Bound to you
Chapter Four
"I look forward to meeting you Father,"Pan's words echoed through Kylo's mind as the connection between them was cut. It was a matter of hours, if that. Before the Rebels base would be nothing but ash. They would all be gone, Rey and his daughter.
Kylo's temper flared as he grabbed his sabre and slashed the wall until there was nothing but busted pipes and melted metal. There was nothing he could do, he could not simply get his armada to stop and turn around without reason. This attack was months in planning to sneak up on the unsuspecting rebels, if he truly stopped it then Hux would see it as weakness and Kylo would possibly be looking at a coo inside the first order
The untamed power than Pan possesses was the exact same he felt all those years ago when a girl from Jakku first became an issue for him. Now it was a whole other issue, Pan was his daughter and by blood, she was to be next-in-line to take over the first order and to inherit the Skywalker legacy.
Kylo knew that Hux was not going to like it, and would cause an issue. But the bombings would be stopped, he needed that skinny black haired daughter alive. At an almost run, he went to the first deck to give orders for the fleet to stop immediately.
Hux saw the supreme leader enter again, and stopped immediately. He was no match for the powers of the force and certainly did not want his face to for the thousandth time to hit the floor by the supreme leader's foul temper and abuse of the force. He had already asked to stop the fleet, and now it was likely someone was likely to die until Kylo gets what he wants.
"Stall all plans to bomb the rebel base" Kylo ordered. Half the crew immediately stopped and turned to their leader seeking a further. "Prepare my ship, I am going ahead of the fleet"
"With what reasoning? They do not know we are coming, this is the perfect time to strike. We need to destroy this base, it would push them further into the outer rim far from allies"
Hux puffed himself up, remaining certain that his warfare knowledge would outweigh any half-assed plan the supreme leader had now. "Stalling the fleet could mean the rebels would be tipped off and evacuate… so what is so urgent you need to go down to a heavily armed base"
"A girl, one who is being held by the rebels. She is special…"
"Special? You want to cost us millions and upset our own allies for the sake of a girl" Hux laughed, his supreme leader has officially lost the plot. But saw that the mighty Kylo Ren was growing agitated. "I will delay our attack by a day, that gives you time to fetch this 'girl' and we can still crush the rebel forces"At that moment, Hux chose his last remaining real teeth than having his head smashed against the cold floor.
Kylo gritted his teeth, he should've killed Hux long ago. He left the bridge and left Hux to explain to the politicians why they needed to allow extra time for the mission.
Rey remained in her quarters, she had seen more of Kylo in these last few hours than she had seen him in a decade. It was more than a feeling of being overwhelmed, she had vowed to protect Pan from him long since before she was even born.
The scar that she gave him had become even more prominent with age, something that she had almost forgotten would happen. He looked tired, a man whose own anger had aged him and not necessarily for the better.
His face, though still handsome as she remembered now was so much darker. Like the same as a person who had been imprisoned, forced to go without light and without reason or the will to live to the next day.
How many millions had he murdered since she left him? how many families had he torn apart because she had abandoned him?. She remembered his face on Crait, when she chose the rebellion over him. That face, full of betrayal and full of anger.
After Snoke's fall, he offered her the galaxy if she was willing to stand by his side. Every once in her human body wanted her to take his hand, end the loneliness and just be at ease with the bond that they shared...
Back then there was this tiny fragment of light, he was uncertain of his true place. He was internally torn after murdering his father in cold blood, almost scared that he was doomed to the Skywalker destiny of being alone in the universe.
But when the force whispered to Rey during the night in her cell, she saw what that path meant. Pain and darkness for the pair and their children, to rule the galaxy without balance and without compassion. Something Rey couldn't do, not when she knew it wasn't just her life but that of her unborn child that she would be dooming if she took his hand.
So she chose the way of the light side, and to run from the First Order. Remain hidden, and at peace with her child far from the cruel reach of the First Order.
'You should've told me' a whisper from the corner of Rey's room. Rey went still, for over a decade that bond between them was quiet. But she turned to see Kylo standing there with a sullen face and over taught stature. She could feel the raw emotions of anger, betrayal and loneliness radiate off him.
"You were not ready' Rey replied with her feet beginning to burn with adrenaline and her fingers ready to call for her sabre.
