A/N: Sorry it took so long to get this update out, but I got significantly less hits on the last chapter, as least according to fanfiction, and it made it easy to put it off. I understand people don't review sometimes, I do it, but as long as I get hits I'm happy so I wonder if I did something wrong…did people not like the last chapter? I realize some Delena is lacking here but these memories and details went with the chapter and are important to the first part of this story. So, without further a due, I hope you enjoy this chapter and reviews would be appreciated.

Chapter 4- I never told you

Despite her present feelings, she couldn't help but smile, standing under that same weeping willow, as she brought her fingers to lips remembering the feeling of their first kiss.

Unbeknownst to her Damon was behind a different tree having also been on the way to their spot. He knew what she was remembering and it almost made him want to turn the switch off and try to get her to listen again, but he couldn't. Not yet. Instead, he decided to hold on to the hope that it gave him, that she could still smile about their first kiss.

No one was around so like a flash of lightening and incredibly light steps he was behind Elena, "Boo!" He whispered in her ear and Elena jumped.

"Damon was the hell was that?"

"Gee, I don't know I was scaring you….You used to be so smart."

"That's not what I meant and you know it."

"I know a lot of things Elena, but what's been going on in the brain of yours for I don't know….the past five years, that I have no clue."

She groaned, "Please don't tell me we are bringing this up again."

"Hm, I guess you're right, if I were you I wouldn't want to recall that memory either," he explained looking at her with distaste.

"Okay now I really don't know what you're talking about," Elena replied frustrated, as she started walking away from him.

"There you go, not exercising those brain cells again," he said waving his finger at her as if she were a child.

"This conversation is pointless and it's getting us nowhere, and unlike you I can't go traipsing around for five years or even for more than a few hours, I have things that need to be done," She said glaring at him.

"Well I guess I really dodged a bullet then didn't I?"

Elena gaped at him, "You- Yea- I guess you did."

Elena tried walking to her car again, shocked at her conversation with Damon, she really had no idea what he was talking about and she knew she was going to drive herself crazy later trying to figure it out. Surely, he couldn't know what she meant by having things to do, so what was he saying about dodging a bullet? She jumped again when he stopped her from opening the car door.

"So I was having a lovely chat with my brother and he was quite defensive about you, are you to dating now? Or better yet are you..."he looked around as if he was about to ask her the biggest secret, "having sex?" he whispered into her ear.

Elena pushed him away, "Absolutely not! Stefan will always just be my best friend. What is wrong with you? Where is the Damon I used to know? Oh who I am kidding he hasn't been around since the afternoon of the day you left!"

"Feisty, I like it," was his only reply as he smirked at her.

"You know Damon, you can be snarky and nasty to me all you want, but at the end of the day it won't get you anywhere because you're the one who left me! You're the one who has accused me twice now of sleeping with your brother! Which by the way would be none of your concern considering we ended the minute you walked out that door!" She explained to him, her voice rising a little higher with each word, as she tried to hold back her tears. She couldn't believe he still thought she was sleeping with Stefan. All she could think of was that she was glad he didn't know about Emma because she just wasn't ready for that. Unfortunately, he did know but Elena was none the wiser.

Damon yawned at her, "Don't those long speeches get tiring; you made me tired just listening to you."

"Goodbye Damon," She went to get in her car again, but he grabbed her arm.

"Just so you know Elena, you can play your little game, acting all hurt and angry with me, but we both know you'll forgive me at the end of the day. But let's face it we both know you got the better end of the deal, and while you may forgive me I don't know if I could ever forgive you," he said in a menacing tone, staring at her with ice cold eyes, "yup I was right, those speeches are totally tiring. Oh and be safe, in driving and in well, you know," He raised an eyebrow at her and he was off.

Elena got into her car and she started banging the steering wheel, "Damn it!" she yelled, giving into her tears. She couldn't understand what just went on in the park. Nothing Damon said made sense. What did he mean he could never forgive her? She had done nothing to him, well besides not tell him he had a daughter, but she had no way of finding him, and he had already left her house when Emma came home. He couldn't know, could he? She glanced at clock, and decided those thoughts would have to wait for later, Emma needed to be picked up.

