Don't Let Me Down
Disclaimer: This is a Harry Potter-based fanfiction and JK Rowling ows it all.
Chapter 4
"I guess we should get a conversation. A huge one." I said, sitting next to her at the corner.
"Really? It was about time, don't you think?" Her hands trying to dry her tears. "Just give me a second." She was breathing deeply, trying to calm down.
"You know I am here. Whatever the reason you had this break down, I'll be here for you."
She gave me a "What the fuck?" twice and stood up, walking towards the other side of the room.
"Excuse me, Lily, but I should be the one yelling what the fuck is this." She turned and caught my eye. She was not crying anymore, and also her anger wasn't a thing anymore. Or it seemed not to be. "We kissed at that hangout, and you started acting weird. We both had lots of Butterbeers before it happened. So, I didn't know what to do about it. You had just broke up with your boyfriend. You kept avoiding me, so I assumed you regretted. And then there was that night in the Library, when I offered to help you with the books until the Griffyndor Tower. Somehow we never got there, we heard Filch and ran into a classroom and things got hot. One of us, which I truly don't remember who, stopped before we were naked over some teacher's desk. You just ran off. And you kept avoiding my looks at the Great Hall. In the Hogwarts Express going back to the Holidays, you get into my cabinet when I was alone. And that really was my fault. You had already changed and was using that perfect blue outfit. I couldn't help myself kissing you, and it was amazing until a second-year-idiot opened the cabinet. You said it shouldn't be happening and blew off. So I hear Lorcan telling my parents at dinner about a huge fight between you and your ex-boyfriend. You didn't show up when my family went dinner with yours in your own house. So, excuse me if the word 'rebound' is haunting me. I've put together all of my guts to send you that letter, and here we are. One minute you are angry, and then you start crying, Malfoy shows up and apparently hates me. I don't even know the guy. So, no, Lily, I didn't get your point at all."
She was quiet. "Uh, this conversation is not what I expected... Not even close." Her only words.
"What did you expect this to be? Because I still am really confused right now." Not a single word from her.
"Shit!" She said. "You've got it all wrong."
"No, Lily. I guess I didn't get things that wrong." Selfcontrol had abandoned me. "I ask you to come here and talk. Suddenly you refuse me. Malfoy shows up out of nowhere, he gets angry and you guys have a conversation like I wasn't even there. I am your friend, not him. We have been friends for years! You're supposed to be safe with me. What the hell is going on?" I punch the wall. Wow, now she is really going to think she needs to be protected from me.
She stared me, but I couldn't tell how she felt. It did not seem to be fear. Maybe I haven't screwed things up that much.
"Sorry, Lils. I didn't intend to yell at you. I have no right. I am truly sorry."
She walked to the part of classroom with a carpet and some pillows. Now I can recognize where we are: the Defense Club.
She sat down and gracefully laid her legs on one of the big pillows. Before I could do something, she must have caught my head. "Don't get your hopes up, Lysander. I am sitting here because I am tired. Not to tease you. And because I have a feeling that our conversation will be long. So, come here and sit, please."
"Luckily tomorrow is Saturday." I said out loud this thought. I chose a spot far enough and laid down in one of those pillows.
"'Sander, may I ask you something before?"
"Sure, that's why we are here. Aren't we?"
"Great point. You have chosen Friday on purpose, haven't you?"
"Actually I haven't. I wanna talk to you sooner, but we had all of the homework and Quidditch practices. It was the first amount of time I could find."
"And you know my schedule because..."
"That's not difficult to find out."
"That's the Lysander I've known for years!" She was laughing. I guess Angry-Lily and Cryin'-Lily decided to take a break.
"What's so funny?" I had no idea.
"Guys... You can be so stupid. You're smart enough to figure out my agenda but you can't see the pros of a Friday night!" She kept laughing. "I could have Hogsmeade plans for tomorrow... Do you realize it?"
"Do you have any?" She was not a fan of Hogsmeade. Me neither. I guess we both were the only students in who preferred a peaceful castle instead of a crowded village.
"No, I don't. But I could..."
Well, I knew this is going nowhere with us talking about random things, too far from the real point.
"Lils, what are you avoiding? This is not about how you hate Hogsmeade. Let's skip the chit chat."
I was afraid of Angry-Lily coming back, but she didn't. She just inhealed deeply and stared me.
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N/A: I am excited for some "action", don't you?
We'll get some. Soon.
Kisses.