I wasn't expecting nightmares, not tonight of all nights, I was happy, I was sated, so what the hell went wrong? Soon after drifting into darkness, my mind started to replay that night, the night I died. I'm sure I don't have to go into too much detail but, things were different this time, like I was remembering something that I've been missing the last times.

"Faith, this is going to be one hell of a fight, we need to watch each other's backs" Buffy said calmly as we made our way to the portal entrance. The demons were supposed to be coming from the west side of town, somewhere that was a bit more rural than Sunnydale.

"I know B, don't worry, I got your back, no one is gonna hurt you" I said firmly as I looked at her. She knew full well I would keep her safe, regardless of my own safety. I suppose that is one of my flaws, but I would do anything to keep my treasured one safe.

"Watch out for yourself too, okay? You have to promise that you won't do anything stupid." She said, giving me her classic 'you better agree' face. I sighed and looked away, I couldn't make a promise I knew I would break.

She shoved my arm and huffed as we continued to walk toward what would be the epicenter of this messed up battle. We waited there for about an hour before anything happened and believe me, it took all I had not to jump Buffy's bones. The air was cold and she had her side pressed to mine, this really didn't help my situation at all. All I could feel was her emotions running hot with my own. I swear to god if the demons hadn't have shown up when they did, they would have walked in on a scene like no other.

So when the first one came out, I jumped up, thankful for a distraction from my lust. Before Buffy could say anything, I was on them. The first wave wasn't too bad, but they kept coming and soon we were pretty much surrounded. We dodged and struck, dancing our death dance across this bloody dancefloor. The fight wasn't too bad, we were both going home tonight, that's what I thought before I saw the king, wielding his giant black steel sword. I watched in horror as he made his way toward Buffy.

"No!" I screamed and started running. Things seemed to slow down as I moved across the battlefield, I dodged attacks, moved around bodies, dead and alive, until I smacked right into her hard body. As we fell, I felt the pain, the blade had cut me, I could tell it was bad when my senses started to fade. "Buffy.." I whispered softly before things went dark.

I had expected to have bolted up by now, but the dream continued, the only difference? I was outside of my body, a passive observer on the still bloody battlefield.

I watched as Buffy gently moved my bleeding body off of her, her face streaked with blood and tears. She stood up, faster than I would have expected and I watched as she went after the king, she screamed, rage and agony twisted together, creating a sound so horribly heart wrenching it made me sick to my stomach. The kind of sick that makes your stomach roll, your heart ache and your head spin. The scene in front of me was frightening, yet I couldn't look away. I saw Buffy take down the king and then mow down his defenses with his own hefty sword. After what seemed like only seconds, Buffy, blood spattered and sobbing, collapsed next to my limp body, there was a huge puddle of blood surrounding me. I could see just how bad my wounds were. I could see my spine from the opening of the gash, if I squinted I could also see where my spinal cord severed, right in the middle.

She gathered me up as best she could, holding my nearly severed body in her lap, rocking me back and forth as she sobbed. I could faintly hear her through her gasps "I'm sorry...so sorry...I love you" She just kept murmuring it over and over.

There was no jolt to wake me up, no I was woken up by Buffy, shaking me gently. "Faith, are you okay? You're crying." She asked softly as she wiped my face, her fingers felt cold against my warm cheeks.

I looked at her, tears streaming down my face, my back was on fire, but all I could think about was the pain I put her through. "Buffy..." I whispered, pulling her to me. I'm not sure how long I sat in her arms, sobbing as she ran her fingers through my hair.

"Faith, what were you dreaming about?" She asked softly as she looked down at my tear soaked face. I looked up at her, trying to control my breathing. I was never any good at crying with grace, I always turned into a gasping fool.

"The..night..I..died" I managed through hiccups, my chest was heaving as my lungs fought for the air I so desperately needed. I felt her heart thump a little faster as the thoughts ran through her mind,I could feel the tension roll off of her.

"Oh.." Was all she could manage to say. I pulled away just enough to look at her face. It was as pale as snow, her lip was trembling. I placed a small kiss on her chin and slid my arms around her.

"I'm sorry that I put you through that, but I'm glad it was me and not you" I said simply, honestly. She just shook her head, her blank eyes tearing up, I could almost see the scenes flashing through her mind. The battle, the screams, the blood, becoming so numb that she never realized that she was bleeding herself until long after the fight.

I sighed softly and shook her out of her daze "Buffy, that time is over, we're here now, together." I spoke quietly as she looked at me, her fingers absently tracing my scar. The soft touch sent shivers down my spine, they touched me to my core. My body was reacting not only to our connection, but the realization that our circle had just been completed. That night was over, we had buried it and the only thing left to commemorate it were my scarred body and our scarred minds. Would we ever truly get over the loss that we faced that night? Would we ever truly be able to look back and say 'I'm okay now'? I honestly didn't think so, but hey, we're slayers, anything is possible.

I kissed her then, soft and slow, pouring all the emotions I could into it, trying to soothe her pain. I wanted her to know that it wasn't her fault and that everything was going to be okay. I just wanted her to be at some level of peace. When I pulled away, she smiled softly, her eyes were light once again.

"I love you" She whispered, pulling me close. I could feel her bury her face in my hair. I smiled softly, kissing her temple. I loved this feeling, the feeling of peace I got by her simply being there, touching me. I don't think I'll be having nightmares anymore.

"I love you too, B." I said softly, tracing shapes on her back. I was ready for us to move on, to make our own life for each other. Maybe even start a family. So next time you see me, who know's I may be a mom. Don't count on that though, we have a long way to go from here. I know the road won't be easy, but she's worth it.

Thanks for listening to me drone on about my love life, hoped you enjoyed this little glimpse into the mind of yours truly, it won't be happening again, I'm not into sharing like Buffy is, talk to her next time.

so,it's over, sorta thinking about doing one from Buffy's perspective. let me know what you think. thank you so much to all of you who have reviewed this, I hope you enjoyed this little bit of Fuffy action.