"You stole my child away from me!" Kylo left the safety of the corner and noticed that Rey back away quickly. Had she become so weak and feeble in the years that she had been gone, that she cared no longer to stand up to him?
"I stole nothing from you, you chose the dark side and so I had no choice" Rey said as she made sure she was as far away from Kylo as possible in her small room. "I kept her safe"
"Kept her safe?" Kylo repeated as the words seemed to echo in the room. Keep her safe? How was hiding halfway across the galaxy keeping their daughter safe, she could've died on Jakku and been buried in a shallow scavenger grave and he wouldn't even have known. "I am the girls' father am I not?" Kylo raised his brow. "I have every bit as a right to her as you do"
"No, you do not!" Rey's temper briefly flared "I needed her to grow up far from you, far from whatever dark plan you had for the galaxy and away from the First Order!" Rey inhaled the little oxygen that seemed to be in the room. "You've brought the galaxy to its knees with your violence and murder, no child should be surrounded by that"
"That girl belongs to me" Kylo snarled, Rey had hit a tender spot.
"She doesn't. You only learnt her name a few hours ago, after two failed attempts to kill her" Rey could've sliced him into pieces for all the harm he had done to her family in a matter of hours and for his sheer stale ignorance.
"I will never harm my family-
"-You did!" Rey scorned Kylo "You did, you wanted me dead just as well as your own daughter only hours ago"
An awkward silence fell upon the room, Rey was speaking only the truth. If Pan had no revealed to be his daughter… then would have Kylo killed them all and not even thought twice about it?
"Our daughter showed me a great deal" Kylo looked at Rey, remembering the agonising screams and the feeling of being totally helpless to help her "I felt your pain as you brought her into the universe. I even heard you call my name as you feared that the both of you would die"
"Then you called her liar?" Rey scoffed. His arrogance and turbulent mood swings had not changed, he had not changed one bit.
"You called out for me" Kylo knew Rey was deflecting the potential conversation that he needed now after so many years. "I saw you bleeding, on your knees and calling my name. yet, you still refused to use the force"
Rey remained silent…
"You still refused the force, you gave birth to our daughter by yourself and in sheer agony" Kylo very scarcely approached Rey, who was still hiding in the corner of the room. "I could've been there, be by your side throughout"
"No, if I had not escaped. I'd would've been surrounded by droids and strangers. Pan would've been paraded around like a trophy" Rey spoke up, and what she said wasn't untrue. Rey would've been followed, treated as both as a queen and as a prisoner. On Jakku, the women handle it all, the men go out to work and have little to do with the whole process. So Rey couldn't even imagine what it would've been like to have Ben there…
"You would've had the best medical treatment, and our daughter would've been safe-"
"-she was safe on Jakku"
"Shes by royal blood and she could've had everything a child dreamt of. Not living in an old relic of a spaceship like a common –
"Scavenger?" Rey injected, she was still beneath him after all these years. She would always be reminded that she was simply no one from nowhere.
Kylo watched Rey closely as he knew he was treading a thin line, he hadn't meant to belittle the very woman he had seen ruling beside him and now the mother of his child. "What did the force show you? That moment when we snapped Skywalkers sabre into two?"
"It showed me what I knew to be true, that if I had taken your hand. That the galaxy would fall to the dark side and our children would've been monsters." Rey remembered little of that last moment together in the throne room. She remembered the light powering through her body, to the point it felt like it was burning her from the inside out.
Rey awoke to a familiar bed and knew the distant hum of the ship. She was on the Supremacy, in the rather sleek and black rooms of the Supreme Leader. She looked around the room to see nobody but saw her reflection in a distant mirror. Out of intrigue, she got out of the bed and slowly walked towards the mirror, with every step she noticed how much older she looked. Her hair was long, but not untamed as it was but it was the wrinkles around her face and the freckling skin that told her that this was just the force showing her something.
Was this the force showing her the future?
She looked to her hands, there was not a single sign of growing up on Jakku. However, there was a prominent wedding ring on her finger that brought neither happiness or blush to her cheeks.
The force was showing her the path if she became Empress.
"Mother?" A voice came into the room, with a few others. Rey looked to see five children of various ages quickly finding room on the bed to sprawl out on. The oldest, a girl with black hair and the brightest blue eyes…
These were her children… all five of them. Rey gulped nervously...
"Where is your father?" Rey asked sheepishly, not knowing what the force intended for her.
