AN: Sorry for the long wait. It's got only one chap left after this one.
Usagi paused outside the building and quickly detached her hand from Seiya's. His eyes shot down to where his hand still remained and then looked back to her eyes. His face showed concern as he stopped beside her.
"What's wrong?" he asked softly, stepping closer to her. Instantly Usagi backed away and grabbed her broach in her hand, extending her closed hand out between the two of them. She closed her eyes for a moment and took a deep breath. They were still in the open and it was daylight out still, too many people could see her transform.
She pushed him out of her way and ran to the side of the building where a forest began and hoped that he wouldn't follow. She needed to save Mamoru and she didn't even care anymore if Seiya knew or not. Who would believe this lunatic anyways? She sighed as she stopped to catch her breath as she realised that many people might just do that; he was very convincing even though he was insane. She had only stopped for a few seconds, yet she felt a hand grab hers and found herself once again in his grasp.
"Let go Seiya!" she said forcefully. "I don't love you. I can't stand you lately, and I will always love Mamoru! Let go of me!"
All kindness and concern for wanting to let him down slowly had left her and nothing but anger and hate remained for him especially now after having her locked up. His eyes showed extreme hurt but for only a few moments before a twisted anger replaced them. It actually scared her.
"You're not going anywhere. I'm the only chance you have to have a normal life. You walk away from me now and you'll be back in that room locked up for life," he said with a malice that was entirely new of him.
At those words Usagi snapped. She jerked her hand from his roughly and before he could grab her she shouted her familiar transformation words and a bright light consumed her. Seconds later the light faded and in the place of Usagi Tsukino stood the legendary Sailor Moon. Seiya stepped backwards, completely stunned, as his eyes traced her entire body as to find out how he could have possibly missed that.
"I'm Sailor Moon, Champion of Justice, and I really hate you!" she said and then quickly produced her wand in her hand.
"Moon Crystal Elimination!" she yelled as she pointed the sceptre at him. And before he could move away, scream, saying anything back to her, or before she could change her mind, he was hit by the magical beam and turned into Moondust. Sailor Moon stepped back in triumph and laughed softly before turning around and running into the street in attempts to find her love.
Usagi was quickly shaken out of her daydream at the feel of Seiya's lips on hers. She jerked backwards and found her dazed self slapping him roughly across the face. What had been only a dream, an inner craving, had made her lose track of her current predicament. She looked quickly around. They stood at the very same forest outside the building. His eyes looked confusedly at her wondering why she was being so cold. But could he blame her? He had just locked her up in that asylum. While every part of that daydream was what she wanted to do now, how much easier it would be for her to just give in to it, she remained strong. That would be wrong. It would not only ruin her reputation as Sailor Moon as standing up for justice, but it would end her purity and inner goodness. She knew it was wrong. She would just have to find another way.
While she was completely angered at Seiya for placing her there, she tried to think of the situation from his perspective. She figured that she probably had sounded more than a tad crazy after telling him that she needed to find her dead ex. But that still had been no excuse to leave her there all alone. She fell to her knees in the grass.
"Seiya… I can't marry you," she said softly as she looked up at him hoping that words would work on him instead of violence. He sat down beside her.
"Why?" he asked softly back as he gently reclaimed her hand in his.
Usagi sighed. "I still love Mamoru. I always will… and now… well now I know that he is alive and I must go find him!"
Seiya huffed. "Usagi! He's dead. Are you starting with this nonsense again? Was this all a trick to get me to take you out of there?"
Usagi nodded truthfully. Only one thing in her mind would convince him that they couldn't be together, not now or ever. She stood up but didn't run away. The anger had left and she truly didn't want to hurt him anymore, physically or emotionally. As in her daydream she clutched her broach and silently said her transformation words. As the bright light faded she sat down again beside him, her knees underneath her as she leaned close to him.
"I'm Sailor Moon… and well you know how she-I- was dating Tuxedo Kamen all those years?"
She waited for him to slowly nod before continuing. "Well I-Usagi- was dating Mamoru at that time, and you know I could never cheat on him… so what I am trying to say is that… well… Tuxedo Kamen is Mamoru.
We were destined from long ago to be together and, believe it or not, we were sent from the past to the future to stop all the evil in the world. We were lovers in our past, and present, and were destined to have a child, the girl you saw before. That is why I can't marry you. I was only fooling myself into thinking that you could make up for any of the future I would have had with Mamo-chan. Since our daughter, from the future, is still alive here on Earth, that means that Mamoru must be alive otherwise, well, Chibi-Usa would have ceased to exist," she stopped, catching her breath after the long-winded explanation, and rested on her heels as she sat backwards.
"I… I don't know what to say…" Seiya said, his eyes looking like they had seen a ghost. "…or what to believe," he continued.
"Please Seiya, let me go. I've trusted you enough today, even though I was extremely hurt and mad at you for putting me in there, to tell you the entire truth, a truth that I couldn't tell you when we were dating. I need to find Mamoru before something does happen to him."
Seiya simply slowly nodded his head. "You know I love you, right?" he said looking deep into her eyes. "I only did what I thought needed to be done for you to get better."
Sailor Moon nodded back as she gently placed her other hand on their joined one. "I know."
"How will you find him?" he asked, seemingly having given into all that she had just told him.
Sailor Moon smiled knowing that he would let her go. "Me and Mamoru share a special bond that allows us to find each other in this world. It's almost like an invincible rope that connects us. It becomes stronger when we are transformed into our alter egos, but as long as one of us is, the bond is quite strong. I should be able to find him that way."
"Why didn't you use this, bond, before to find him to see if he was really dead or not?"
Sailor Moon sighed, dread welling up within her, she had thought of that same question many times when she was in the mental ward. She had simply given up all hope of him being alive when she had heard about his plane crash. If only she had tried, just once, to connect to him, he would be in her arms right now and she wouldn't have wasted a year our their lives together. Tears formed in her eyes.
"I… I completely gave up after hearing that his plane had crashed. I couldn't believe anything else but what they told me. If I had only tried…" she said as her body gave into spasms as she cried. Seiya reached forwards and gently pulled her into his arms, she didn't hesitate this time, and he allowed himself to comfort her one last time. It had started out like this, him being there simply to comfort her and help her through her heartbreak, and now it would end with like that. He gently rubbed her back.
"It's okay. You'll find him now," he said soothingly even though those words killed him. He had to be strong for her… he still loved her so much. Sailor Moon nodded and backed out of his arms, taking a gloved hand to her eyes and wiping her tears away.
"Thank you Seiya," she whispered. "I… I'm really sorry this all happened to you. I really thought I could love you."
Seiya nodded silently as he slowly let go of her hand. "Go," he whispered into the cool air. She nodded, stood, and then ran off into the day to find her betrothed.