A/N: Sorry this update took so long. When I finally got round to writing this, my computer crashed and I lost a big chunk that I had to type all over again. Anyhoop hope you enjoy X

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Freedom comes when you learn to let go

"Are you sure?"

Robin and Raven stood in the control room overlooking the room Beast Boy was currently in. It was fairly early in the morning and the other Titans were not up yet.

"Yes" Raven replied, growing tired of Robin's worrying and over protectiveness.

Raven had gone down to the control room as soon as she had woken. Robin was already in the control room when she had arrived. Forgetting that he was an early riser himself, she wondered whether he had been up all night keeping an eye on Beast Boy. Not that he needed watching in her opinion.

She hadn't been able to get much sleep that night. She had lain awake worrying about Beast Boy and thinking of a way that she could help him, resulting in her conversation with Robin now.

"I think I'll feel happier if you stayed behind the screen" Robin said, folding his arms across his chest.

Raven could see that he was trying to assert his authority over her, but it was having little effect. Raven simply nodded and left the control room.

Beast Boy lay on the floor in the middle of the room, starring up at the ceiling. After the nightmare he had that night, he couldn't really get back to sleep. Having grown tired of walking around in circles, he had resorted to lying on the floor, not even bothering to lie on the bed. He wasn't even thinking anymore, as he lay there on the floor. He judged that sometime during the night he had stopped thinking. All his thoughts had just washed away. He was tired of thinking, he was tired of everything.

Softly Raven walked into the room. Beast Boy's current position wasn't a surprise to her, having seen him from the control room.

Though he had heard someone enter the room, Beast Boy remained lying on the floor.

Raven was hesitant to speak. Though she knew that Beast Boy was awake, she also knew that he wasn't a morning person. Thinking that it might be best to return at a later time, Raven was about to leave when Beast Boy spoke.

"I haven't even been in here for twenty four hours and I'm all ready bored out of my skull" he said, still not moving from his position on the floor.

Really boredom wasn't the problem, or the reason he couldn't sleep and was now lying on the floor. He was sick of feeling helpless and deep down he knew that there was nothing that could help him. But he wasn't going to express this to his friends, it would only make them worry about him more and he didn't want that. At times like these he tried to find the bright side, but as he had got older he was finding the bright side harder to find.

"It's never taken much to make you bored" Raven said in her usual monotone.

Beast Boy didn't reply to this which slightly worried Raven, this whole situation had worried Raven. Though she hadn't voiced her opinion, she was far from happy about locking Beast Boy up. But like Robin, she had been unable to think of any other alternative solution.

"Cyborg brought you down that TV, you can't be bored with that already" she said, trying to get him to talk more.

Beast Boy didn't reply, instead he moved himself into a sitting position and looked towards Raven.

"So what do I owe this pleasure?" he asked, plastering a smile upon his face.

Raven could see that he was trying to put on a brave face. But she could feel that he was far from happy and in pain, though she hardly needed to be an empath to know this.

"I'm going to help you" she stated flatly.

"How? By casting a spell and making this all go away?" Beast Boy said sarcastically. He hadn't meant this in any cruel way, deep down he actually wished that that was what she was going to do.

"Not as simple as that" she said, stepping up towards the door panel.

Beast Boy stood and watched as Raven entered the four digit code into the door panel. The door opened and Raven stepped in. She could just imagine a fuming Robin watching as she did this. The doors swiftly closed behind her, sealing her in with Beast Boy.

"So how exactly are you going to help me?" Beast Boy asked, a little surprised that Raven had just locked herself in a room with him, willingly.

"I'm going to help you gain control of the Beast, so that when you change into it, you'll have complete control" she stated bluntly, not wasting anymore time.

"Easier said then done" he said, "look Raven I've tried and I don't think I can."

"Well I think you can" was her simple reply back.

Beast Boy sighed, remembering how stubborn Raven could be. He knew that no matter what he said it wouldn't change her mind about doing this. He folded his arms and looked sceptically at Raven.

Without another word, Raven moved so that she was in the middle of the room. She sat herself down upon the floor, her back to the door, folding her legs and adjusting her cloak around her. Beast Boy followed her, sitting himself on the floor opposite her, facing towards her and the door.

