Painfully Perfect
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Author's Note: This is sort of another filler chapter. I'm having a little bit of writer's block. I have some ideas for Sharpay's eating disorder, but I don't want to bring them into the story this early. Sorry for the long wait and sorry for this chapter. It's not the greatest but oh well! Individual review replies are at the bottom! Oh and I'd like to thank Stessa who gave me some inspiration for this chapter. :D Enjoy and review!
Chapter 3
Sharpay woke up the next morning at four from her horrible hunger pains. She had barely eaten in the past twenty-four hours and didn't know how much longer she could keep this up.
Sharpay was exhausted but couldn't fall back asleep no matter how hard she tried. SO she dragged herself out of bed and shuffled into the bathroom. Sharpay stepped on the scale and moments later it said 120.5 pounds. Stepping off the scale, Sharpay walked over to look at herself in the mirror.
"I don't look thin yet. But three pounds is a lot for such a short time. I'm not skinny like a lot of people but maybe I could go back to eating more. Just eating healthier and not as much." And with that Sharpay hopped into the shower, looking forward to breakfast.
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There were five minutes until Sharpay had to go down to breakfast so she looked at herself in the mirror. Sharpay had blow-dried and straightened her hair. Today she was wearing a pair of dark wash jean Bermuda shorts and a white tank top.
Sharpay double checked her make-up and hair and leapt down the stairs.
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"Oh mom! This breakfast is delicious!" Sharpay said, grabbing a blueberry muffin. Today Sharpay had an egg, two slices of bacon and a muffin for breakfast. Sharpay was extremely happy that she decided she could diet but still eat normally.
"Well I'm glad you're feeling better Shar. It must've just been a 24-hour thing yesterday," Mrs. Evans suggested.
"Probably! Well thanks for breakfast mom, but Ryan and I should go. We'll see you after school!" Sharpay stood up and hugged her parents goodbye and then headed towards the car with Ryan.
Once they were on the road, Sharpay asked "How was the diner last night?"
"Oh pretty fun. We all wish you would've come though," Ryan said with his eyes on the road.
"I'll come next time," Sharpay said while they were pulling into the parking lot. The Evans twins got out of their car and walked into school.
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Sharpay was super bored during homeroom as she sat and listened to everyone talk about how much fun the diner was last night. Soon enough Ms. Darbus did the announcements and reminded everyone that musical practice was next Wednesday after school until four thirty. Five minutes after the announcements the bell rang and Sharpay headed to math class with Taylor and Gabriella.
They sat in class for twenty minutes learning the next lesson in the math book and then were given their assignment. Everyone broke off into groups to work together.
"So are you feeling better Sharpay?" Gabriella asked concernedly.
"Yeah, tons. Thanks Gabs. So it sounds like the diner was fun last night," Sharpay replied.
"It was ok I guess. The boys kept going on about basketball and such and Gabriella, Kelsi and I just talked about the musical and Decathalon and girl stuff. I wish you would've been there," Taylor said.
"I wish I could've come too. But we'll all go again soon. So what did you guys get for number eighteen? I don't get it," Sharpay whined.
Gabriella giggled and said, "Here let me help you."
After five minutes, Sharpay understood what to do and the girls chatted away while working on their math. A half an hour later the bell rang and the girls headed off to science.
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For the next week, Sharpay was still eating healthily and was pleased with herself, even though she wished she was skinnier. Sharpay was constantly feeling paranoid though, that everyone else saw her way bigger than she did and she kept feeling down on herself.
That Wednesday after school Sharpay walked over to the theater for musical practice and met up with Ryan, Troy and Gabriella inside.
"Hey guys! What's up?" Sharpay asked dropping her bag on the floor.
"Not much, but Darbus is crabby today so we've got to be perfect," Troy said while looking over his lines.
"Mrs. Darbus? Crabby? No way! She's never crabby!" Gabriella said sarcastically before giggling.
"Oh you think you're funny, do ya?" Troy said pulling Gabriella into a hug, laughing along with her.
"You know I'm funny! I should be a comedian. I think it's the right career for me," Gabriella choked out making her and Troy laugh harder.
"Ok, you guys can stop now. Why don't we actually rehearse?" Sharpay said sternly.
"Sorry Sharpay," Troy said, letting his laughter subside. "We got carried away."
"Yeah sorry. Where's Mrs. Darbus?" Gabriella said.
"Sorry I'm late. I had Mr. Danforth in detention for fifteen minutes. Ok, why don't we take it where we left off last week starting at act one, scene two. And go," Mrs. Darbus said.
That day during musical rehearsal went great. Everyone remembered their cues and what they were supposed to do. But Mrs. Darbus was most happy with Gabriella. She kept going on and on about how wonderful Gabriella was doing and how she had a natural talent for acting.
After practice, Sharpay and Ryan were walking to their car and Sharpay said "Don't you think Gabriella was so annoying today? She is just little miss perfect with her perfect sense of humor and her perfect acting skills. Oh and don't forget she's super smart, too! It's all about her all the time! It's so annoying! Why does she always insist on be the center of attention? Doesn't it make you mad?"
Before Ryan could say anything he was interrupted. "Actually, you know what makes me mad? That you would talk about me behind my back!" Gabriella said accusingly.
