Title : Stars Can't Shine Without Darkness

Main Pairing : Miyusawa

crazy anko - I feel bad to write such a thing but this is a sad fic but will have some good parts too. Yea he's in seidou.

Anonymous3112 - I know but i had to do that. Don't worry at some point Sawamura will overcome it all.

thanks for reviews.

Summary

What if Sawamura never went to Seidou to visit and never met Miyuki there. what if Sawamura rejected the offer and met Miyuki in a different way. Sawamura Eijun never went to Seidou and attended at school in Nagano where he grew up with his friends and family. His high school that he attends didn't have a baseball team so he made one with the help of his friends, they even found themselves a coach that knew a lot about baseball. Things go around when they get a match with Seidou in Tokyo the school that Sawamura had rejected. How will the meeting be with with the players in Seidou.

Chapter 4

Since the day that Sawamura arrived it was hard for some of the members of the baseball team to talk to him whenever he came to watch their practice. He always had that gloomy aura around him but he didn't look away from any of their matches so the brunet was paying attention well.

"Is Sawamura here?" Miyuki walked through the first year's hallway. He then went to the class that the brunet would be in, which was also the same class as Haruichi and Furuya.

"Miyuki-senpai." Haruichi said. Haruichi and Furuya went to where their senpai was, outside of their classroom.

"Where is Sawamura?" Miyuki asked. He came to make sure that everything was right with him.

"He always disappears around lunch time. We don't know where he is but…"

"He's really quick to leave." Furuya finished Haruichi's sentence.

"I wonder where he could be." Miyuki has been worried about the brunet since he arrived. Miyuki didn't see any of that smile that he had come to known when the brunet had come with his team. It wasn't fun teasing somebody that barely had any expression on his face anymore, but that didn't mean the boy would ignore him, it's just Miyuki wanted that Sawamura back, the fun loving, smiling idiot that he had known back then.

Of course Miyuki couldn't believe it, like the rest of the team that Sawamura lost his whole team and if it wasn't worse his parents died to leaving him alone. Miyuki wished he was there for Sawamura at the time, but even if he was there what could he possibly do when he couldn't even do anything for the boy right now.

"You shouldn't worry too much." Haruichi said. "Eijun-kun always comes back before class starts." Even though Haruichi said so, it was hard for him not to worry.

"Miyuki." Kuramochi's loud voice was heard through the hall.

"What is it?" He asked when he was faced with Kuramochi.

"The third and seconds years wants to talk about the next match we are going to have."

"Alright." Miyuki would see Sawamura later when classes were finished.

... ...

Sawamura looked down from the rooftop. He was pretty far from the ground, the students looked like ants from way high up. If he could, he could kill himself and be free from all this hurt and pain he was suffering but he wasn't thinking like that. He wasn't going waste his life since because he felt he was alone without them around.

"This school is different from the one in Nagano." Sawamura then thought about his former Coach and wonder how he was doing, the reason he came here was because of him anyway. The man could no longer be a coach with his legs since it would move the way he wanted. The coach had lost something but it was nothing compared to the right eye that the brunet lost and could no longer see from.

"Why did god take everybody away from me?"

"I thought god was to help people."

Sawamura sat down on the ground. He looked up at the blue sky that was above, this reminded the brunet of the time that he always used to go to the rooftop of Nagano's school roof with his friends, looking up wasting their day away from skipping class.

Sawamura never thought that he would wind up in the very high school that he had rejected. He never thought he would be attending such a famous high school with a good baseball team. But what was the point when Sawamura wasn't interest in ever playing baseball again, yet the person he is rooming is a baseball player.

He never intended to live in a dorm with baseball players but his coach thought it would do him some good. His coach was wrong since every time he sees a baseball player practicing, working their very it reminds the brunet of his friends.

"What the hell was Izumi thinking?"

It was almost time for class to start again so Sawamura headed back to class like he always did. He was never late and was always on time.

"He's back in time, just like usual." Haruichi and the others members of the baseball team always wonder where and what he does in lunch time. The brunet never says a word and is quick to leave giving nobody a chance to say anything to him.

Haruichi tried talking to Sawamura but he never got any reaction from the brunet. He knows that Sawamura was listening to him since he kept looking at him when Haruichi talked to the brunet but he never got a word out of the boy.

Haruichi couldn't believe how much this pitcher has changed from when they first met him. He was so quiet and it was hard to tell what the guy was thinking. Everybody was worried about him, yet there was nothing they could do about it.

... ...

When Sawamura got to his room. He noticed that Miyuki wasn't in the room. Miyuki would always be the first one to be in their room but today Sawamura was first to arrive. Sawamura changed his clothes and then looked at himself in the mirror. He still couldn't believe the person in front of him was him, nothing like how he used to be. Sawamura took his one hand and touched the eye with the eye-patch. It didn't hurt like it did when he got into that accident but he hated seeing his eye like this.

"I'm back." Miyuki yelled as he entered the room. Miyuki was worried when he saw Sawamura looking in the mirror and touching his right eye. This was actually the person time that Miyuki saw Sawamura touch his eye, it looked like he does it when nobody is around.

"Does your eye hurt?" He asked.

"It's fine." Sawamura replied.

After changing into his casual clothes Miyuki sat on the lower bed beside Sawamura. He wanted to tell the brunet something but it was always hard when he wasn't sure how the boy would react.

"It's been two weeks since you arrived here. Hasn't it?"

"Yea." Sawamura nodded his head.

"What do you think of our team?" He asked.

"It's strong."

"You should join us and you will get stronger too."

"I can't." Sawamura had that look on his face. Miyuki had that look on his face so many times before, the look of guilt, there was pure sadness in his eyes. Miyuki wished he could help the brunet but how could he when he didn't know how to deal with whatever the boy was dealing with. Miyuki had lost his mother but he still had a father that he didn't talk much too anymore, it wasn't the same.

"How can I help him?"

Miyuki couldn't stand being in the same room, right now. He didn't know how to deal with Sawamura when he was like that.

"I'll be back." He said as he left the room leaving the first year alone in the room.

Miyuki walked near the vending machine. He was a bit thirsty as he was getting his drink he heard footsteps coming his way.

"Miyuki, what are you doing here?"

"I should be the one asking you that." Kuramochi looked like he had just come from taking a bath.

"Is something wrong with the brat?"

"As usual I don't know how to deal with him."

"You're telling me. I don't know what to do whenever I see that gloomy face of his."

"It take time to heal a broken heart." Tetsu and Chris had appeared from behind which scared Kuramochi since he didn't know they were behind him.

"He is right." Chris agreed with the captain. "He need some time."

"How much time is that?"

When Miyuki went back to his room he realize it was very quiet. Usual Sawamura would watch the television or even read his manga that he would hear him flip the pages but he wasn't. There on the lower bed was Sawamura sleeping so peacefully. His eyes were closed and he looked really relax but Miyuki knew that was far from the truth. He knows that Sawamura gets nightmares that he wakes up in the middle of the night and tries to go back to sleep without worrying him.

"I wish there was something I could do." Miyuki walked toward Sawamura and put the blanket over him and then rubbed his head gently, his mother used to do this to him when he had a nightmare. Miyuki then lean in and kissed Sawamura on the forehead.

"This is all I can do to help for now."