Reality
Chapter 4: Party
We just finished going through Tobias' fear landscape and I am comforting him. We are on the floor of the fear landscape room, him crying and me hugging him, rubbing his back gently.
The first two fears are the same as always, heights and confinement. But his last two have changed. His third fear is becoming like his father, to me and to any child we might have. His fourth is to watch me die or to be responsible for my death and not being able to do anything about it.
After a few more minutes he calms down and wipes his tears.
"Why don't we go down to our spot in the Chasm?" I suggest, trying to make him feel better.
He nods and we stand, sneaking to our spot in the Chasm, trying not to get noticed together, but we don't, so it's good.
We sit in silence for a little while, before I break it.
"Tobias, I know you fear becoming your father, but you're not going to. I know you. You are more caring, loving and kinder than any other man I know. You wouldn't even think about hurting me, or our kids when the time comes. You have to stop thinking that you would ever do anything like what he did to you because you wouldn't. He is a vile man, who isn't capable of love and care, you are the complete opposite of him. You may build walls to protect yourself from others, and come off as hard, but I know you have a soft side, I know you are kind, loving and caring. I know you will be the best father any child could ever ask for. And I know you will be the best boyfriend, or husband to me, ever. I love you."
"Husband?" He smiles, looking up at me.
"Well, one day I was hoping we could get married. But not yet though, so don't get any ideas, I'm still only sixteen."
He laughs.
"I love you, too. And I want to marry you, one day."
We kiss.
"So, when do you want to get married?" Tobias questions.
"Why'd you want to know?"
"So I know when to propose."
"I don't know, in a couple of years or whatever."
"Okay, I'll keep that in mind. When do you want to have kids?"
"Tobias, you do realise that I haven't thought about any of this stuff, right? I'm sixteen. All I know is that at some point in my life I want to get married and have kids, with you."
"Okay, but how many kids do you want to have?"
"Seriously?"
He nods.
"I don't know. Three or four, maybe. How about you?"
"I want as many as you want."
I laugh, and he laughs with me.
"Hey, Zeke is throwing a party for the initiates tonight. It's in his apartment, which is two to the left of mine. We'll be playing Candor or Dauntless, you wanna come with some of your friends?"
"Sure, but what's Candor or Dauntless?"
"Well, it's basically truth or dare. If you get asked, Candor or Dauntless, you have to pick one, Candor is truth, Dauntless is dare. They will either give you a question which you have to answer honestly, or a dare which you have to complete. But if you don't want to do the question or dare then you have to take off an article of clothing, and shoes and socks don't count."
"Okay. I take it I have to wear layers then."
"Yeah, that's probably a good idea. Anyways, how are you feeling after last night?"
"Still a little sore but it's nothing I can't handle. What time is the party?"
"Eight."
"Okay. Well, I should probably go and find Christina, Myra and Will before they get too worried. I'll tell them about the party. I'll see you there."
"Fine. But be careful."
"I will. I love you."
"I love you, too."
We kiss and I leave.
I walk into the dorm and find Chris, Will and Myra sitting on Chris' bed, talking and laughing. I join them.
"What are you laughing about?" I ask them.
"Nothing. Where have you been?" Chris questions.
"I just went for a walk. By the way, there's a party tonight at a Dauntless member's apartment for the initiates. It starts at eight and I know where it is. We'll be playing Candor or Dauntless so I suggest you wear layers."
"Cool!" Chris exclaims. "But I totally don't believe you about the whole going on a walk thing."
"Well I did go for a walk."
She gives me a disbelieving look.
…
It is eight o'clock and the four of us are standing outside Zeke's apartment where loud music booms inside. We are wearing layers. Thankfully. I am wearing black leggings with black shorts on top, a black sports bra covers my normal bra, a black vest covers that, as well as a dark grey top that falls off my shoulder, revealing my tattoos, and a black leather jacket. On my feet are some black heeled boots that Christina forced me into wearing.
We enter without knocking and a bunch of Dauntless are dancing and drinking to the music. Others stand around the outside of the room, with friends, trying to talk over the loud music, or making out with people. Will shuts the door and we all head over to the table filled with drinks and snacks.
Will and Christina grab a bottle of beer each, Myra and I grab a soda.
"Tris, why aren't you drinking? We know why Myra isn't? Are you pregnant, too?" Christina asks, shocked.
"What? No!" I practically yell.
"Then why aren't you drinking alcohol? Do you think you might be pregnant? Is there a chance you could be pregnant?"
"No! I just haven't had any alcohol before." It's hard to talk over the loud music.
"Well, have some!" Chris hands me a beer.
"I'm fine with soda, thanks."
"Tris, you're such a party pooper."
I smile and take a sip of my soda.
I look around the room and find Tobias talking with his friends.
