Getting Along

by Lizsholden

Gary Smith is earning his way back into Bullworth. First he has to prove that he can be trusted. But, Gary can be trusted because he wants to start over. He has no intention of trying to take over the school. Again. Or will he? Jimmy is now suspicious and keeping an eye on Gary. Will Jimmy figure out Gary's horrible past and why he wanted to take over the school in the first place?

4. Tragity

Getting Along

Chapter 4: Tragity

Jimmy stomped all the way back to the Boy's dorm and into the room he and Pete shared. Jimmy flopped down face first on the bed and screamed into his pillow. Pete, who was reading, looked up from his book. "That was quite the show you and Gary put on during and after class." He commented. "Yeah, and we got our asses chewed out for it." Jimmy growled. "Well at least you didn't get a detention." Pete said all perky and Petey like. That seemed to cheer Jimmy up a bit, but only for a minute. All the sudden, Gary, bursted through the door, looking extreamly pissed off. "Great, I have to share a room with you, Chowder Heads." Gary growled. "What?!" Jimmy and Pete yelled in union. Gary ignored the two, and put his bag on the empty bed. Jimmy got up and tapped on Gary's shoulder. As soon as he turned around, Jimmy grabed a fist-full of Gary's shirt and shoved him into the wall. "Alright, what the hell are you doing here?" Jimmy yelled in Gary's face. "I just said, this is my room too now." Gary said. "How did you get back into the school?" Jimmy asked forcefully. "Uh, let's see... I walked." Gary replied. Jimmy yanked Gary forward and shoved him back into the wall. "Damn! Ok, I'll tell you as soon as I'm finished unpacking." Jimmy nodded in approval. "Yeah, uh... you kinda gotta let go of me first." Jimmy let go of Gary's shirt and plopped down on his bed. Gary walked over to his bed and began unpacking. After Gary finished unpacking, he sat down on his bed and sighed. "So, answer the question." Jimmy ordered. "Ok, it started after the fight on the roof. After you dragged me through broken glass, and left the building, the ambulance came and rushed me to the hospital. After I was healed enough, I was sent straight to Happy Volts. It wasn't Happy. And we weren't allowed near the volts. So the name makes no sense. Anyway, after a week I went home. After I realised I was just unwanted company, I came back here. Crabblesnitch didn't like it at first, but then I explained to him he was supposed to make sure i was taking my medication. So he didn't want any law suits to come up, It would be bad publicity for the school, he agreed to let me back in only if I earned it. So I spent hours cleaning the damn building and being a complete suck up, just to get my way back into this dump. So, here I am now." Gary explained. "How did you get let out of the Asylum?" Pete asked. "They medicated me up the Wazoo and sent me on my way." Gary chuckled in reply. "Why the hell did you come back here? There is alot more places in the world better than this dump." Jimmy questioned. "I left some unfinished buissness. I wanted to start over, you know, appologize to you two. I know I was wrong, to do that stuff to you guys. And I'm sorry. I just got paranoyed. It's hard to have no one in your life that you can trust. You guys would know, My stupidity put you through that hell, and I'm sorry." Gary said. "And you expect us to believe that shit?" Jimmy asked, not convinced. Gary looked dissapointed. "No, I don't. I know you think I'm bullshitting you, but I meant what I said and I said what I meant. I know you probably don't forgive me, but I don't forgive myself either. I just wish for once in my life, I could prove that I'm not a fuck up. Every time I fuck up. I would like to know I'm not a failure. I also wish that I had someone I could make proud, and I wish I could make myself proud of me. Every single fucking time I try to do something, I either fuck it up or it just blows up in my face. Every fucking time!" Gary began to rant. "I know I'm messed up, and I fuck up constantly, but I want you guys to know I don't do it on purpose." Gary sighed. "Well, why don't you go back home and try to make your parents proud instead of bothering the hell out of us?" Jimmy suggested. "That's the thing, I haven't seen my parents for years." Gary forced out. "Where are they?" Pete asked. "I don't know, dead, alive, the USA, Canada, Asia, who the hell knows?" Gary said as his face began to look flushed. "How come you don't know? Didn't they