AN; Thank you for reading and reviewing this story. I'm doing my best to update it regularly, but as I've said before, it's really hard to find the time to, since life as an adult is apparantly very stressfull. Oh, and I know some of the grammar might be... well, not good, just bear with me people, I'm still learning, English isn't my mother tongue. Thanks again for reading.
I look at Shalimar, and she looks at me, neither one of us seems to know what to say. Once again my mind's racing. Adam knows, I'm so sure he knows. I knew loving Shalimar was complicated, and even though I know she loves me too, it just seems as if our relationship will only cause trouble. It feels like we're jumping over obstacle after obstacle, and I wonder when the hard part will go away. When will this emotional rollercoaster stop?
Shalimar rise and take my hand, pulling me up to my feet. "Let's get it over with." She says and we go into the lab.
Adam looks upset, and as soon as the door is closed behind us he starts to speak.
"What are you two thinking about?" He asks.
Neither Shalimar nor I know what to answer.
"Do you know how vulnerable this makes the team?" He's pacing back and forth, watching us.
"How does a relationship between me and Emma make the team vulnerable?" Shalimar asks.
Adam comes to a halt. "Imagine if Emma's out on a mission and gets caught by someone and she's in danger, how do you feel? How would those feelings make you act?"
We look at each other, and I'm starting to realize how dangerous this could be for the team. If Shalimar was in trouble I'd go running for her, as I know she would for me. Probably without even thinking.
"I feared this would happen, I've watched you two together for a while now, but I didn't think either one of you would act on it. I thought you two realized what would happen if you did."
"So what do you want us to do? Just stop loving each other?" I hear my own voice, before I realize that I'm speaking.
Adam sighs. "This is complicated, I don't know if you even understand how complicated it really is."
"No, I don't realize how complicated this is, because for me it's not complicated at all." Shalimar speaks. "Adam, I've always loved Emma, and you know that. When she was trapped in the fire I got in there and saved here, despite my fear. When she's been taken by the GSA I've always gone out there to get her. Nothing has changed."
"That was when you were just friends, now you're… a couple. Now you're even more emotionally involved, which might make you act reckless in dangerous situations."
I wish I could say something, I wish I could deny the fact that I wouldn't act reckless in a situation like that, but I just can't seem to get it out. Because I don't think I'd act rationally in a situation like that, I don't think I'd be able to.
"So what do you want us to do?" I ask him, fearing the answer.
"I don't know." Adam sighs. "We need both of you in the team."
"We're not gonna break up." Shalimar says.
My empathic abilities set in again, and I can feel Adam's worry. I'm not trying to read him, but it's so strong that it just strikes me. There are too many questions, and not enough answers. And I suspect we won't get the answers any time soon, it's going to take a while.
"Adam, at least give us a chance. Give us the opportunity to be with each other, to find out just how much we love each other. You can't stop love, and you can't decide who to love, it's something your heart decides. And when you're heart says that this is it, you can't just tell it that it's wrong, and to keep looking, because it doesn't work that way. " I hear myself speaking, and I don't know what I'm saying until I've already said it.
Adam sighs. "I need you two to promise me that you won't just run after each other if either one of you is in danger. You have to talk to me first, and we have to come up with a plan. And even if you don't like the plan, that's what we will be sticking to. Okay?"
"Okay." I answer, glancing over at the feral, and I hear her mutter the same.