APH: Promises From The Past
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CHAPTER 2: I Tried So Hard To
Forget About You
"It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken"
Rascal Flats – What Hurts The Most
It was the day…The day I'll speak to one of Arthur Kirkland's brothers…Allistor was his name, bore from Scotland and the Elder of the Kirkland Brothers, he's a fourth year…Here we are the Lobby, you are walking behind me as you fend off Feliciano and Lovino to their class. There he is and he was looking straight at me, you are standing nearby just in case. I stepped up with my usual uninterested Façade.
"So…you decide to speak up, Lad." Allistor asked in his Scottish accent that any nearby fan boys swoon.
I huffed and glanced at your way, you looked at me sternly saying that I should listen.
"What do you want? Bastard…you barged in the Soccer Field yesterday to talk to me right?" I asked in my venomous tone. "Well, your time is now."
Eavesdroppers cringed…Allistor swore he would've died by the way I look at him, that is if only Looks could only kill, he would have.
"Alright, Alright…I wanna asked why do you avoid Arthur?" Allistor asked.
"I know you know the answer to that." I spat.
"Angelo…" You warned.
I shrugged you off…and glared at Allistor.
"No…I don't…" He answered.
"I see…well…guess what…your Brother is nothing but a liar!" I hissed angrily.
"Wh-Why did you said that!?" Allistor asked.
"He didn't tell you, did he? Well…not only he's a Liar, he's a coward to tell the truth too…" I said mockingly.
You noticed Arthur was hiding at the corner of the hallway, listening…you began to worry.
"You know the ending of the Story of the British Pirate Captain abducting the Prince of Rome is it?" I asked.
"The Pirate Captain left the Prince and Never Returned…" Allistor answered and his eyes widened in realization. 'Could it be that the Prince that Arthur had been bemoaning, is this guy?'
"That's right…he did the exact same thing to me, After all we've been through together, he's just going to leave me in the dungeon? Did I do something wrong?" I asked, on the verge of tears.
You paled as everyone was now gathering around, you noticed Arthur tensed in the corner. Antonio was looking at you worriedly, as Feli was clinging to Ludwig, and Lovi was holding Gilbert's sleeve, the German Brothers were worried as well, they've gone out from class as they heard their Brother/Friend cried.
"He said that I was too afraid to taste freedom! He told me that I could always break away from my duty if I just tried hard enough!" I panted, anger is clear in my eyes.
Allistor was pale and shock at my outburst.
"And you know what he said?" I asked and glared intensely at Allistor. "HE Lied…and then left me all alone… I tried to get over him but I never really got over Arthur leaving me in my personal jail cell. In fact I'd weep almost every single day on that time when I was alone, hoping and praying that my beloved would come back. I searched for long years straight, with no luck, finally concluding that the pirate must have been killed, along with Alfred and the others. The thought haunted me for many years to come, but eventually I'd forced myself to move on. So here I am! And I had the very right to avoid him! Well it's even a miracle that he even remembers my name, after leaving me like a worthless piece of trash, He's Dead…Dead in my life…" I sobbed it really hurts so bad.
When the redheaded Scottish man found his voice again.
"Don't say that. Don't you know much he cared for you?" He attempted smile.
"Cared he says!" I laughed scornfully. "Bullshit. He left me there to rot, justifying his actions with my duty as King? He said he cared for me back then as well, but what did that change? I was trapped in the palace for years, half the time trying to starve myself! I cried my eyes out every night, thinking about how he left me there. I thought he would be different with me than he were with (bitch name). I thought…..just never mind. Now forgive my short temper, but I don't think I could handle any more pain inflicted by him." I cried, turning around to walk away.
"Angelo…please…" Allistor called out.
Ivan and Yao came up to him and put a hand on his shoulder…
"That's enough question, Da…" Ivan stated.
"Give him some time, Aru." Yao added. "He's already hurt as he was before, Aru."
Male's Comfort room
I slammed the door shut and locked it, I couldn't help it…I couldn't stop my tears from falling, I leaned at the wall nearby and slid down to the floor…now everyone knows I'm a Former King, Former King or Not, it hurts like hell to remember everything. A knocking comes from the locked door but I don't answer just sit against it with my knees pulled up to my chest.
"Angelo, Mon Cher [My Dear], It's me…Big Brother Francis, Open the door." The Frenchman called out through the door.
