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AN: I don't know how I feel about this chapter but let me know what you think.

Chapter 4

I walked into the lobby after the weirdest match ever. Not surprisingly I really had no interest in the points today.

"What's up Spence?" asked Chelsea as I met up with her in the lobby. I just shook my head, indicating "not now." How do I even bring up the thing that's bothering me? Ashley. Do I like her? Do I admire her? Is it just a girl crush? Is it a phase?

"Hey Spence, you getting the score care?" asked Glen. I looked at him as he stared back at me expectantly.

"You can get it," I said.

"Ok," he said before swaggering over to Stacey in a lame attempt to impress her. He is so desperate he really needs a girlfriend. I watched as she rolled her eyes, just handing him the card. He walked back over to us deflated and Sean tried not to burst out laughing at him.

"I don't get it," he said as he came back over to us.

"What?" asked Chelsea hiding a smirk.

"Well, every time Spence goes over there, Stacey is all smiles and chatting but when I go to get the score card she barely looks at me and then goes back to work immediately," sighed Glen. I couldn't hold it in anymore and chuckled out loud. Sean cracked up saying, "Sorry man."

"Yeah sorry Glen," I said smiling sheepishly. He unfolded the scorecard and smiled instantly before showing Sean and slapping five. I assumed this meant we had beaten Ashley's team this time. I was about to ask when I heard her say, "Congratulations," behind me. Her voice made my brain stop for a moment as I turned. Once again there stood the DavDenn team. My eyes instantly met Ashley's and it seemed as if all I could see was her.

As I looked at her standing there all I wanted to do was pushing her up against the counter and kiss her hard making her moan. Whoa, hey there, no. Where did that come from? Ashley was still looking at me smirking almost as if she could read my mind she said, "Want to pick up where we left off Blondie?" I felt my face flush and saw Kyla lightly smack Ashley while Madison tried to stifle a laugh. Obviously Ashley had explained what had gone on in the arena to Madison and Aiden. I felt three pairs of questioning eyes on the back of my head but ignored it.

"You guys are pretty sick in there," said Aiden saving me from having to directly answer Ashley. She rolled her eyes at him.

"So we were thinking about heading to the mall to hang. Want to come with?" asked Aiden.

I spoke up, "Actually Chelsea and I were going to hang out now, so we can't sorry, " I said. That wasn't a complete lie. Chelsea and I sometimes hung out after our matches but we hadn't had anything panned for today. There was just no way I could be around Ashley or them when I'm feeling like this. Not with them expecting a reaction from me after what happened in the arena.

"Ok, what about you guys?" Aiden asked Glen and Sean, "We were going to hang there for a while and then maybe have a pick up basketball game."

"Sounds cool to me," Sean said and Glen nodded before saying goodbye to Chelsea and I and heading off with them.

Chelsea and I decided to walk to the juice bar down the street to get a smoothie. After we paid we sat down at a table in the corner by the window. I stared out the window absentmindedly playing with my smoothie straw. I need to talk about what I'm feeling and who better than my best friend. Right?

"Spence? What's up? You've been weird all day," asked Chelsea taking a sip of her kiwi-strawberry smoothie. I stared at her. How do I even begin to answer that? Should I just say it out right? I think I like girls. There, that wasn't so hard. Now if I could just try and form the words without feeling sick to my stomach, that'd be great. But what if she hates me? But she's my best friend and that would never happen. Right? Ugh, why is this so hard? We've never really talked about stuff like this and I have no idea how she'll react.

"I," I start but the adrenaline rushing through my body is making me nervous. I don't know what to do, I can feel my heart pounding and it feels like I can't breathe. You know that feeling of being so scared you can't make a sound? Yeah, that's me right now. Chelsea looked at me questioningly.

"Right, well I think we should talk," I say and then realize how stupid that sounded.

"Well I thought that's what we were doing," she says and chuckles. I look at the kind face of my friend and realize that I can do this. Hopefully.

"Right. Well umm I've been feeling weird lately," I said not know how to start.

"Umm, how so?" asks Chelsea and I know she probably thinks I'm insane right now.

"I've just been having feelings lately and I don't know what they mean," I said unable to actually tell her my problem directly.

"You're going to have to elaborate Spence," Chelsea said kindly and patiently. Right well here goes nothing.

"I think I might…like girls," I said quietly but I know Chelsea heard me because her expression was one of shock. She recovered though and asked, "Are you sure? How do you know?" How did I know? That's a great question. How do I know what I'm feeling is attraction or a crush?

"I don't I guess. It's just that new girl, Ashley. I can't stop thinking about her and I think she flirts with me," I said hesitating before continuing, "And during the match we almost kissed," I said quietly.

"Whoa," said Chelsea, "Well do you like her?"

"I think so, maybe," I said.

"Well whatever happens I'm here for you," said Chelsea putting her hand on top of mine comfortingly.

"Thanks Chels," I said. At least now someone knows and I can talk to someone. But I still have no idea where I stand with Ashley.