A/N: SO sorry for the LONGEST cliffhanger ever and a bad chapter four. So here I am to remake it. You see, I felt so bad about this fic so I just remade chapter four to make it longer, better, etc. Please enjoy, read and review! ;)
(Leon's part of view)
In the darkness… running… running down an invisible road… running into nothing… blank, empty… I'm running to eternal darkness… I'm lost… And a voice just keeps ringing in my head. "The darkness is where I am… the darkness, Squall… the darkness is scary… help me, please!" And I just keep running… trying to find the voice… her voice…
"Where are you?" I mutter. And I say it again, but louder. "WHERE ARE YOU? …Rinoa…"
"In the darkness," she says.
"Where?" I ask again. But this time she just keeps chanting,
"Darkness… darkness everywhere. Can't get out… can't get out…Squall…"
I want to find her. I want to save her… I want to see her. Who is she? How does she know me? What does she want from me? I want to find her… I want to get her out of the darkness and meet her… and ask her all my questions… I want to know… who she is.
"Please, please, let me know where you are," I say. But she just continues chanting quietly – whispering. Whispering my name… whispering…
"Darkness… darkness everywhere. Can't get out… can't get out…Squall…"
"LET ME KNOW!" I shouted into the surrounding darkness… into nothing… "PLEASE! WHERE ARE YOU? WHO ARE YOU? PLEASE! I WANT TO KNOW!"
But all she does is continue her annoying chant. Whispering… whispering in that empty voice of hers. A voice… a voice without a body. I gave up. And I fell to my knees. But when I dropped to the ground, the ground had disappeared… I fell down. Down, down, down… I hear the sound of voices and music. And I keep falling. I close my eyes as I fall into the darkness, listening to the music. To the voices. Then I hear Sora. Sora's voice. Then comes Aerith's and Cloud's. Where are they? Their voices grow louder and the music fades. I stop falling and now I'm floating. Their voices grow clearer and clearer and now it's as if the music has gone. All other voices gone, only Sora's, Aerith's and Cloud's remained.
"LEON! LEON! LEON!" they're shouting.
"LEON!"
I stirred. I woke up. It was all just a dream. Rinoa… the darkness, all just a dream. I looked around, seeing Sora, Aerith and Cloud, worry on all of their faces. And for some reason, I feel like asking the most stupid question and acting like I don't know what's going on. But I know exactly what's going on. I fainted. I wasn't sleeping. I was unconscious and they all saw me lie down on the floor of Merlin's place, not moving. Like I was dead. And then I follow my stupid wants.
"What happened?" I asked.
"WHAT HAPPENED?" Sora said. "YOU FAINTED AND YOU WERE MUTTERING THINGS! DARN IT, LEON! YOU SCARED US ALL HALF TO DEATH! It was so scary – you-you were muttering things like 'darkness' and 'where are you' and 'can't get out' and you kept saying one thing especially. 'Rinoa'."
And then I felt the urge to see Yuffie. I felt that she had something important. She knows something, I think. She has to. But… I shooed her out yesterday night. But we're still friends. She'll talk to me. After all, if I were her, I'd be the one scared of talking to the other… wait, am I still making sense..?
I stand up in an attempt to start searching for Yuffie. But she comes in the house. She skipped towards Aerith and shouted out, "HAAAAY, GUYS! Hi, Leon, why're you so pale?"
"He fainted and scared us all half to death," said Cloud.
"WHAT? And nobody called me?" Yuffie said. "Are you okay? Are you sick? Do you need ASSISTANCE?"
She started to shake my shoulders, making me feel queasy. I pushed her off and went straight to the point. "Yuffie, do you know anything about a girl named Rinoa?"
She shakes her head. Then she changed the topic. "Hey, did you know the Crystal Fissure's entrance is covered by crystals today? So weird. 'Coz, it's like, a sudden crystal-slide! Weird, huh?"
I then felt a tingle in his stomach. I felt like going to the Crystal Fissure. What's there? I asked his tingle. The tingle didn't answer, it just kept on tingling. It got control of me. And I left for the door. I ran out and ran towards the Crystal Fissure. I ran and ran. Then I reached the blocked entrance – but how can I call it an entrance? There wasn't any. I pushed all the crashed rocks out of the way and climbed inside. The inside was cramped. I had to crawl. Then, my hand felt something cold and it didn't feel like the rest of the ground. I looked down. I saw a shimmer of gold.
I pushed the dust and sand off, trying to find what it was. Finally, I found a golden locket with the initials 'R.H.' engraved into the gold. I grabbed it off the ground and changed my position into a sitting position. I opened it and saw a picture of a girl with long black hair, wearing a long, sleeveless, blue-hued duster sweater. She had dark brown eyes, a few caramel highlights in her hair and she was wearing a necklace around her neck.