"Leave me alone!" I yell back through the door. Silent tears roll down my face but I don't dare let him or them hear me crying.
"Come on Angelo you can't stay in zhere all day," Gilbert tells me trying at the door knob again.
"Yes I can!" I call back to him, trying and failing to wipe the tears away.
Then Elizabeta's voice came…
"Angelo, sweetie, open the door and let me in…only me…" She called out.
I know I could trust her I unlock the door and let her in, she threw a meaningful glare at the others saying they should keep their distance and entered the Comfort Room.
"Sweetie…don't cry, it pains me to see you cry like this." She murmured soothingly as she brushes my bangs away while being careful with the curl.
I looked away at her…
"It really hurts…it hurts so much…why did he lie to me…why did he left me? What did I do wrong, please tell me." I sobbed.
"Honey, only Arthur could answer that question, If you'll only listen you'll understand." Elizabeta answered embracing me.
"No! I don't want to hear anything from him…I don't want to see the man who left me and lied to me." I cried.
It took Elizabeta a while to calm me down, but the truth is…I cried myself to oblivion. She nodded at Ludwig since he's taller than anyone in the group aside from Francis, Ludwig had no problems on lifting me up and was quite surprise at my light weight. He looked at you sternly.
"Was he eating properly, because no man could be as light as zhis!" He whispered.
"I don't know…" You whispered back and looked at Elizabeta. "Was he eating properly or not?"
"I don't know…he was eating with us in the dining table…what could he be doing?" Elizabeta asked quite worried as well.
Ludwig brought me back home leaving me to my Servants' care.
"Make sure he eats vell, he looks underveight." He stated.
"Yes, milord…" one of the Servants answered.
Back at school the scene was a talk you sighed as some gossipers tried to get answers from you, all you just did is glare at them, you noticed Arthur sitting under the tree all by himself, it breaks your heart to see him all alone, his brothers had so long ago given up on him. You walked towards the poor guy.
"Arthur?" You called out.
"What do you want?" He asked gruffly as he looks away.
"I'm not here to scold you or anything, I just noticed that…you're all alone out here while everyone is enjoying." You stated softly.
"Why do you care?" The British huffed stubbornly.
"You know, what Angelo said was true." You said lightly and you noticed Arthur cringed.
"Yeah…I know that…I tried to talk to him but he won't listen to me." Arthur sighed.
"That's because you're not trying harder." You chuckled.
"What do you want me to do? Force him to listen to me?" Arthur huffed angrily.
"If that's the only resort you have left, then why not?" You answered.
"Are you trying to murder me?! Angelo had lots of Allies while I don't!" Arthur yelled.
"You think you're alone? Even Antonio was quite worried about you as well as Francis too, though Feli is quite ignorant, but he understood the situation, Lovi only wants Ange, to be happy, don't start about Ludwig, he just want this Hate and Love to end in a good way, Elizabeta is supportive to anything as long as anything won't hurt every one of us, Roderich just want us to be happy. Heck almost everyone knows and wants you to make a move…Angelo is quite shy to do the first move, so why won't you. If Angelo encased his heart with ice shell, then why won't you melt it with your blazing determination and burning passion?" You stated happily.
"He's just going to hate me more…" Arthur sighed.
"Make him understand that you really didn't meant to leave him, yes, he was deeply hurt when you left, but that doesn't meant that you can't start over again. Make him listen to you even if you have to resort physically, just try not to hurt him much." You advised.
"Do you really think it would work?" Arthur asked.
"Well…how do you think Antonio won me back?" You asked back. "Don't worry, give it time I know he'll find it in his heart to forgive you one day. Try to be patient with him I know it'll be a rough start, but it will worth it in the end."
Arthur smiled slightly.
"Fill that deep hole in his heart, I know only you could do it…" You smiled as you enlightened the sad British. "And oh…don't think that Angelo really hates you…he really loves you and he's just afraid."
You stand up and walk away…
"Thanks (F/N)!" Arthur called out.
"You're welcome~!" You answered and turned to the corner.
Once you did you were snatched by the waist and pinned to the wall by Antonio. He had this smile in his lips.
"You gave him advice didn't you? Amor?" Antonio purred.
"Well…anything to help rebuild their relationship back…do you have any plans how?" You asked.
"Give me a day or two…I can find something out." Antonio smiled and kissed your lips.