"I want you to tell me what you feel when you're the Beast" Raven began.

"How is that going to help?" Beast Boy asked.

"Just answer the question Beast Boy" she replied flatly.

Beast Boy sighed, "Like I said, I'm a passenger in my own mind or something. I don't feel anything, once it takes over" he answered gravely.

"What you feel before the Beast takes over then"

Beast Boy sighed once again. His eyes moving away from Raven and looking about the room, as if he was to find the answer there. He knew the answer, but he didn't want to say it.

"I've told you, I've already told you it all!" he said frustrated.

"Tell me again" Raven said softly, not wishing to agitate him further.

"I…I feel anger…and pain…and hunger" he replied sombrely, now looking at the floor. He loathed those feelings that the Beast gave him.

"Hunger?" she asked a little intrigued.

"Yeah like I'm the hunter and everything is the prey to me" Beast Boy explained.

"And you only feel like that when you're turning into the Beast?"

"Well when I change into animals, I take on all their instincts. With the Beast it's like a hundred times more intense."

Raven paused for a moment, thinking over all that he had said. Beast Boy continued to look at the floor between them. After a moment Raven finally spoke again.

"I think there maybe a possible trigger to your turning into the Beast and I think it may link into your anger" she explained.

"You think I Hulk out or something!" Beast Boy said growing frustrated again, "Well I don't! I've been angry before and it's never happened. Why now? Why this time?"

"You tell me" was Raven's monotone reply.

Beast Boy fell silent. He didn't know why it happened when it did, why it was this time. The only thing he could think of was Cyborg's evolving theory and a large part of him didn't want that to be true.

"Whether your anger is the cause or not, it still plays a large part, as that is all the Beast feels" Raven explained.

Beast Boy gave a small nod of his head in response to Raven's words. His eyes returning to looking at the floor once again.

"I want you think about what happened that day when you changed into the Beast" she softly spoke.

"We were fighting that jerk" Beast Boy said through gritted teeth, remembering that day, "we couldn't beat him."

Raven said nothing. She patiently sat listening to Beast Boy's words.

"It's stronger then any other animal on earth. It's stronger, faster; more agile…it's power" he said in barely more then a whisper. It was as if he was no longer speaking to Raven. He was just lost in his own thoughts.

"Do you like the power?" she quietly asked.

"Yes…no…I don't know" he said shutting his eyes tightly.

For a moment the two remained like that. Both lost in their own thoughts.

"I'm sorry" Beast Boy softly said after a while.

"You don't have to apologise for anything" Raven replied.

Beast Boy lifted his head and looked at Raven, grateful for how understanding she was being.

"You said that you were more conscious when you were the Beast. I really think that shows that there is a chance you can gain control" Raven said, "and to do that I think you need to let go of this anger that you feel."

"You really think that would help?" he asked hopefully.

"We won't know until you try" she encouraged.

Beast Boy sighed and closed his eyes once again, a little unsure on how he was going to let go of his anger. He imagined all the villains he had ever faced. He could feel his blood beginning to boil; his clenched fists the only sign of this. He pushed their images, their hollow staring eyes, their chilling laughter, to the back of his mind. Images of happier times slowly came to the front of his mind. His muscles began to relax as he pictured the smiling faces of his friends.

His heart jolted as a memory he longed to forget came to the surface. Flashes of his nightmare came from the black pool of his memory. His breathing became hoarse; gritting his teeth he tried to push these memories away again. Perspiration began to form on his brow. He couldn't do this, everything began to come flooding back. And out of the darkness he could see the glint of the Beast's eyes.

Suddenly Beast Boy jolted back on to his feet. His hands gripped to the side of his head.

"Stop!" he said in a straggled cry, as he staggered backwards still with his eyes tightly shut.

Raven had seen that Beast Boy was in pain as they had sat on the floor. It seemed to happen all at once and before she could do or say anything he had moved. Moving herself, Raven stood and tried to get closer to Beast Boy.

"Beast Boy calm down" she said approaching him, her hand outstretched to him.