tell you where they were going?" Jimmy asked. "If your parents abandoned you at the doorstep of an Orphanage a few days after you were born, and the only thing you have left of them is a tag tied around your ankle with your name written on it, would you think they'd tell you?" Gary was practically in tears. "That's the reason I have trust issues." "How would that give you trust issues?" Pete asked in a worried tone. " I couldn't trust my own parents to keep me. I was raised at that damn orphanage all of my life. A couple came to adopt me when I was six. It was one of the happiest moments in my life. I had finally gotten a family. I could now be like everyone else I thought. After a week in my new home, My "Mother" got mad one day and left me and my "Dad." A few months passed and he became an alcoholic. He drank all the time. I thought it was his way of dealing with the pain, so I left him alone. One day I can never forget, I failed a spelling test in the first grade. He was so pissed." Gary said. "So? The mighty Gary got in trouble for failing. What's so bad about that? The great Gary can't forget about his first F? Man you're full of yourself!" Jimmy yelled. "I can't forget! The drunk basturd cut me across the face with a pocket knife, leaving me a permanant reminder on my face, that I can't trust anyone! That day the bitch was arrested, and I was taken back to the orphanage after I got a million stitches to my face. After that I didn't talk to anyone for a month. I trusted the staff's judgement and it blew up in my face. They told me I was gonna be safe! I was gonna be happy! But what did I get? A couple divorced a week after I move in and a sliced up face, by a drunken dip shit! You claim you have it so hard because your mother keeps remarrying, but you have a mother! You, Pete, you complain about your mom being so embarrasing and your dad being a librarian! I don't get why you two should be happy you are lucky enough to have parents that actually give two shits about you. Believe me, Hopkins, if your mother hated you, you would've ended up in the same place I was placed in!" Gary was now screaming. "If our parents cared about us as much as you say they do, then why did they leave us here, with no contact to them what so ever? They dumped us here so they could get on with their lives and forget about us, so we're just as unfortunate as you are!" Jimmy argued back. "No!" Gary screamed, tears now coming down his face, "You aren't as unfortunate as I am! At least you got a chance! At least you got to spend time with your parents, giving them a chance to like you! Mine didn't give a shit what would happen to me! They didn't even give me a chance to prove I was worth keeping! They dumped me out like trash, not caring how I would turn out! They didn't care if I would be upset about it! All they could think of was themselves! They didn't care about ME! I never did anything to make them not want me! I always use to think that they were coming back. I would just have to wait. Years passed and I realised the worst thing in my entire life. They were never coming back. They didn't want me! They didn't give two shits about me. They didn't care if I was dead or alive! They just dumped me and made me someone else's problem! They didn't want me! They were never coming back! I wanted them so badly to come and be there. They never came! I would've liked it better if they'd died. It sounds kinda harsh but at least I wouldn't have to live with myself knowing they only weren't there because they didn't want me, not because they couldn't be!" Gary broke down and began to cry. He sat on the floor at the foot of his bed, crying. Jimmy felt like the biggest piece of shit in existance, unless Gary felt that way right now. Then he felt like the second biggest piece of shit in existance. Pete jumped out of his bed and sat next to Gary trying to comfort him. Jimmy had never known what Gary had to put up with. Jimmy felt stupid for always complaining about his parents and never realized that it was actually killing Gary. Gary couldn't stop crying. He looked as if he held in all that emotion and hurt for years. Jimmy sat down next to Gary and started rubbing his back. Gary calmed down after almost an hour. Pete gave him a cup of water, and told him to lye down. Gary layed down on his bed and fell asleep soon after. Jimmy and Pete were releaved to have him sleeping. Jimmy and Pete just read books and whispered to eachother until they went to sleep. The day was finally over.