You kissed him back…and soon parted for air.
"I hope they'll be okay." You smiled.
"I'm sure they will, trust Arthur, he can be a little rough but he's a good and determined Gentleman if he needed to be, he's very loyal. Angelo is in good hands, you'll see." Antonio grinned toothily.
"Or maybe it's the other way around." You chuckled and snuggled at Antonio.
Vargas Manor
My Room
I saw you and Antonio entered the house an hour ago, you seemed to be in cloud nine when you entered the house, and I had suspicions that you and Antonio did something at school, I swear you two are doing it a lot and behind my back too…you and Antonio had been inseparable since your meeting…
So here I am in my room, I sit alone at my couch near the window, and the pale moonlight lit the room…I was holding a certain oval, blue topaz rosette pendant with white gold and small white diamonds surrounding the bigger gem but something was off about that gem, it seemed to be glowing a bit as it drew nearer toward my direction.
"Once upon a time, long ago in a kingdom far far away, there lived a king and a queen who had everything they ever wanted, the trust of their people, a family, a loving home, the most beautiful daughter and each other but in the back of their minds, they didn't have all that they wanted, there was one thing missing . . .
They wanted a son.
The Queen went day and night to the church to pray to God to tell him that she would be the most happiest woman in the world if her family were to have a daughter. Hearing her plea, God sent one of his archangels to the couple and to all honesty, they were surprised but they calmed down when he reached over to the Queens stomach and then said a hymen. .
'The boy is whom you shall bear,
but forget him once and he loses you all.
Love is whom will feed this child, one coming from sea by the time he's in his 20 's.
If this prophecy goes with a different path, all but one will suffer the consequences.'
The archangel started to disappear and the Queen looked down to see her belly all plump and round, she was with child and she couldn't be happier.
Months passed and it was time for her new child to be born. Agonizing hours had passed and the sound of a small newborn's cries were music the King and Queen, they saw the most beautiful boy they ever saw, (y/h/c) hair, (y/e/c) that was just precious and a weak smile that just made their hearts jump.
As the boy grew older, so did his love for the sea when he fell in love with a sailor. He was a nice man, blonde hair, green emerald like eyes and deeply in love with the prince. They did everything they could to meet each other, day and night, stayed with each other till morning light.
His family disapproved of his relationship so to make sure that no other man of the sea had eyes for him, they forced him to roll into the military with his sister. He became stronger everyday but so did his love when he could no longer see him. By faith, they met again at sea, as the first time. As a gift, the sailor gave him a beautiful oval blue topaz rosette pendant with white gold and small diamonds surrounding the bigger gem, he told him that the gem itself lead to an unbelievable treasure in an uninhabitable island.
His family heard of the news and the prince was sent off to an uninhabited island, the one that the topaz lead to and left the poor love struck prince all alone to defend for himself. All he could do was surviving for as long as he could and cried, cried out his heart out so everyone could hear his pain. Heart broken, he died a lonely death yelling 'My beloved, I'm sorry I have left!' and without the sailor knowing that his beloved had died. The sailor spends many suns and moons to look for his beloved, also ending his life when his ship wrecked.
In the kingdom high in heaven, God watched over the boy, taking pity of him and his lover's demise, decided to give him a chance, a chance to be reborn.
'Sweet child
Your death so lonely and cruel but I have a plan
Until your love from the sea comes for you once again, your soul shall not rest, it shall go into one boy to another until it is complete'
On the island that the princess died at, one of Gods Archangels decided to bring this involved with the prophecy, the topaz would begin to glow if it were to go near its owner.
Many have heard of the legend but as time went on, the legend had become a myth . . . .
One thing about legends...is that sometimes . . .
They're true . . ." I recited and set the Pendant down the table and laid down the couch for a lonely sleep.
Outside the door, you were listening with Antonio, Francis and Gilbert…Ludwig looks ticked.
"Can ve leave his privacy now?" He asked.
The BTT had this nostalgic look in their faces.
"He still remembers, mon ami…" Francis stated.
"Yeah…should ve do somezhing to reunite zhem once more?" Gilbert asked.
"We're doing what we could." Antonio said pointing himself and you.
"I already given Arthur an advice…" You stated. "Come on we should leave him alone for now."
With that they left and went down the lobby to plan things out…
To Be Continued
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