Trigger Warning!

If you are triggered by scenes of rape, you may want to skip the first part of this and go the end. I will add a page break line so you will know where to start reading again.

Beep! Beep! BEEP!

Rin reached out from underneath the blanket and slapped the "off" button on the blaring alarm clock, slowly blinking the sleep from her eyes. The heavy, light-canceling curtains were drawn tight, the pale red 5:15 on the digital alarm clock was the only light in the dark room.

Beside her, a still sleeping Sesshomaru turned over onto his side, his arm sliding around her waist, pulling her back to press her back against his chest.

"Mmm, you have to let me get ready for class…" Rin whispered sleepily, not truly wanting to leave the warm bed, or the even warmer arms of her lover. She allowed herself a moment to enjoy the feeling of his embrace, but, not wanting to risk falling back asleep, began to squirm.

"Do you want me to take you?" he asked gruffly, his eyes opening to small slits as his arm loosened from around her. He watched her dark form climb out bed and shuffle blindly towards the adjoining bathroom door.

"I don't mind taking the city bus," Rin assured him, opening the door and switching the bathroom light on, "you don't have to get up just for me." He grunted as bright light suddenly flooded the bedroom, forcing him to turn over and pull the blanket up around him.

"Wake me up before you leave…" he grumbled, closing his eyes once more.

Rin smiled and nodded even though she knew he would be able to see it, "Yes, sir."

Turning into the bathroom, she closed the door to keep the light from waking him further and went straight to the stand up shower in the corner. The room was built Japanese-style with white tile on the floor and walls, the floor angled slightly so all water was directed into a drain set in the middle of the floor. She eyed the antique clawfoot bathtub pushed against one wall, wishing she had the time to take a long, hot soak, but she knew she did not have the time this morning.

Sighing softly, she stepped through the open shower door, thankful at least for not having to take the time to undress. At her dorm, she had been forced to sleep in restricting night clothes due to the college's safety policies- if there was an emergency, the administrators did not want students running around in the nude- but here in Sesshomaru's penthouse apartment she was allowed- even encouraged- to sleep in the nude.

She purred softly in delight as hot water began to cascade down over her from the overhead nozzle, and immediately began running her fingers through her hair, working the water through the thick black waves. Her mind began to wander as her body began taking over the monotonous task it had done for so many years, allowing herself to reflect over the events of the past few days. Even though it had been a week ago that she had drunkenly sent Sesshomaru that nude image, it felt as if months had passed already!

Sesshomaru had wasted no time setting things in motion after telling her she was to move back in with him, hiring a small, private moving team to pack up the few things that she owned from her dorm room and brought back to the penthouse. She had tried to dissuade him from paying the team so much money to bring only three boxes of her things, her face beet red at the thought of strangers going through her underwear drawer and finding the vibrating sex toy hidden there. He insisted though, and she knew better than to argue the point further.

Besides, she had been a little distracted by her phone blowing up with text after text message from her roommate and her best friend, Ayame and Kiarra, trying to fend off the rapid fire questioning of why strange men were in the dorm taking away her things, and where she had been disappearing off to after classes were over. It had been hard to explain the reasoning behind the sudden move without revealing the true nature of her and Sesshomaru's relationship, but she was able to convince them she had been having financial trouble and he had offered to let her move back in with him until she was more financially stable. Her friends had not been entirely convinced, but accepted her story since they would all still see each other on campus.

Shippo, on the other hand, had been less than pleased that his girlfriend was moving in with another man- even though she had explained to him numerous times that Sesshomaru was more of a father figure to her than a man- and that it would be that much harder for them to hook up. Sesshomaru had told her he felt she should break it off with "the boy" as he called him, but Rin managed to convince him that, with the sudden move and all the time she was spending with him outside of school, people would begin to get suspicious of their relationship if she were to suddenly break it off with Shippo.

After some reluctance, Sesshomaru agreed with her, but gave her his own terms: 1, Shippo was to never be allowed into his bedroom, 2, Rin was to tell him anytime she hooked up with Shippo- though at first he had been adamant that there be no sexual contact between them ever again- and 3- she had until the first of the month to break it off with him. Knowing how generous and level headed he was being all of it, Rin had readily agreed to his terms, for she knew if he had ordered it, she would not have been able to resist him.