"Gabriella, I'm sorry. But you know what I mean! You are always getting so much attention because you are just oh so perfect," Sharpay retorted. "It's just always about Gabriella, isn't it?"
"You know what I think Sharpay? I think you're jealous. You just feel so inferior to me don't you?" Gabriella spat back.
"Hey guys, stop now okay," Ryan said trying to calm down the two angry girls standing before him.
"Butt out Ryan!" Sharpay snapped. "And why would I be jealous of you Gabriella? What is there to be jealous of?"
"That's it! You are jealous. You're jealous that I'm a great actress, that I have a wonderful singing voice, that Troy likes me and that I'm skinny and you're not!" Gabriella replied with extreme anger.
"What did you just say?" Sharpay said in a horrified low whisper.
"You heard me! Why else do you think I made lead and you didn't?" Gabriella said harshly before turning away.
"Sharpay, I'm sure she didn't mean that, I—" Ryan started before he was cut off by Sharpay.
"Uh, Ryan, uh," Sharpay said holding back tears. "I'll just uh meet you at home." Sharpay instantly turned off and sprinted away from the parking lot, tears streaming down her cheeks. Just as Sharpay slowed down a bit, she ran right into Troy who was walking out of the school.
"Whoa, Sharpay! You're in a hurry, aren't you?" Troy said jokingly. But then he noticed that she was crying. "Is something wrong Sharpay? What happened?"
"It was, uh, nothing. I'm fine Troy thanks," Sharpay released herself from his grasp and continued running home.
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Right when Sharpay got home, she kicked off her shoes and ran up to her room, locked her door and flopped onto her bed crying.
Right away Sharpay heard a knock on her door. "Sharpay. It's me, Ryan. Are you okay? Do you want to talk?"
"No Ryan. Just please go away." Sharpay heard Ryan shuffle down the hallway. She spent another half an hour crying and then did her homework. By the time she finished it was dinnertime. Ryan brought Sharpay her dinner and told her that he told their parents that she was really upset and didn't want any company.
That night for dinner they were having Sharpay's favorite, chicken tortellini, asparagus and mashed cauliflower. Sharpay sat on her bed, looking at her dinner and Gabriella's words playing over and over in her head. "…I'm skinny and you're not! Why else do you think I made lead and you didn't?"
Sharpay stood up from her bed and headed into the bathroom and weighed herself. The last time Sharpay weighed herself was on Sunday and she weighed 119 pounds. She stepped on the scale and it eventually read 120 pounds. "No! Why am I so fat? Gabriella's right," Sharpay thought to herself. "I am fat. I have no control when it comes to food, do I? I'm not skinny like Gabriella. I'm ugly and I'm huge. No wonder no guys like me. Gabriella said it herself. That's it! I'm going to diet, for real this time. No matter what it takes."
Sharpay didn't realize that by now she was sobbing and shaking uncontrollably. She slid down her bathroom wall and sat with her head in her lap crying. After another twenty minutes of crying, Sharpay slowly drifted off to sleep. Sharpay slept happily, because only in Sharpay's dreams did she feel perfect.
Author's Note: ERR! Could you tell I had trouble writing this? I did. Sorry if it wasn't that great but I felt bad that you hadn't gotten and update soon. Next time won't be as long. Please review; it would make me feel really good because I feel like this chapter was bad. Please, please, please review! Thanks!
Individual Review Replies:
AshelyZac4life: I know. I realized after I posted the chapter that no one questioned her about all of her lies. But no one knew she was lying, so why would the question it? Haha, thanks so much for reading and reviewing!
hollisterchick: Thanks so much for saying I did a great job. I feel like my chapters aren't good enough because I'm having trouble starting out the story. And I'm sorry I didn't update really soon. But the updates won't take as long next time I promise! Thanks for reading and reviewing!!
Stessa: You were an extremely helpful reviewer!! Did you notice the inspiration you gave me for this chapter? The whole fight thing was inspiration from you. It felt a little cheesy writing it but I thought it was a good idea. Do you think I did an okay job writing it? And I know I developed her eating disorder a little fast. I didn't mean to, but I can't change it now can I? I guess it would make sense that it happened fast because wouldn't you expect Sharpay to always get what she wants and that she like craves approval and perfection? So when her dad made that comment she was worried that she wasn't perfect. Does that make sense? Ha, it was just an explanation as to why it was developed quickly because I can't change it now! Thanks for reviewing!!!
x Estebanita x: Thanks for reviewing and saying you loved it!!
Hundredandthree-xo: Aloha to you too! Thanks for saying it was a great chapter. I tried to make it sort of in-depth but I don't know if it turned out as in-depth as I thought. Thanks for reviewing!!!
Sarah –or- Miley Cyrus Fan: Your review made me so happy! Ha, and I love that thing you said about you and Sharpay being alike. It made me smile. I know, I feel bad that I made her dad be the one to say the comment but I couldn't think of any other way. Ha, yes I will continue as you can see. And no problem! I loved reviewing on your story. I think it's really good I just wish you updated more often! Haha, I'm sorry I'm not that great of a reviewer. I will be next time though, I promise! Thanks so much for reading and reviewing Sarah!!