HI! Back with another chapter of this story for you guys. Hope you enjoy and tell me what you think in the end please! And sorry for any error, but I'm tired and english isn't my first language.

Disclaimer: Down with the Handsome Ones is Televisas and Kingdom Hearts belongs to Square Enix, they are NOT mine

Chapter 4: Do you love me?

I couldn't sleep during the entire night; sleep would not come to me, my mind was to occupied with what was going on between Larxene and Axel and me that I couldn't sleep at all and now it was only a few minutes before everyone woke up to start their work and I was now starting to catch what little sleep had gotten me. Two minutes until I saw Axel again this morning and this time I had something in mind. I needed to talk with Axel, I needed to know the truth, I needed to know, who did he truly love, me or Larxene? And what were we going to do if he really did love me?

I jumped in the bed when I heard the door to our room open and Riku walk in as he turned on the lights.

"Come on time to wake up slackers!"" Riku said clapping his hands to cause enough noise to pry us off our sleep.

"Go jump off a bridge Riku," Sora sad pulling his pillow over his head.

"I already did" Riku said as he shook Sora's bed as I sat up and made my point that I was awake and did not need to be beaten to a pulp for not getting up.

"Then go jump off it again before coming here again" Sora growled.

"Get up now or Vexen will be the one waking you up" Riku said

I laughed when I saw Sora run out of his bed and into the bathroom. Vexen's waking methods were everything but friendly.

"You get up too, it's time to serve breakfast" Riku said looking at me, "Axel should be up by now"

I swallowed hard when he reminded me my duties.

Heading to Axel's room that morning was a torture for me. I didn't want to see him; I was going to act like an idiot in front of him and I was sure he was sore about what I had said the other day and if he didn't talk to me, I knew I deserved it.

I was relieved to know that he did love me but heartbreaking to know that no one would approve of both of us together. His father would be the number one person on the list of the 'No Axel and Roxas together' comity and I was sure he would quickly take Axel's inheritance away and dethrone him if we were caught together. I didn't want to cause trouble for him!

When I managed to get into the room, I noticed that Axel wasn't around.

"Prince Axel?" I called when I looked around the room and didn't notice he wasn't around; I quickly hurried to the table.

I set the trays of food over the table before I heard the bathroom door open and I knew what I was going to see and quickly rushed to the door. I didn't want to see him, not now when I knew that I was under so much pressure.

"None of that, you can't leave until I dismiss you" Axel reminded me with a chuckle as he walked out with a towel around his waist.

My blood quickly rushed to my face when I turned and saw him behind me, looking down at me pleased.

"I wasn't expecting you" Axel said, "I thought that you would pass your duty to someone else…but I'm glad you didn't…I want to talk to you, about the other night and about yesterday"

"Well I don't" I quickly said turning to open the door, but before I could turn the doorknob Axel's arm wrapped around my waist.

"None of that…this time you will listen" Axel huffed as he pulled me towards the table and sat down with me on his lap. I froze when I felt his warm, bare chest against my cheek and I looked up at him. "What I said back at the Ball Room was all true Roxas…I do love you"

"But you're a prince…and a boy" I said. "No one would let us be together!"

"I don't care; you could be a slut…and I would still love you…" he leaned onto my ear and whispered "You're just so damn cute when you're blushing…I'd like to see that happening more often"

"Axel, just think," I protested, "What would people think if they found out?"

"I don't care…Why are you so worried?" Axel asked.

"They'll think we're idiots" I said wanting the slap him for not using his head, if he was found out he would loose all of his rights to the throne!

"Is that all?" he asked and I glared at him, "I wouldn't care…I wouldn't care of what they though about me…Is who I am, so I don't need anyone to tell me who I must be, so stop worrying and tell me…what do you really feel?"

I held my tongue wanting to cry for what he had said. Did he really love me that much? Was he willing to go through whatever could happen for me? Fighting with him seemed pointless, I couldn't, keep fighting and there was only one way I knew he would stop.

"I feel nothing" I hissed as I wriggled out of his grip and he merely chuckled.

"Fine, be that way," he said as he stood up and walked to me, "but I know you more than anyone…you just won't admit it" I was shocked when leaned down on me to try and kiss me.

My blood boiled like it had never done before. I clenched my fist and smashed it directly into Axel's gut, forcing him to draw back. I gasped for air, watching him trying to catch his breath, his eyes wide in shock.

"How's that for you? Are you going to keep insisting or do I have to give you another one?" I said; a clear warning that I wasn't going to hold back ever again.

Axel only laughed at me and I glared at him again.

"Fine" he said, finally catching his breath. "You may leave"

I didn't hesitate, quickly running out of Axel's room. God I couldn't take it! If only I could just avoid him, I didn't want to see his face again…I didn't want to bring him trouble. But I was stuck being his servant until he got tired and I was sure that was a long way from happening.