Everyday since then, she had met with Shippo at the college cafeteria for breakfast, parting ways with a kiss to each go to their respective classes, only to meet up again for their shared third- and final- class of the day. They would then go back to the cafeteria for a late lunch before it was off to Shippo's dorm room or the library to study together. So far she had been able to fend off Shippo's sexual advances during their study time by claiming she was having her "monthly visitor", giving him a handjob under the library table or a blowjob in his dorm room so he would not get suspicious, but even she knew that the excuse would only work for so long. Her fears had been confirmed the night before when Shippo sent her a text message late in the afternoon:

"You should be off the rag by now, right? How about tomorrow night I take you out to dinner, and then we could rent a motel room for the night? I've missed you =("

Sesshomaru had been upset at the thought of Shippo touching what he considered to be his, but had been true to his word, even going as far as to offer her one of his cars for the night so she would not have to pay for a taxi home. Rin assured him this would be the last time and explained her plan to break it off with him the next day. He had been pleased by the news. So much so that he then threw her on the bed, ravaging her well into the night.

Today was the day of her final night with Shippo, and, despite her joy at finally ending the charade with him, somewhere deep inside her she felt a sense of sadness because Shippo had been nothing but good to her, doing nothing to deserve the wrong she had been doing to him. Deep down inside, she wished she could somehow spare him the pain, because she wanted nothing but happiness for him. He would someday make a lucky lady a very nice husband.

The door to the bathroom opening brought Rin back to the present in time to see Sesshomaru's distorted figure through the smoked glass shower door make its way over to the toilet and she could hear him over the sound of the shower relieving himself.

Turning herself away to give him some privacy, she realized she had been shampooing her hair during her thinking and ducked her head under the water's spray to rinse off, massaging her fingers through the hair strands to get out all of the suds.

The sound of the shower door opening warned her of his presence, but her body still trembled as she felt his large hands caress her slick skin, a small gasp of pleasure slipping past her lips as they slid across her hips, up over the smooth planes of her stomach to warmly cup her breasts.

"Sir…" she moaned, pressing her chest into his hands while pushing her hips back into his crotch, unsurprised to feel his rock hard erection poking her lower back, "I have to… mmm… get ready for class..." She bit her lower lip as he kneaded her breasts, the feeling of his hot breath against the nape of her neck was making her skin hypersensitive, "I can't be late…"

"You won't be," Sesshomaru assured her, his voice lowering a few octaves to a deeper, sexier growl. Sliding his hands down her body, his right hand stopped at her hip while the left slid back up along her spine, leaving a trail of goosebumps in its wake, until he pressed his palm flat between her shoulder blade, pressing down firmly.

At the silent command, Rin obediently bent forward at the waist, spreading her legs a little further apart and placing her hands against the cool tile wall for better balance. She felt his hand slide back down her spine once more and, when he reached her behind, he gave it a small spank, squeezing the reddened buttock as she squeaked in surprise.

Rin looked over her shoulder at him, flicking a wet strand of hair out of her face, and watched as he lowered his hand further to take himself in hand, teasing her with drawing his tip up and down along her wet slit. "Oh, sir…" she moaned, making a show of biting her lower lip as he brushed over his clit, sending electric charges throughout her body at the touch, "please… I want to feel you inside me." She emphasized her need by bending further over, presenting herself more to him.

"As you wish," Sesshomaru growled, pressing his tip to her entrance now and, grabbing onto her hips with both hands, drove himself deep into her in one, strong thrust. Rin cried out in surprise and pain at the sudden intrusion, her entire body trembling as he held himself hilt deep inside her, but she knew better than to say anything or he would punish her.

He did not wait long before he was moving, sliding out until only the bulbous head was inside before thrusting fully back inside with strong, quick thrusts. Rin winced as his right hand slid up her back and into her hair, fingernails scraping against her scalp before grabbing a handful, pulling back sharply until tears began to form in her eyes.

Pushing her forward until she was pressed against the cold tile, he pressed his chest against her back and his thrusts became more and more rough until her body jumped with each powerful thrust.

"S-sir, it… it hurts," Rin whimpered, tears beginning to mingle with the water cascading down over them. Her hands splayed against the wall as she tried to catch a hold of anything to keep her upright as he suddenly pulled away, but his hold on her hair was suddenly tightened and she was pulled around sharply to face him.

She cried out in pain as she felt several strands of her hair pull free from her scalp, "Sess-" Her cry ended in a pained gasp as she was forced to her knees, sharp pain exploding in her mind as her knees cracked painfully against the shower floor.

Her mind was reeling with questions of why Sesshomaru's behavior had changed so drastically when all that was pushed aside as he used the opportunity of her mouth being open to suddenly thrust his member inside, burying himself so far down her throat that it distended her throat, forming a large, visible bulge.

Rin's eyes widened in surprise, briefly seeing his emotionless expression floating above her before her eyes squinched closed in pain as she began to gag, bile and saliva beginning to rise in copious amounts as she choked on his thick girth. Her hands scrambled against his lower abdomen and upper thighs, trying to push him away as vomit threatened rose in her throat, her eyes opening to look pleadingly up at him, unsure of what she had done to deserve this.