In what seemed to become a hobby of his lately, Damon had been watching her from afar and something deep inside him hurt at the thought of her crying but at the same time, he felt no guilt. No in fact he felt a small amount of pleasure, thinking Elena would never know how hurt he was that she had a child with his brother, because he would never let himself meet that child, instead he would try to make her feel as bad as he felt.

Elena loved emma more than life itself. She was the one good thing that came out of Damon's departure, she glanced in the mirror at her sleeping daughter and felt herself pulled into a memory.

June 8th, 2010

Elena took the bag with the pregnancy test from Stefan and went into the bathroom. She had been having morning sickness for the past few days so she was constantly getting up early and she felt bad for lying to Damon; telling him she was watching him sleep, but she hadn't wanted to worry him or get his hopes up. That is why she asked Stefan to bring her the test today; she didn't want news getting around to Damon until she was sure. Her hesitancy stemmed from a story Damon had told her about his old girlfriend, Katherine a long time ago. She remembered it because he didn't like to talk about her, but she never got this memory out of her head because she remembered his face. Damon had told her that Katherine could not have children and while he never really thought about it, for some reason that fact that she couldn't made him realize he wanted at least one someday, and when he mentioned adoption Katherine just shrugged it off. Elena's heart broke for him and she quietly told him that Katherine would be crazy not to want to have kids with him and he kissed her passionately telling her this was just one of the many reasons why he loved here. Therefore, Elena knew he'd be ecstatic and for that reason, and so as not to drudge up the pain she wanted to tell him today, as soon as she was sure. After all her rambling thoughts in her head, the timer finally went off.

She took a deep breath before bringing the test up to her eyes, she made sure Stefan got the digital one that told you straight out. She didn't want to go crazy figuring out the lines and if it was positive. When she saw the word "positive" she let out a sob, but it was a happy sob. She and Damon were going to have a baby and she couldn't be happier. She wanted to run and find him, and tell him right away but she had no clue where he was and his cell phone was off which meant he was doing something important. Her news would just have to wait, but she couldn't resist leaving him a voice message.

"Damon, hey it's me, so I guess you're doing something really important since your phone is off, um I just wanted to-no look just know that I love you and I can't wait for you to get home later, I'm going to make you so happy! We're going to be so happy! I love you."

She made sure to put on a mask of indifference before stepping out of the bathroom, she loved Stefan, he was her best friend, but she wanted Damon to be the first person she told. She knew his insecurities with his brother and she didn't want to deny him this moment.

When she walked out of the bathroom Stefan ran up to her, "So what did it say?"

"I promise I will tell you as soon as I have told Damon, whatever the result was he deserves to hear it first."

Stefan nodded, respected her decision, sure they were best friends but he was in awe of the way she loved his brother, he was glad that after everything with Katherine his brother could be so happy.

"Well I'll let you get ready for Damon then and you call me as soon as your done no matter what the results were, and if you need anything you know I'm here right?" He asked pulling her into a hug.

"Thank you Stefan, of course I will." She released him and as he left she shut the door before she squealed and she went to go take a shower before Damon got home and she could tell him the good news.

That same night, after Damon and Elena's fight:

"St-St-Stefan," Elena sobbed his name into the phone, "I need you to-to come over," she managed to get out in between sobs.

"Elena what's wrong?" Stefan asked in a worried voice

"Please," she whispered and she couldn't even make out a reply before she hung up the phone as she sat on the couch just staring at the door. Wishing that any minute now Damon would walk back through the door.

Thankfully Stefan had his own key so she never had to get up to open the door. He let himself in and immediately rushed to her side.

"Elena I need you to tell me what happened," he said taking her hand in his.

"He left, he left and I don't think he's coming back," she managed to get out before she started sobbing again and Stefan pulled her into his chest, whispering soothing words into her ear.

"Why did he leave, what happened?"

"I don't know, he walked in here drunk and so hurt, he said that me and you were sleeping together and he just wouldn't listen to me! I never even got to tell him I was pregnant," she explained silent tears running down her face now.

