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Chapter 4: Back Home

Seventh Heaven, around 08:00pm, Cloud is – of course – not there.

Tifa, Denzel and Marlene are sitting in the living room. The bar is already closed so no one can come anymore to drink or eat something. They were alone, once more…an evening alone, without him. First they decided to watch a film but as it started to get boring more and more, they started playing parlour games which they found around the house. Fortunately the kids have holidays and don't have to go to the school; so she had at least some people around her.

Tifa tried to be happy so that the kids do not discover that she was sad indeed, as she missed something…or let me say, someone. Unfortunately she had very smart kids at home, it seemed like Marlene and Denzel are able to read every persons mind, including Tifa's - what she liked, but there were moments she wished the kids couldn't.

"Tiiiiiiiiiifa" Marlene suddenly said with big eyes staring at her. The game was interrupted.

"What's wrong Marlene? Are you tired? Do you want something to eat or to drink?" I asked her, but somehow I knew which question will come up next.

"Are…are you alright?" she asked me, Denzel beside her…their eyes were getting smaller and they lowered their heads direction floor. *I knew this will come. Why do they feel everything? Am I that easy to read?* I was wondering

"Umm…yeah, everything is ok. I am with you so it has to" they looked up again and I gave them a wink immediately. Indeed, I lied with that answer. I am not okay, and nothing is alright.

*Sorry kids, I am with you, I should be happy but…there is a part missing inside of me. It's just… I don't know why. Why am I after this kind of man? Why am I caring for him? Is it because of our bond? Our bond we have since our childhood? Now...he is never there for us… and for me, he is always somewhere else… and the time he is here, he is here to leave again. He promised to stay, but left again… seems like I can't hold him here, will he never be happy with me and the kids? Can't we be a real family? That's all I want for so long…Is it because of her? Can't he forget and let the past be past? I cherish him so much, I ever did and I always will, is he blind or doesn't he want to see this? I feel so fulfilled when he is here … beside me. I can't get rid of him in my head and in my feelings. I just have to wait and, yes – I need hope. Still…I wish he were here with me tonight…to look at the strange glowing stars…like "that day".*

Indeed, the night and the weather were strange. It was snowing somehow all the time, but still, they could look at the stars. How is that possible? Tifa headed direction window, the kids still wondering if everything is really alright. *Why can I see the stars? It is snowing like it never did before as far as I remember and… where are the…, where are the clouds?* this sentence reminded me of someone. *Yeah… where are the "clouds"… *

She smiled again for the kids, turned around and went to them to continue playing the game they just quit a few minutes ago.

It is 11:32pm now, Cloud sees the Seventh Heaven Bar getting bigger in front of him as he comes near, he is still driving but…

There it is; I made it. It's is not that far away anymore, and it is late. Maybe they are sleeping…If so, I should let them sleep and rest.

I turned off the Fenrir round about 200 metres in front of the Bar. I decided to push it the last metres. Hopefully they won't hear me; I don't want to wake them up.

I left the Fenrir in front of the bar; there shouldn't be any problems with rust. Then, I get out my keys for the house and slowly put it into the keyhole. I was lucky though it was not frozen; it was cold and snowing like we lived in the Ice Age.

I walked slowly inside, all lights seemed to be switched off. I didn't want to wake them up with my stamps while walking around so I was careful.

Kitchen… nobody, Bar… nobody, Bath also nobody; before I go upstairs I will check the living room. I don't think they are sitting there at that time but…I will see.

As I got near the door, I saw a weak light as the door was opened a bit. I opened the door slowly and walked into the room. Here is nobody, why there is still light in here?

Then I walked more into the room and saw, that Tifa and the kids were sleeping on the couch peacefully. Suddenly Danzel stood up, dizzy, and walked to a chair to continue his sleep there. Huh, lucky. Fortunately he didn't see me as he is too tired. I hope he won't wake up again.

Then I looked back to the couch, I stared at her…Are you really…Are you really that worried about me? Is it you Zack talked about? She was sleeping, indeed. She slept on her left side, Marlene under her right arm. She used the other hand as a pillow and her long hairs were all around her face. She didn't put on her pyjama; she was resting in her day outfit what was really not adapted with such kind of weather. She was dressed with a too big shirt and some short shorts. The kids were, definitely, dressed well than her. I had to smile on my lips as I saw the shirt, I recognized it. It was mine.

Seems like it was a hard day if you even couldn't change your clothes and didn't go upstairs to sleep…I was staring even more at her and lost my mind. God, she is beautiful. Why I didn't see that before? Did I always ignore her? … Her beautiful dark hairs… so long… this perfect body... and she is sleeping there…so cute. Then I was whispering so that nobody could understand except me: "Do you…do you really want me to stay…for ever?" I was wondering, still staring at her.

Then I regained my consciousness and decided to get out of the room, I wanted to let them sleep. If I would bring them upstairs they could wake up and that's what I didn't want.

I am wondering if they await me here that early…

I went back to the bar and decided to go outside. I was in for only 5 minutes but I felt like, I need some fresh air. It was bad weather outside but I didn't care. I went outside and sat down on the seat we have near the entrance.

I am still not sure if I am doing right. Shall I leave again? I don't want her to be angry with me. Maybe I am not welcome that early. Maybe I should-

I had to stop thinking as I noticed the door behind me was opening. Who is that? Did I wake up somebody? Who's…And then I saw it, it was her. I was sure that I woke her up somehow. She had a big smile on her face, still wearing the clothes she had on the time she slept, 3 minutes ago. What's wrong with her beautiful brown eyes? Why are they wet? Is it too cold for her or…?

She was standing there without saying anything…then she moved her head a little to the side, moving her right hand slowly and gently in front of her mouth and whispered softly: "Cloud…Cloud you're back". It was hard to understand and I really didn't understand anything. I was still shocked and looked at her, I didn't expect to talk to her that early as I saw her sleeping a few minutes ago and I didn't prepare anything – I don't know what to say, especially not when she asks why I am here.