His hold on her hair did not allow her to move, nor did he step back to allow her to move as she threw up around him. A small smile was his only response as she began making choking sounds along with whimpering pleas.

"You should have just done what I said and been done with that boy…" his smile slowly turned into a smirk, an evil glint beginning to twinkle in his eyes as he watched her suffering. Sliding his left hand into her hair so he held her head in both now, he began to thrust in and out of her throat, ignoring the pained, gagging and coughing sounds she made, "I gave you everything, but you did not appreciate it. You brought this all on yourself, little one."

Her nails scoured his flesh as the most intense pain she had ever felt bombarded her over and over again with every new thrust. Tears flowed freely down her cheeks, her blurred vision still held by the man she had loved for so long that she was still reeling from his terrible actions.

She could feel her body beginning to shut down from the lack of oxygen and from the pure shock of the pain, and she felt that Sesshomaru could sense it. His pace increased and the bitter, salty taste of his pre began to fill her senses. His grip on her hair tightened painfully as her eyes began to droop, forcing them back open and back to semi-consciousness.

It was enough for her to be aware as he thrust once more as deep as he possibly could inside her throat, roaring with triumph as came straight down into her empty gullet. Releasing her hair, he allowed her body to fall limply to the tile floor, though she had slipped into unconsciousness before her head bounced off the tile below.

"No!" Rin screamed loudly as she sat straight up in bed, a cold sweat clinging to her naked skin. The black bed sheets of the bed were wrapped tightly around her legs, constricting her legs, and her breasts were heaving from the short, panting breaths she was taking.

"Rin?" Sesshomaru appeared in the open bedroom door, wearing only a pair of dark blue, soft cotton pajama bottoms, and he was holding a glass of ice water in his hand. "Are you alright?" he asked, setting down the glass on the nightstand as he moved around the bed to her side.

She flinched away as he reached out to touch her shoulder, drawing back quickly as memories of what evil, dream Sesshomaru had done to her. "No! Don't touch me!" she cried out, scrambling backwards away from him until she was pressed back against the headboard like a cornered animal, her eyes wide with fear as she waited for him to lunge forward and attack her again.

Sesshomaru looked at her with surprise, but did not pursue her. He slowly sat down on the end of the bed, watching her worriedly, "Rin, you were having a bad dream. It is okay now; you are safe."

Tears began to slip down her cheeks as she clutched her knees to her chest, rocking back and forth slowly as she cried, "You hurt me! You hurt me so bad! I-I- I don't know…" Her entire body shook as she buried her face in her knees as her cries began to shake her entire body.

"Shh, shh, it's okay," Sesshomaru cooed softly, wanting to take her into his arms, but he was afraid she would draw even further away if he tried to touch her, "none of it was real; you know I would never intentionally hurt you."

"I know you wouldn't…" she whimpered, lifting her head up to look at him through red, puffy eyes, "but... it was so real…" She did not want to believe he would ever be capable of doing something so evil, but the nightmare had felt so life-like…

Sesshomaru slowly lifted a hand and reached to place his hand on her knee, giving her ample chance to stop him, "I'm sorry you had such a bad nightmare. Is there anything I can do to make it better?"

Rin tensed as she saw his hand extend towards her, but she did not push it away. When she felt his touch, her fears slowly began to melt away, her body relaxing, "I… I just want you to hold me…"

He moved further up onto the bed and, gently pulling her closer, he held her tight to his chest, whispering soft murmurs of comfort into her hair as she sobbed against his naked chest. He allowed her to cry herself out, gently stroking her back as he comforted her.

After a few moments, her cries slowly subsided and she simply nestled her head under his chin, feeling completely drained, "I'm so tired…"

Sesshomaru nodded and, lifting himself up a little with her still in his lap, he pulled the covers back and, after some situating, he laid down on his side with her still nestled against him, letting her use his arm and shoulder as a pillow, "Sleep… we'll talk more in the morning when you're feeling better."

"Thank you…" Rin whispered softly, smiling faintly as she leaned up and gently kissed his cheek. He nodded and smiled softly, resting his cheek against her forehead as he settled in to watch over her.

It did not take long before she was out like a light, fast asleep once more…

Hello, readers, I hope all of you are well and have had a good start to the new year =3 I just wanted to let everyone know I have started an AO3 account and have began adding my works here to the new account. I am not leaving FF but I have edited the stories to fix mistakes, fix loop holes, and generally freshen them up, so if you like the stories, you are welcome to go check them out on my account there- its the same username. I will continue to post here any new works- and I do have several in the works at the moment ^_- so look forward to that.

- William