"The supreme leader" The oldest girl corrected Rey "He is with the generals, discussing terms about the Naboo prisoners"
"Naboo?" Rey queried, that was a planet off-limits to Kylo. It held momentous value to his family, and he was in line to the throne at one point in time.
"Naboo is gone?" The older girl chuckled "You were with the Supreme leader when the annihilated the system. 1.2 Billion traitors and rebels have gone"
Rey noticed the girl actually smiled at the number of people the First Order had most likely murdered for no reason. Then she saw a darker figure walk into the room, and immediately the children got off the bed and all hurridly all lined up like robots.
It was Kylo…but something in her gut made her not want to look at him. The very room seemed to get colder as he approached the children. Rey wanted to stand between him and the various children that seemed to be just afraid of him as she was. The youngest a boy, not much older than a toddler himself stepped out of line and ran to Rey.
"I TOLD YOU NOT TO FAVOUR HIM" Kylo snapped at Rey, who could do nothing but stare at the golden sith eyes that meet with hers. Within moments, she was on her knees with her cheek glowing red from the backhanded hit Kylo had done to her.
The young child still clung to her robes as the Sith Kylo stood over her…
Rey's gut filled with dread, was this their future together? Would she lose him so easily to the dark side for his quest to fulfil that stupid Skywalker destiny?
She would lose him to the Darkside, just like his blood before him. There was no saving him if she chose him, then people will die.
"I saw our children, that day in the throne room. The force showed me our future, and so taking your hand meant I would be dooming the galaxy to nothing but tyranny and death" Rey said, trying to forget the girl who now resembled Pan in an unsavoury likeness.
"The force lies" Kylo growled, it was that inner light side of Rey that must've showed her its own take of the Dark side.
"The force doesn't lie" she bit back "I saw you, cursed golden sith eyes and with nothing other than Evil powering you to destroy everything in your path.
The two of them looked at each other, Rey with nothing but a want for finding peace and safety for her daughter. While Kylo just looked at Rey, the scavenger who he knew was not meant to be trifled with and one who had outsmarted him on numerous occasions.
"But we had each other…" Kylo spoke softly. "…we had our family"
"No, we didn't even have that. The children were terrified of you, the youngest you sent flying across the room because he chose to hide behind me. You weren't Ben Solo, or even Kylo Ren… you were nothing but a monster" Rey looked away, she knew that Kylo like her had battled with loneliness and held the idea of a family with frightening ferocity so no one would ever feel alone in the galaxy.
Ahch-To
"You called me a monster once before? On Ahch-to-
"-I remember" Rey scoffed, remembering that was before she learnt the truth about what Luke Skywalker saw in young Ben Solo.
The door to Rey's rooms suddenly opened, with Pan walking through her hands full of food she had taken from the canteen to avoid eating with those who stare at her. She paused her a moment, realising the odd aurora in the room of which she saw her mother backed into a corner like a threatened cat and once more that cold tall figure of her father standing on the other side of the room.
"Twice in one day?" Pan questioned her father, who did nothing but also start to back into the safety of his own corner. "Have you come here to try to kill me again? Or just upset my other once more?" her eyes met his dark ones, and the difference between the two basically filled the room.
"I came here to warn you both" Kylo said as he looked to the safety of Rey. "The First Order will be here in a matter of hours. By morning, there will be nothing left of the resistance but ash"
"This base is filled with refugees from your war!" Pan yelled. She couldn't see a single ounce of kindness, compassion or any sort of light in her father. "You will murder thousands of innocents"
"But not you, or your mother. You need to leave, head to the outer rim back to Ahch-to if you have to"
"We are not leaving," Pan said, as she took steps towards her father making him extremely uncomfortable. But he stood still, unsure of how close Pan was going to get. He could look at nothing, but those beautiful young face of hers, the perfect balance of him and Rey. "Tomorrow, you will murder the last of your family as they sleep"
Kylo reached out with his hand, touching the black strands of hair that hung by her face. They will die if they don't go, and he would never see Rey or his daughter again. "Please.." he whispered into his daughter's ear.
"It is not my destiny to save you from yourself," Pan said as she stood back from her father, who looked nothing short of lost. He would murder the last of his family, and there was nothing he could do about it. She cut the bond.
Rewritten 25/02/19.
New Chapter will be up soon!