Train Wreck
Chapter 4 There Are No Feelings To This

The after party wasn't even in full swing yet and Shikamaru had already had 5 glasses of scotch and a few shots of vodka.

"Feeling normal again are we Shika?" Neji asked and slumped down into the couch next to his client.

"Actually I am Neji dearest...you should know I'm only getting started!" he replied sarcastically only to shrink back down in his seat again upon seeing someone running towards them.

"Shikamaru! COME ON IT'S TIME!" Ino yelled annoyingly, though only a few meters away from the couple, above the pulsating dance music.

Shikamaru sighed slowly pulling himself up out of his chair and started to move towards the stage but not before shooting Neji a forlorn look as if he were asking 'Do I have to?'

"Quiet everyone! Shikamaru and I have an important announcement to make people" She spoke into the microphone and most of the people that were there stopped speaking, they didn't want to face the blonde's vengeful wrath, and gave her their attention "Everyone WE'RE GETTING MARRIED!!!"

Most people stared at her like she was a crazy person before starting to clap and cheer for the couple. Shikamaru looked on, silently observing his future wife with a fake smile plastered across his over wise indifferent face causing it to twitch slightly from his the muscles not being used to the strain. He knew she was acting as much as he was, she was just louder 'When will she just shut up...' he thought wishing he'd brought earplugs.

As the night dragged on Shikamaru wonder why he'd even thought of this in the first place 'oh well at least she doesn't have any misconceptions that I love her well I hope not anyway...' he thought.

Neji watched silently at the back of the crowded room leaning back in the cushioned leather couch and slipped his glass of vanilla coke slowly, using his drink as reason not to start up a conversation, he hadn't been concentrating and stared at this scene disinterestedly.

"Hey Nej'" a voice said from behind him.

"Finally decided to show up then Kiba" Neji replied not turning his head.

"Hinata says hello, she wanted me to pass this on..." Kiba whispered and slipped him a piece of paper.

"Another one..." he sighed and shook his head "So has Lee or Ten Ten been in touch yet production starts in three weeks"

"Not yet but Lee said he'd be over Shika's tomorrow, if he's conscious that is!" Kiba joked swigging on his beer while Akamaru clung precariously onto the top of the actor's head "After this I know I wouldn't want to be around Spandex Boy".

"You're enjoying this a little too much Inuzuka..." Neji said giving his friend a perturbed look before going back to watching over Shikamaru.

"And you Neji should remember he's your boss..." Kiba replied smirking at him and winked at the fellow brunette making Neji want to smack the smirk right off his face only for the younger man to slip back into the crowd before Neji could hurt him.

Neji sighed checking his watch, it had just gone quarter past 1 in the morning 'Time to get going...' he thought grabbing his coat and tried to push his way as quickly as possible through the crowd of people of varying degrees of celebrity without getting sued by any of them.

"Shikamaru!" he yelled trying to find his missing client "Gah! where's he got to now damn it!" he asked himself angrily shoving his hand into his jacket pocket to retrieve his cell phone and dialled Kiba's number.

After a few seconds the actor picked up "Yo what's up?" Kiba asked.

"Do you know where Shikamaru is?" Neji asked bluntly running his hand through his long hair.

"Yeah I saw him go round back... he didn't look so hot" he replied "I'll call if I see him Neji...I gotta go seeya"

"Ok bye Kiba" Neji said before hanging up.

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Shikamaru laid on the cold snow covered ground, with water seeping through his suit, looking up at the smoggy star dotted black sky, 'the sky...' he thought, he's spent along time staring up at the sky trying to figure out why it had earned so much of his attention

A long time ago when he was a child, back when his older brother had just returned home from his third year of military school for the summer holidays.

'Come on Bro' you said you would play with me!' he had yelled at Yoshiku who was lying on the grass looking up at the puffs of clouds slowly drifting across the sunny blue sky above their ranch in Wyoming.

'Yeah...but you little man have to do your homework first' Yoshiku said grinning at his little brother and ruffled the ten year olds black hair.

'Awwww you're no fun!' Shikamaru complained pouting 'I haven't seen you for six months and all you want to do a watch the clouds...what do you see in them anyway?'

'Whatever I want lil bro...Now get lost Shika I have an old friend to catch up with' the brunette shoed his brother away and went back to staring up at the sky.

Later that night they'd when they were having dinner their father had been badgering Yoshiku about joining the army when he finished school.

"Come on son your 17 years old damn it when are you going to stop being so careless about your future and plan ahead for once!" he yelled thumping his fist down on the table making the glasses clink.

"Why can't you just shut up Dad! So what if I don't want to be in the damn military it's my fucking life damn it!" Yoshiku growled staring down the older man with cold dark brown eyes.

"Yoshiku don't you dare talk to your father like that!" his mother said sternly.

"WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I? HE'S NEVER GIVEN A DAMN ABOUT WHAT WE WANT!!!" the teen screamed shoving things off the neatly arranged dining table onto the floor, the sound of shattering crockery and glass echoed throughout the room; Shikamaru watched in shock he'd never seen his brother act like this before and there were tears starting to well in his eyes "I just can't live like this...with you pretending like nothing ever happened..." Yoshiku said softly and ran off to his bedroom.

That was the night everything went down hill...in the morning Shikamaru found his brother...naked, pale and cold lying face up in the shower his dead eyes staring up at the white ceiling as if in some vain attempt to see the clouds one last time...on the walls were angry words written in blood.

He never remembered what happened after that Shikamaru had awoken two days later in the hospital with no memory of what had happened to Yoshiku until the doctor told him.