on their daily weekend visit. We usually go out for Sea Salt ice cream.

"Are we… interrupting something?" Demyx said looking over at Namine. Namine went a scarlet, while I went crimson.

"N-no nothing…" I managed to stutter.

"I- I'll just be leaving then." Namine stuttered before walking out. I ran to catch up with her.

"Wait! Namine!" I caught her by her wrist and she turned quickly confused.

"I do want to change… but I don't know how and truth is… I'm a little scared…" I admitted ashamed of myself.

"You're the only one who can help me… Please Namine?" I whispered finally realizing the hard truth. I needed her light to save me from my impending world of despair and darkness… for my sake and everyone else's…

"Until you do change, I'll be your guiding hand. I'll be by your side until the very end." She whispered smiling.

"Thank you…" I finally whispered before she walked off into her world of light and one thought went through my head…

"Can I really change?"