But Beast Boy couldn't hear her. He continued to stagger backwards, his hands almost tearing into his hair. He couldn't rid his mind of their two faces. He stumbled backwards into the wall, finding support he stayed standing. His head bent down as he continued to battle with himself.

Then in a blur Robin came bursting into the room.

"Raven get out now!" Robin shouted, running towards the door panel to let her out.

"No!" Raven shouted, turning back to him.

Robin stopped dead in his tracks before the door. Her word took hold of him and the fire he saw in her eyes, forced him to stand and watch.

Now that Beast Boy had stopped moving, Raven was able to approach him more easily. Beast Boy was completely unaware as Raven moved closer so that she was directly in front of him. Carefully she placed her hands over Beast Boy's hands and chanted her mantra 'Azarath Metrion Zinthos.'

Beast Boy could feel his heart gradually slow down and his whole body slowly relaxing. Tentatively he removed his hands from the side of his head and cautiously opened his eyes. He looked to see that all around him was blackness, a vast nothingness. Thinking that he had suddenly gone blind, Beast Boy waved a hand in front of his eyes, to realise that he could in fact still see.

Beast Boy was completely calm now. Even the emptiness around him was not scaring him. He felt calm and peaceful in this place, wherever he was.

As his eyes grew more used to the black around him, he realised that he could see an outline of a figure in front of him. Slowly the figure began to come more and more into focus, till Beast Boy saw that it was Raven standing in front of him. She stood motionless in front of him, with a deadpan expression upon her face. She certainly looked like the normal Raven.

"Where are we?" Beast Boy asked, wondering if this was the real Raven or just a figment of his imagination.

"In simple terms, I've taken us to a place between our minds. We are neither in your mind or mine, hence why there is nothing around us" Raven explained, her voice echoing around them.

"What happened?" he asked in a tentative voice.

"You panicked. You thought you were changing into the Beast. But you weren't, were you?" she asked.

"How would you know?" Beast Boy asked anger in his voice. Frustrated that Raven constantly thought she knew him, when he knew she didn't at all.

"Who are you angry at Beast Boy?" Raven asked of him.

"Apart from you!" he spat back at her.

Raven couldn't help but feel a sting of hurt from this. She didn't show this however, she merely looked at him, expressionless.

Beast Boy stopped, stunned at what he had just said. He didn't know what was happening to him. Why did he say that?

"I'm sorry Raven, I didn't mean that. I'm not angry at you at all" he apologised, sorrow in his voice.

"Who are you angry at?" Raven softy asked again.

Beast Boy turned away from her, so that his back was to her, his head down.

"I'm angry with myself" he softly said.

"Why?"

"Because…because I can't stop this. Because I'm not strong enough…because I failed. Because I couldn't save them…" he said this last part in a whisper. His eyes shut tight, as he tried to the block out the hurt he felt.

"Beast Boy…"

Raven placed a hand on Beast Boy's shoulder forcing him to turn back round to face her. Worry and concern could be clearly seen in her eyes.

"Beast Boy, you have to let go of this anger and guilt that you feel" Raven said, "you can fight this, you're strong enough. You've never failed us when we've needed you the most. And we are not about to give up on you either."

Beast Boy smiled at Raven, "You know you're pretty good at pep talks" he said.

"Well I don't want it to become a habit" she said, her monotone voice returning.

"Thank you" he said smiling, causing Raven to give her own small smile in return.

Slowly the blackness around them began to fade. Beast Boy opened his eyes again to find that he was back within the room, Raven still standing in front of him. Without another word, Raven turned and went to leave the room.

A stunned Robin stood speechless, confused as to what had just happened. As to him all they did was just stand there. Shaking himself out of his stupor, Robin entered the code into the door panel to let Raven out.

Beast Boy watched as the two left the room, a smile still upon his face. His anxiety had not completely vanished but he certainly felt calmer at that moment. He thought that maybe there was still hope after all.

A/N: Well a bit of a semi happy ending I guess, hope you liked. Thanks to those who have reviewed, faved etc etc and just thanks for reading. Please R&R EvilSis X