My next job was my favorite, Granny Olette's breakfast. I rushed back to the kitchen and as soon as the tray was in my hands I took off to the North Sky Tower. I knocked on the door.

"Come in" Granny Olette said from the other side and the door opened on its own.

I nearly dropped the tray when the door opened. Is he stalking me or something? I asked myself. Axel was standing on the other side of the door, holding it so I would come in. I hesitated, glaring him as I stood there with the tray before stepping inside.

"Good morning my sweet child" Granny Olette said as she saw me come in.

"Good morning Granny" I said as I set the tray over the nearby table, while Granny fixed her hair over at the mirror.

"I still don't understand why dad hates me so much. It's depressing" I heard Prince Axel say, as I took the covers off the plates of food. "He's always complaining about how I do things but when my sister does something there has to be a celebration!"

"Give him a break Axel" Granny Olette said in reply. "You must learn to cope with being the oldest. Your father pays more attention to Kairi because she is the smallest one. I know it hurts, but that's how he is. But do even bigger things to impress him, don't stay in the shadows"

"I've already done that" Axel protested as he leaned against the wall in an, un-prince like manner, looking at Granny Olette as she brushed her silver locks. "I guess I'll have to rebuild the Panama Canal to make him happy…its ridiculous!"

"You father loves you Axel, and so does your mother" Granny Olette said, "It is common for a father to love his daughter more than his own son, and vice versa. But Ansem is not as bad as he acts with you and one day he'll show you how much he loves you"

"The sky will fall when that happens" Axel protested and I saw him throw his head back in annoyance.

"Anything else you want Granny?" I asked, trying to ignore Axel.

"No, its ok my boy; stay around for a while if you want" Granny Olette said, before turning back to Axel. "What you did the other day certainly shocked me though…I wouldn't have imagined you'd get drunk just to say you loved Roxas"

I let the metal covers for the tray fall when I heard that and whipped around to look at Granny Olette shocked. How had she gotten wind of it? I hadn't mentioned that to her.

"Well he doesn't look happy about it" Axel said before he turned on his heal, opened the door and stepped out of the room, slamming the door shut.

"My goodness what a temper that boy has these days" Granny Olette said with a sigh before looking at me. "Is everything ok Roxas?"

"Sorry" I said as I bent over to grab the covers and headed for the door, not wanting to keep talking, not even with Granny Olette, since I knew she would ask about what had happened.

I ran out before Granny Olette could call me back and chased after Axel. Why couldn't he understand it….WHY?! He was just so infuriating at times. I held onto his jacket, which was a really expensive one, and jerked the front of his shirt, pushing him against the wall without much effort since Axel wouldn't fight back and he didn't even bother to fight back either. With his back pressed against the stone wall of the tower and with no one able to hear us from where we were, I was safe to say anything to him.

"Why are you being such an idiot?" I asked with a growl, "Don't you get it, I don't want nothing to happen to you…I don't want people to laugh at you, but you're just making me feel so bad…I can't take it" Axel stared blankly at the wall, not looking at me, until I shook him as I kept talking. "Yes, I do love you…but that is why I don't want to be with you….because I don't want you to suffer what I have…if your father finds out, you know he'll kick you out of the palace and your mother won't be able to do a goddamn thing about it! I don't want you to throw away everything you have just for me, so please…stop torturing me like this!"

I felt hot tears running down my face, my heart pounding fast against my ribcage as I sobbed. Axel was staring at me shocked though and I knew that had been something he hadn't been expected either. I saw a smile tug at his lips before he held me in his arms and I sobbed in his chest, feeling his exited heartbeat in my ear.

"Why are you being the idiot?" he said, "I told you I don't care about anything like that…I don't care about my fortune or about what my right to the throne…the castle. All of that means nothing to me, compared to what you mean Roxas…so don't ask me to stay away because I won't. I need you with me Roxas, please understand that…with out you…I'd die, you're the only thing that keeps me going."

"How can you?" I sobbed. "How can you throw all of that away?"

"Because I don't care" Axel repeated and before my mind could say anything else, Axel had leaned onto me in a gentle kiss that melted me to my core.

His body against mine, his arms around me and the feeling of his lips against mine just shattered everything then. I didn't fight back this time and just let him kiss me, feeling his warm and soft lips against mine. I couldn't breath, it was as if my lungs had shut down while my heart desperately tried to keep up with my actions as my hands trailed around Axel. I wished the moment would last forever, however fate went against me.

"What are you two doing?" an annoying voice called in horror and Axel and I broke our kiss to stare at Princess Larxene, who was staring at us horror struck. I wanted to die. "So you do love him!" she said glaring at me like a mad hawk.

I knew this was going to be a long explanation.

Well this is a bit short, I know, but I just got back from vacations and well, this is as far as I go with this chapter, but with what just happened, get ready because things are about to get interesting from here on in between Axel, Larxene and Roxas.