The picture was dented and crumpled around the edges. I used my fingers and flipped over the picture and saw the initials 'R.H. + S.L.' and a heart around it. I-is that… my initials after R.H.? Rinoa… Rinoa… Rinoa Howillieverknowyourlastname. Rinoa… Rinoa… Then I heard… a whisper coming from behind me.
"Heartlilly."
"Rinoa Heartilly," I said aloud.
Then, I heard voices. To be specific, Sora's, Goofy's and Donald's voices. All of them were calling my name, searching for me. Damn. I hope they won't find me… but they do. I hear something break – a crystal, probably. Too heavy for them to lift, and they dropped it by accident.
"Oops, sorry about that," I heard Goofy apologize.
"Hmm… I think you're on to something there…" Sora said. And I heard more crystals break. CRASH! CRASH! CRASH! All of them falling onto the ground. My mind starts to slip away, into another weird dream. But I don't let it. I'm here. Here in the Crystal Fissure, waiting for Sora to find me. I'm not in the darkness of my mind, I'm here. Awake.
CRASH! "LEON!" they cry. CRASH! "LEON!" CRASH! CRASH! CRASH! CRASH! "LEEEEONNNNN!" CRASH! Falling, they continue to fall. Falls… fall and break… lose existence… CRASH! More falling… my mind starts to slip again, but I resist. I shake my head and continue to wait. Then finally, all three of them appear on their hands and feet, crawling like I was.
"Leon!" Sora exclaimed.
"We found you!" Donald cried.
I don't say anything. I look down and stare at the locket. Rinoa, I thought. Rinoa, please, where are you? In the darkness? Are you still there? How can I help? I want to find you and ask you all my questions. How did we meet? Why am I only starting to remember you now, in my dreams?
Then Goofy's shoulder accidentally banged into the crystal walls. CRASH! The crystals collapsed onto the floor and crashed. I then started to imagine multiple crashes. All falling, crashing. I watch the imaginary crystals fall, but my eyes see it in slow motion. Falling… slowly… all the fake crushed crystals lose existence. Slowly, falling, slowly… my mind slips away, but now I let it.
The last things I see before I fall unconscious are Sora's, Donald's and Goofy's faces. Taking up the whole place. Only the three of their faces. My vision started to get blurry. Then there are multiple Soras, Goofys and Donalds. "LEON! SNAP OUT OF IT!" their voices cry but their voices are muffled. Their voices… so far away… my mind's running away from them, and I let it. I let it go far, far away from them – from reality.
And she's there. Right in front of my very eyes – Rinoa Heartilly. With her beautiful, deep brown eyes staring into mine. She smiled. I smiled back. Then she stopped and frowned. I frowned back at her. "Why… why didn't you save me…? I-I thought you loved me… Why…"
Music… I hear music… I looked around…. But there's no sign of where it's coming from… I look back, she's gone. Disappeared… into thin air – into the darkness… but… I can still hear her voice, whispering. "The castle, the library, the library," she whispers.
"The one under construction?" I hear myself ask.
She doesn't say anything, but I hear something brush against my shoulder. So light, so soft… I… I want to find out… The library… The library… There's no more library… Then I say it aloud: "There's no more library. It's destroyed."
"The study… Ansem's study… like everything else was… it's there… all there… everything you want to know…" I hear her voice whisper.
I can't stand it anymore. I turn around, but she's nowhere to be seen. Out of sight, without a trace. Where are you? I feel burning hot tears on my cheeks. I'm crying… Why am I crying… I let them run down, and fall. But they don't land on the ground… they don't land on anything… they fall, and fall, and fall… they'll forever be falling down… until… they disappear… until their water evaporates by the sun… but… there isn't any sun… not in the darkness there isn't…
I wonder… I wonder as I float in the darkness… And then I realize… how dark the darkness is… how dark… I can't see anything… it's pitch black in here… then I look down at my hands… they're not there… then I lift my left hand to feel my right hand… it is there… I just can't see it… maybe Rinoa's still there… but I can't see her…
But wait… how come I could see her before? …I didn't see her before. I saw her in my mind's eye… That means… she's always been there… in the darkness. She never disappeared. She was always there, but I couldn't see her... ARGH! I feel so stupid, so guilty... where are you? I reached out in the darkness, hoping to feel her touch... but nothing...
Then I felt something... something warm... so warm... hot... burning my skin... something, something holding my hand so tightly... it felt so painful, burning... scorching hot... so, so painful... burning my skin... but I don't react. I let it burn... ngh... the grip is too tight, so I tried to get out... struggling... then, slowly, the grip loosens... releasing me... I see her again, in my mind's eye... vivd images crossing through my mind... as quick as lightning.