"You're pregnant?" Stefan whispered, tilting her chin up so he could look at her.

"Yes," she answered giving him a ghost of a smile, he smiled back and held her until she fell asleep.

Five days later:

Five days, it had been five days and Elena hadn't moved off the couch except to drag herself to the shower and then she came right back, and she got food in between not wanting to harm the baby. Somewhere in her mind she knew she couldn't keep going like this, she knew he wasn't going to walk through that door. But the part of her that loved him, that part that always had and always would couldn't stop hoping. She didn't even care what he had accused her of at this point, she just wanted him back. She promised herself the minute she saw him again, she would hug him, emotions would come later. She just wanted him to hold her again and she desperately wanted to tell him they were going to have a baby but deep down she knew that wasn't going to happen. Still, she sat there, staring at the door.

Suddenly the door opened and she got off the couch, running to the door, but it was only Stefan, who had come to put an end to the madness.

"Oh, it's you," Elena said to him and she walked back over to the couch and took her place.

"So you're actually alive, and you can move?" Stefan asked her in mock shock.

"Stefan can you just go, I have things to do."

"Oh you mean like sit here on the couch? I don't think so Elena. Enough is enough!"

"Of course you would say that, look at all the horrible things you did to him, it's your fault he assumed we were sleeping together, after what you did with Katherine."

"Look Elena your hurt so I'm going to ignore that, but he's not coming back. You need to accept that."

"Accept that? You want me to accept that the man I love, the man that I'm having a baby with is not coming back?" She yelled at him, standing up now.

"Yes! Because it's the truth! And I'm so sorry you're going through this but you can't live like this. It's not healthy. It's not good for the baby."

"Like you know anything about babies, besides I've been eating."

"That's not what I'm talking about Elena."

"Oh I don't have time for this, I'll call you-"

"You could lose the baby!" He screamed and that finally got her attention.

"What are you talking about?" She asked him in a growling voice.

"You could lost the baby, all the stress can cause a miscarriage, and I know you don't want that Elena. You love this baby more than anything." He said in a lower voice.

"I can't lose this baby Stefan. I can't. It's all I have left," she whispered and then he pulled her into a hug as she released some tears.

"You're not going to lose this baby Elena. I'm going to help you. We will get through this."

"How could he leave Stefan, this is his child? Maybe you can find him, I promise I'll get out of the house and I'll go to the doctor, just can you go find him please?" She asked him and his heart broke for her as she sounded like a child.

"Elena, Damon is long gone by now, I couldn't find him if I tried, and chances are he doesn't want to be found. It's going to be hard, but I promise it will get easier."

"You won't leave me?"

"No Elena, I promise I will not leave you." She soon fell asleep on his lap exhausted and Stefan cursed his brother for leaving her like this.

From that day forward Elena did a 360. She forced herself to get out of the house and go back to her daily routines, sure she was devastated and she missed him but she had a baby to think about now and she couldn't mope around for the rest of her life. She decided that as much as she would let Stefan help her now, once the baby was born she wanted to do it alone. Of course she would let him see the baby and they would still hang out but she would only let him be a friend. She would not let him take on a fatherly role. Her loyalty still lay with Damon and she wasn't going to let someone else replace that spot in their babies life.

She wiped a tear from her eye, still smiling at her baby. Still today this day Stefan was only uncle Stefan to her, and never once had Emma thought he was her father and Elena was glad for that especially since Damon was back now. The only people she really let watch Emma without her were Jenna and Alaric because they were family. Otherwise, Elena spent all her time with Emma, it was just the two of them and she liked it that way. She remembered it was hard in the beginning and Stefan wanted to help but she kindly thanked him and explained she needed to do it by herself.

She arrived at the house and she quietly got Emma out of her car seat and carried her into the house, silently wishing she would wake up already. Because of the trip and going to her friend's house, Elena was due for some time with her daughter, they hadn't played with play-doh in a while. She kissed Emma's forehead and went to get the kitchen ready for play-doh.