You Can't Love Someone You Don't Trust

Chapter 4

Clare's POV:

I don't remember quite what happened. The only thing I remembered was a blinding white light filling my eyes, and then it was like I went into a deep sleep. I didn't really understand what was happening. There was this bright light and a voice talking, but there was this kind of force pulling me away from the light, it was pulling me deeper into the darkness. It was hard to fight it, part of me wanted to, but the other part just wanted to sink down into the darkness and just rest. I just wanted to forget everything and just have peace. But I didn't feel like I had fulfilled my purpose here on earth. So I fought, and pulled away from the force pulling me under. The more I fought the closer the light got, and the louder the voice I was hearing got. The voice sounded familiar but I couldn't pin point it. It was talking to god, asking him for forgiveness and for a miracle, whatever that maybe. When I first opened my eyes I thought I had died and went to heaven. I still heard the voice talking and my first thought was that it was my dad.

Me-"Dad, is that you?"

When everything became clear I realized that I was lying in a hospital bed with I.V.'s poking into me everywhere. There was a boy kneeling next to my bed. He looked up at me and I realized that it was Eli. I couldn't believe that he was here. I mean come one, out of all the people that could be in this ugly little room it had to be him. He immediately jumped up and came and hugged me. I pushed him away.

Me-"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? YOU ARE THE LAST PERSON I WANT TO SEE!"

Eli-"What are you talking about?"

Me-"Excuse me? You don't remember our fight?"

Eli-"WHAT FIGHT?

Me-"JUST GET OUT I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!

Eli-"How could you say that to me?"

Eli came like he was going to hug me again, but I didn't want to be touched by him. He had hurt me in the most painful way possible. I didn't know what else to do, so I did the only think I could think of.

Me-"HELP, SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!"

Eli-"Have you lost your mind, I'm your boyfriend, I'm supposed to be here."

A few minutes later a bunch of doctors and nurses came running into the room, demanding to know what was going on.

Me-"GET HIM OUT. HE'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE."

Doctor-"Ok, nurses will you please escort this young man out of here and into the waiting room."

The nurses replied with a quick nod before grabbing Eli by the arms and taking him out of the room.

Eli-"Clare! How could you do this? I'M YOUR BOYFRIEND, I LOVE YOU."

When Eli yelled that he loved me it reminded me of all the hurtful things he had said to me during our fight. He didn't love me; he wanted nothing to do with me. The doctor came and sat in the chair beside my bed.

Doctor-"Hi, I'm doctor Johnson. How are you doing?"

Me-"I don't know, I'm really confused."

Doctor Johnson-"I know you have been through a lot. But don't worry your parents are in the waiting room."

Me-"Ok, but could you please just tell me what I am doing here?"

Doctor Johnson-"How about I go get your parents?"

Me-"Ok." He walked out of the room for a second before returning.

Mrs. Edwards-"OH MY GOODNESS CLARE! ARE YOU OK?" the women said as she came to my side hugging me. I quickly pulled away and she was confused. The man that was with her walked over to the other side of my bed.

Mr. Edwards-"Clare honey, what's wrong?"

Me-"Who's Clare? and who are you?"

Mrs. Edwards-"I don't understand, we are your parents, and you are our daughter Clare."

Me-"You're not my parents. I'm not Clare."

Mrs. Edwards-"Honey what are you talking about? Of course you're Clare."

Me-"No I'm not, my name is Julia."