Then I hear her voice: "Come on, Squall! How old are you? You're still a teenager - why don't you act like one for a change?"
"Y'know, when you start thinking, you tend to frown like this," I hear her say.
Then I felt something piercing sharp on my forehead. I touch it, and feel something wet and sticky. Blood... So painful, so painful... I tried screaming in pain, but nothing comes out of me. Silenced.
I then hear a giggle. Rinoa's giggle. So happy, cheerful... I smiled at the mere thought of her happiness and joy. I no longer feel the aching of my head.
"Didn't know you could smile!" her voice teases.
Warm. Tingle. Delight. Something so sweet... I can feel it on my lips... her kiss, so sweet and nice... so warm... but I barely know her, my thoughts say. To want to kiss a stranger is downright odd. Then I remember Cloud's words from before...
"You can't want to be with someone you don't even know," he says. "Can you? A bit weird."
I nod. It is weird, but I think that I know Rinoa... or at least, knew... These images... these scattered dreams... they're not dreams of any random person, they're memories of someone I knew, someone I cared for... someone... someone I... then I feel something in my heart... something warm and tingly... like... someone I really liked...
"Oh, Squall," I hear Rinoa's voice ring in my ears. "'I really like you'. Can't you just say 'I love you'? I can... because I do..."
Memories of someone I loved. Someone I really loved...
I hear her giggle. So happy, full of joy. "Was that so hard?" I smile and laugh... these were mine... my memories... I can't believe I forgot these memories... they seem so important, because... they are important... Music. Dance. Awkward.
I hear the chatter of people, I hear Cloud's voice... I hear laughter... I hear Rinoa... I hear music... I feel a hum of joy in this realm of darkness... Hope... Then the memories stop. Right then and there... stop... and vanish... all of those forgotten memories... forever gone... hope, disappeared... Now, instead of Rinoa's previous joyful words and teasing, I her Rinoa's sad, scared pleading... pleading for me to help her... I would love to help but... I haven't the slightest idea how... Ansem's study, I remember her saying. Everything is there... I suppose that I have a clue on how to help her now...
But... how do I get out of here? I then feel the searing pain on my forehead... no blood, only a scar... So painful... I then remember... Sora, Donald, Goofy... they're still in reality... they're not with me in the darkness... get me out, I plead. Please... I need to go to the study... I need to know...
"LEON!" I hear Goofy's voice cry.
"LEON!" Donald's voice twice as loud.
"LEEEEOOOONN!" Sora's voice overpowers the others'.
My mind tries to run away but I yank it back. I try bringing it back to reality... I try my hardest to get back, get back to Radiant Garden and escape from the realm of darkness... Yank, pull, yank, pull. My mind is also trying its best... it tries to escape... it wants to watch more memories... so do I, to be honest, but helping Rinoa is more important.
I see Rinoa again, this time she's smiling. She's encouraging me to go back to reality and save her... but my mind sees it as temptation, wanting to see her with all the memories... I don't let it... Yank, pull, yank, pull. I'm winning, my mind is coming with me towards the voices of Sora, Donald and Goofy. Rinoa is happy. Happy that I'm trying my best to save her...
"LLEEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOONNNNNNNN!" they scream. They're also trying their hardest to bring me back to reality. Thank you, my heart whispers.
"Come on, louder, guys," I say to them.
"LEON!"
"Louder."
"HEY WAKE UP! LEON!"
"LOUDER."
"LEON! LEON! LEON! THE OTHER'S ARE HERE! PLEASE! WAKE UP!"
"LOUD ENOUGH TO WAKE ME UP AND GET ME OUT OF THE DARKNESS."
"LEOOONNNNNN!" they scream at the top of their voices. But I can hear others'. I hear Cid, Merlin, Aerith, Yuffie, Cloud and I even hear the Gullwings' voices.
A flash of blinding bright light... I'm back. Back in reality. I sit up and stare at all of them, who seem to be in a state of panic, shock and terror. Thye looked as though they've just seen a ghost.
"You might say that we look like we've just seen a ghost," Yuna said.
"Because we thought we've just seen a ghost of you," Rikku added.
I didn't say anything back. All I said was an out-out-breath, "Thank you so much."
A/N: Okay, so, I know I failed with the tenses. 'Coz I kept changing from present tense to past tense but please don't blame me. I'm not a grown-up professional. But I do hope that I've done well with this redo chapter. I had trouble with Leon's memories but I SO HOPE that it worked out! :) Please, please, PLEASE review! I hope I'm not asking too much out of this not-very-well-done chapter... But I'll be sure to continue ASAP!
