She came to dinner each night; she read with him occasionally. She watched him work with his sword in the gardens, regaining his strength in his wounded arm. By the end of the week, his arm was completely healed. She took out the tiny stitches that she put in his arm too keep it closed. He made her laugh when he was being a freak, she always tried to make him laugh but she never could. When they read one afternoon she learned about his past.
"This story of yours is nothing but a child's tale," he told her impatiently when they were reading Kagomes old love story. "These two falling in love. Life is not so enchanted."
"Your life is enchanted," she commented.
He rose, walking to the window, his mantle drifting behind him, his hands clasped behind his back. "Enchanted? Madame, Let me tell you a little story of my own. I came off the battlefield at a young age and there was a girl who I had never seen was waiting in the chapel to be my wife. She was deemed perfect for me."
"So?" Kagome said not sure when this story was going.
He shrugged. "But she was timid and more fragile than your book that you hold in you tiny hands. I pitied her and spared her my presences as much a possible. After two years of marriage she began to blame herself for failing at being a wife because I was never there. It was a mach made in hell, not that we hated one another, but we cared for each other, but not enough to love. She died shortly after our three-year anniversary by suicide. So you'll understand why I detest fairy tales!"
"Life is what you make it," she told him getting angry
"Is it?"
"Yes I have made my life and I am happy with it."
"Happy?" he demanded, and smiled bitterly. "Kagome, there you stand you still have youth, and God blessed or cursed you with incredible beauty! Midnight eyes, and hair to match, skin like marble. But for what? You have dammed yourself to grow old and lonely. I pray the your books keep you warm at night, when the years have passed and you think of the love you may have passed by!"
"The love?" she said. "I have been offered power, children, clothing, and jewels. Never love, my lord."
"And what if you were offered love? To you, my lady, it comes only with a wedding band."
"It comes with commitment!" she screamed in return. "It comes with caring, with needing, with love, with…."
"With a wedding band," he said wearily. He spun on her grabbing her arms and pushing her in to the wall behind her. "By law, lady, I cannot marry without the permission from the other lords…."
"I've never suggested that you should marry me! I have merely told you that I cannot…"
"Cannot what?"
"I cannot…care about a man who will marry another woman and have children who will grow up to know their father, while I sit in some town to wait for the chance for us to be together!"
"If you did not want to marry me then why are you here? You not only stay for my sister.. I can see it there is more!" he said hopping desperately that he was right.
Sesshomaru was pissed the woman of his life was slowly escaping him, he turned and slammed his fist into the wall close to Kagomes head. she felt the whole room shake with the power that came from his fist, it frightened her to think that he could kill her with just a single blow to the head from one of those powerful fists. Kagome knew that what he had said was the truth she was there for more that his sister, but she was never going to tell him that.
"Lord Sesshomaru, I am here because you asked me nothing more. If you wish for me to leave then that may be arranged-"
He didn't even here her words for he was already walking out the library doors. For the second time that day she felt the whole room shake as he swung the doors closed so hard that the sounds was like an explosion. It was so final to hear the noise she didn't know what to think.
Kagome could not sleep that night, she was tossing and turning, trying to find a comfortable position, all that she could think about was Sesshomaru, and what he had said to her earlier that day.
She was finally drifting into sleep when a huge gust of wind came in her room opening the wooden shutters so they banged against the walls.
Deciding that she could not sleep anymore she decided to watch the sun come up from the balcony even though she knew that the sun would not be rising for a few hours. When she stepped outside she noticed that there was a lot of wind, more that she had thought and yet she didn't go inside.
Kaogme jumped as she heard the loud clap of thunder, when she was looking around a bolt of lightning lit up the sky reviling to her that she was not the only one who was out side. Lord Sesshomaru was standing at the other end of the balcony that connected her room and his together with only the library in between them…
A/N: HAHA sorry it took so long to get this one up but I have other storied that need to be tended to..but I will try extreamly hard to get the othe chapter up as long as I get reviews.. ok? Ohh and the next chapter for all of those people who want lemon that's all the next chapter will be!