I smile at him and he smiles back before going back to his conversation.
I wish we didn't have to be so secretive about everything.
…
After about an hour of dancing and talking most of the people have gone and now it is just a bunch of people sitting in a circle in the middle of the room. Most of whom are drunk, or on the verge of being so.
There is me, Tobias, Christina, Will, Myra, Uriah, Marlene, Zeke, Shauna, Lynn, Tori, Bud, Peter, Eric, Molly, Drew and Al. I wish the last five weren't here but I have to deal with it.
"I shall start as it is my apartment. Four, brother, Candor or Dauntless?" Zeke asks Tobias.
"Dauntless, obviously."
"I dare you to tell us your fears!"
Tobias takes off his jacket.
"Shauna, C or D?"
"D!"
"I dare you to drink whatever Uriah makes you."
"Fine!"
Uriah grins evilly and runs to the kitchen to make a drink. When he comes back he has a glass of what looks like lumpy, oddly coloured milk and she forces it down her throat with her fingers on her nose, trying to block out the stench. When she's done she runs to the bathroom and pukes. Zeke runs in after her.
When they come out she gives Uriah a death glare.
"What the hell did you put in that poison?" Shauna yells at Uri.
"Just some milk, raw eggs, banana, spinach, white chocolate, chicken from last night's dinner, mushrooms…"
"Okay, I've had enough of hearing what you tried to kill me with. Molly, Candor or Dauntless?"
"Candor."
"Pansycake!" Uri yells.
"Uri, that is never going to become a word again so stop saying it." Lynn groans.
"Why did you transfer?"
"Because I thought Dauntless was cool. And my friends were transferring here so I wanted to come with them. Peter, Candor or…"
"Dauntless."
They share a grin.
"I dare you to play seven minutes in heaven with Tris."
Peter grins at me and I freeze.
I glance at Tobias to find him glaring angrily at Peter who drags me up and over to the spare bedroom.
He shuts the door and pushes me onto the bed, pinning me down.
"Hey Stiff, let's finish what we started the other night."
He starts kissing me. Trying to take off my shorts.
I hear a commotion begin outside.
Tobias is shouting. So is Zeke, Shauna, Uriah, Christina, Will, Myra, Marlene, Lynn, Tori and Bud. They're trying to get to me. I hear punches.
Peter has taken off my shorts and is sliding off my leggings.
Tears cloud my vision as I hit him and try to get him off me. But he just hits me back.
My leggings are off and he tries to remove my underwear.
The door bangs open and Peter is pulled off me. Christina comes over to me and helps me put my leggings back on. I see Tobias and Zeke beating up Peter.
Christina wraps her arms around me and I cry into her.
When Peter is unconscious Tobias rushes over to me.
"Are you okay?" He whispers to me.
I shake my head and he wraps his arms around me, taking me from Christina's arms.
…
About half an hour later Peter, Eric, Molly, Drew and Al were taken to prison overnight to calm down after Max found out what happened the previous night and that they all had something to do with it.
But it's just for one night.
The rest of us are in Zeke's living room, sitting in various places, I'm on the sofa with Tobias and Tori.
"What's going on with you two?" Christina asks, pointing at Tobias and I as he has his arm around me.
"We should probably tell them, everything." Zeke suggests.
We all nod, except from the people which have no clue what we are talking about, which is Christina, Will and Myra.
Zeke, Tobias and Tori explain everything to them. About the war plans, the simulation I was under, the plans we have to stop the war, the fact that Tobias and I are together. Tobias tells them his name and what happened, only because it's a vital part of the information, it mostly all started when he transferred. Though, the others know his name already.
"But don't worry, Tris isn't getting higher ranks because of my favouritism. Eric has the most say in the ranks because he's a leader so it isn't up to me." Tobias says.
"You can't tell anyone about this. It's private." I tell them.
"Okay. Does that mean we have to start coming to meetings?" Christina asks.
We all nod.
They nod in return.
"What am I going to do? I'm pregnant, it's not as if I can do much to help." Myra's scared as she says this.
"Hopefully we'll be able to stop the war before it begins. But if we can't we'll make sure that you and the baby are safe, so don't worry. Are any of you three Divergent? Don't worry, you can tell us if you are." Tobias replies.
Myra raises her hand.
"What factions did you get?" I ask.
"Erudite and Dauntless." Myra tells us before yawning.
"We should probably get some sleep. We have training tomorrow. We'll talk about this more at the next meeting. Which is in two days' time at eleven o'clock. In my apartment, which is two doors down from here. But Tris knows where it is so she can show you." Tobias says.
We all nod and go our separate ways, after I kiss Tobias goodnight.
Hey Ravens. Sorry for the wait, I have a bunch of exams to revise for next month. I won't be able to update as much until May 19th. Sorry.
I will update again when I can.
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