PAUL POV

So once again I got Bella mad. She had asked me if I was gonna talk to her or just keep starring at the floor. I've NEVER been the shy type but being around Bella just made me so shy that I didn't know what to do or say. Of course I had kept my mouth shut. So after a couple of minutes she said her goodbyes to all the others. I was just standing there looking after her. I had started to shake from the pain of her walking away from me and Jake was now trying to comfort me. Not that it helped the slightest. I need to go after I kept telling myself but my feet just wouldn't move. I looked around the room and everyone was looking at me.
"Paul maybe you should go home and get some rest. You've been through a lot today and you look like shit." Jared said to me with pleading eyes. And that was all it took to get me out of the trance I had been in.
"Well Jared I don't fucking care what you think! Or any of you guys for that matter!" I pointed around the room at all the others. Sam put his arms up like a 'I surrender' kinda way. I need to get out of here. NOW!
"I'm outta here!" I yelled and ran out the backdoor remembering to slam it when I left. I ran to the forest pulled of my shorts and phased. I'm so glad all the others were at Billy's so no one would disturb me right now. I really just need to clear my head and just run around for a while. Within a couple of minutes, I found myself on my way to Forks. In other words, I was on my way to see if my imprint was ok.
Now I was laying in the edge of the forest looking at Bella as she got out of her car and went inside. I was just lying there listening to her heartbeat and feeling miserably and not really paying that much attention to what was going on around me. When suddenly out of nowhere someone stumbled over one of my paws. I almost couldn't be bothered to look that was until this amazing scent hid me. BELLA. I looked up and then we lock eyes. She looks both confused and scared. I think I may still look really miserable because now she only looks confused. After just lying there for some time looking at her I get up and go behind a tree. I quickly phase back and pull on my shorts. Urghh I don't know what I should tell her. She is allowed to know about us, but that doesn't make it any easier. As I walk out from behind the tree Bella looks both shocked and relieved to see me. I only glance up at her for about 2 seconds and then I'm looking at the ground again. How the hell can one tiny little human make me so damn shy?! That couldn't be normal for imprinting. Well I gotta say something to her. So I can just as well start with an apology for earlier today.
"Soo Bella, uhm I'm sorry I was acting so weird at Jake's earlier. I've just had a really weird day and I wanted to come say I'm sorry for yelling at you and for ignoring you after." I really hope she's gonna forgive me for that. I don't know what I'm gonna do if she doesn't! OMG I'm such a pussy! I could feel tears starting to get ready to spill. And away went my manhood. Great! If the others, see this they are never gonna let it go. She looks at me shocked to say the least.
"Didn't you just see that BIG wolf thing that was just here!? How can you just talk like that when just a couple of minutes ago there were a fucking wolf right where you are standing now?!" Ohh hadn't really thought that could be the reason for her shock. Hmm how the hell am I gonna tell her not to be scared and that it was just me. I know she knows about vampires since she dated one not so long ago. By the way how in the world would someone willingly date a fucking vampire?! I don't get why she would do it after she found out what he was.
Ok so here goes nothing.
"Bella no need to be scared of it. Uhmm.. it was umm.. yeah you see it was.. um. Actually just erhmm.. me?" I end up sorta saying it as a question instead of a fact. Great just great. Now she's looking at me like I'm fucking crazy.
"What do you mean? That can't have been you! It was a freaking WOLF!?" She almost screamed the last part. Great she's so never gonna believe me. Sam and Jared always made it seem so easy to tell you imprint about the wolf thing but that is so not reality. What am I supposed to do now? I need to say something. Or she's probably gonna break down.
"Bella calm down. Umm… I don't really know how to explain it." Maybe I should tell her the legends or maybe I should just go? NO I can't just go but that would make it so much easier for me right now. She seemed to be a little calmer now. Wait now she looks kinda mad again. Why would she be mad again? She's really hard to get a read on. One minute she was scared as fuck and the next she was mad and looked like she was ready to kill me. I'm seriously never gonna be able to understand women.
"Are you gonna say anything or just stand there looking like an idiot?" That last word got me back again. No one, and I mean NO ONE are gonna call me an idiot. Not even my imprint.
"Here I was trying to be fucking nice to you and be gentle about what I was about to tell you and you're just standing there calling me an idiot? What is your problem?! I knew I should never have come over here. See you around leechlover." With that I turned around, phased and ran away. I didn't even care that she saw me phase and that I ruined yet another pair of shorts. I just need to get away and clear my mind. I looked back over my shoulder before I ran off. Bella was standing there with a really chocked look on her face, but not really scared but more amazed. I already felt bad for leaving before she had the time to answer, but I was just so pissed right now that I couldn't really control myself. I actually just called my imprint leechlover.. Why did I do that?! Urghh so typical me. Now she's never gonna talk to me again.

I don't know for how long I've been running before someone else phased. Jared.
"So how did it go with Bella?" I showed him what happened and all he did was laugh at me. Really?! He can't be serious. There's nothing funny about it.
"Seriously dude! You're such a pussy! I've NEVER seen you act like that around a girl before, and we've been friends for years." I still don't see what funny.
"Ohh shut up Jared! You weren't any better when you first met Kim. You're just lucky Kim isn't as stubborn as Bella. I don't know what to do about her. She pisses me off but she also makes me feel bad when I get mad. And why Jared why does she make me so shy?! I've never in my life been shy before how does she do this to me?" It really frustrated me that this little girl could make me feel all these different emotions at the same time. I both hate and love it.
I could see Jared was getting closer to where I was laying. He came up next to me and popped down beside me.
"You know it gets easier. You just have to tell her and see how she reacts. She can't react that bad since she used to be around vamps all the time." He chuckled a little at the last bit.
"Yeah she can't be scared of me when she dated a vampire. Plus I'm way hotter than that vamp." I winked up at Jared. He just laughed at me. I was starting to feel a little bit better, but I still felt bad for getting that mad at Bella. I'll just have to make it up to her soon. That is if she wanna talk to me again.
"Don't worry Paul! She's gonna come around. You just have to show her that you really are sorry and didn't mean what you said to her." Since when did it get so easy to talk about this with Jared? But I know he's right tho.
"Yeah you're right Jared. Thanks dude. I think I'm gonna go home and get some sleep and then go talk to Bella." I nudged his head with mine and then took off so I could get some sleep. If only I had known how hard it would be for me to fall asleep. I couldn't get Bella out of my head so in the end I ended up running back to Bella's house just to see that she was alright. I just got there and just laid down in the edge of the trees so that I could see the window to her room. She was sitting in the window reading. Suddenly her head shot up and she looked straight at me. No? she wouldn't be able to see me, right? I was too far in the trees for anyone to see. I was laying there thinking to myself and suddenly out of nowhere Bella was right in front of me. Crap.