To See You Again Chapter 4
"You know I want you near me. My dreams are so vivid. And I can't see anything but you so clearly. I didn't see it coming. I've been used to running. Forgive me if I'm crying. I'm so tired of denying." – Love is Something
Emily never knew how much emotional support she needed until JJ came. The next few days after Mick's death, were filled with Interpol agents coming in and out of the house giving her the details of what happened to the operation. They had told her that the building was completely burned down, and no remains of the any of the agents or the terrorists were left. They also informed her that, Mick, being an Interpol agent, the British Government, have granted her and her unborn child, compensation. That an insurance agency will be calling her by next week.
Emily has always been good at compartmentalizing. She was never one to break down in front of strangers. She kept her composure the whole time. She asked JJ to be with her when the Interpol agents were there, just in case. She wanted to make sure that she got all the information she needed to know.
Mick did not have any living relative left. His parents died when he was young. His uncle took care of him after. He was an only child like her. His uncle had died a couple of years ago.
She thought about where she would put Mick's tombstone. Should it be where his parents were and Uncle were buried? Where will she go now? Will she stay here with her parents? Or will she go back to the US where her friends are?
She doesn't know.
JJ stayed with Emily for almost a week. She made sure that Emily was taking care of herself and the baby. She along with Emily's parents watched over her. Emily's almost on her 7th month now. As, JJ pointed out before, that full term pregnancy last ten months and not nine months. JJ went with her for her doctor's appointment. Her doctor was worried about the stress she was under. Although Emily was eating regularly, it was obvious that she wasn't getting enough sleep and she looked tired. Her doctor suggested that she takes naps in the afternoon, if she has a hard time sleeping at night. And that it's important, even this late in her pregnancy, that she's not under any stress because the baby will also be under stress.
After a week, Emily told JJ to go home to Will and Henry. JJ had talked to them every day. Emily could tell that as much as she loves having JJ around, it was unfair for her to be away from her two boys. JJ was already away enough on cases. And since she left the team, Hotch has yet to get a replacement. In fact, JJ said Hotch refuses to get one which has put a lot of pressure on the remaining agents.
It was hard saying goodbye to JJ, She has missed her and Penelope a lot. They were the sisters she never had.
After JJ left, Emily was finally able to go through Mick's stuff. She had put off doing it because she did not want her friend to see her breakdown again. She had asked her parents to leave her alone for one day. She needed to do this by herself. This has always been the way she dealt with things.
She put all of Mick's clothes and shoes in bags to be donated to homeless shelters in London.
She and Mick had their own filing cabinet. She was a neat freak and well, his were everywhere. So one day, she bought him his own filing cabinet. She told him to label each folder so he knows exactly where to look. She kept a duplicate key for herself.
The phone rang and she answered it.
"Hello."
"Hello. Can I please speak with Miss Emily Prentiss?"
"Speaking. May I know who is calling?"
"Hello, Miss Prentiss. My name is Claudia with AXA Insurance. We are sorry to hear about your fiancé Mick Rawson. We have been informed that he is deceased and we have a copy of his death certificate. We wanted to let you know that there's you and your unborn child are the beneficiaries of a life insurance. We will begin the process and once amount is released, we will be asking you the account where you want it deposited."
"Oh. I wasn't aware that Mick had bought a life insurance."
"The British Government provides standard life insurance to their agents but Mr. Rawson added more to the insurance and was making extra monthly payment. He was a very nice man, Miss Prentiss. And I would like to extend my condolences to you and your unborn child."
"Thank you, Claudia. I wanted to ask you, I have not decided yet, if I'm going to be staying here in the UK or move back to the US. Would there be an issue regarding this?"
"No. Just tell us the account number and we will wire transfer the money. Or if you prefer, we can issue a check in dollar amount."
"I'd prefer that it's a check. Would I need a lawyer or a representative when claiming the check?"
"NO, Miss Prentiss. That will not be necessary. We have all the documents we need."
"Thank you."
"You're welcome, Miss Prentiss. I will talk to you again, soon."
After hanging up, the room was quiet once again.
She rubbed her stomach when she felt the baby kick.
"What do you think, little one, where should we live?"
"I don't know if I can stay here. There's just too much reminder of your daddy."
"Or should we move back to America, where you aunts and uncles are?"
The baby kicked again.
"What about grandma and grandpa?"
"Well, baby, I'm sure, if we decide to move back to America, they will come with us too. Or they will come visit us every few months. Do you think we should move back?"
The baby kicked again.
"I don't know baby. Where will we live? Grandma and grandpa's house is too big."
She rubbed her stomach again, and remained sitting, alone in the room.
Her thoughts interrupted, when the phone rang again.
"Hello."
"Emily."
"Hotch."
"What did I tell you, Emily?"
"Aaron."
"I wanted to know how you're doing. It's been a few days since we last talked. We've been away on this case and it's bad. I'm sorry"
"It's okay Aaron."
"You didn't answer my question. How are you?"
"I'm doing better. A life insurance agent called and told me that I and this little one are beneficiaries to Mick's life insurance. Interpol informed me that they will call me once they have turned in the documents regarding his death. Apparently, Mick wanted to add more to what was standard life insurance."
"Oh. What are you doing now?"
"I'm putting away all of Mick's stuff. I'm planning to give them to the homeless shelters. Mom and Dad are out. I asked them to give me a day to myself to go through Mick's belongings. I also need to think."
"Have you thought about what you're going to do?"
"I was. And I am still thinking about it."
"So far, which way are you leaning towards?"
"I'm thinking of moving back, Aaron. You guys are there. And there's too much reminder of Mick here."
"But?"
"But I don't have a place to stay. I don't want to live in my parents' house. It's too big."
"You can live with me and Jack for the mean time. It's three bedrooms. You can take the third bedroom until you find another place. Or you can always just stay with us. Jack would really love that. He has missed you so much, Emily."
"I have missed him too. How's the little man doing?"
"He's getting bigger each day. Do you want to talk to him?"
"Sure."
"Jack buddy, Emily wants to talk to you."
Emily heard a loud shriek and it made her smile.
"Emily!"
"Hi Jack. How's my little man?"
"I'm doing fine Emily. When will I get to see your baby?"
"The baby is still in my tummy. I have another maybe two more months. It depends on when this little one wants to come out."
"I can't wait to see him. I'm going to be like a big brother to him."
"Thank you, Jack. I wanted to ask you something, Jack."
"What is it Emily?"
"How do you feel about me and this little one moving in with you and your dad?"
"Really, Emily?"
"I think so. I think I have just made a decision."
"I can't wait Emily. Please come home soon."
"I will. Can I talk to you daddy?"
"Ok. Bye Emily. I love you."
"I love you too, Jack."
"Well, it looks like you made your decision."
"I did, didn't I?"
"Are you sure about this?"
"Yeah. I am."
"Will your parents be going with you?"
"I don't know yet. I will let you know."
"If not, I can fly out there and we can fly back together."
You don't have to, Aaron."
"I want to, Emily. Just let me know."
"I will talk to my parents when they get back. Then I will inform the insurance I will be moving back to the States and to issue the check in dollars before I leave. I'll book my flight and then I will let you know the date. I can book yours too, if you want."
"Don't worry about me, Emily. I will take care of it."
"I have to go, Aaron. I have to finish this."
"Okay."
"Bye, Aaron. I will talk to you soon."
"Bye, Emily."
Emily closed her eyes. She thought of Mick. And tears fell. She whispers "Goodbye Mick. And I'm so sorry."