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Anyway, it's about to get emotional. I admit I shed a few tears during the next few chapters, both while writing and reading over.

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Chapter 4 Bella POV

Time Flies and Tears Fall

Two weeks had passed since that morning.

My mom and I hadn't spoken since other than the few notes left on the kitchen counter letting me know she wouldn't be home for dinner. We hadn't say down to eat together since; I either cooked dinner or ordered in every day when I finished school and put hers in the oven for her to heat up when she got in. I was always in my room when she got home; either doing homework or just lying in bed.

School was pretty much the same, although I was even quieter than I was before the fight; something that Alice and her friends had noticed. Of course, instead of leaving me alone, it made them try even harder to include me in things.

In the month and a half that passed, I had been invited to watch three movies, two parties and a grand total of five shopping trips.

Would they ever give up? I asked myself on a daily basis.

On the evening of Sunday the seventeenth of May, as I got ready for bed, I felt sick to my stomach as I anticipated the following day. My sleep was restless, disturbed by my tossing and turning throughout the night, trying to get the images of last year out of my mind.

When my alarm went off at six, I got up and dragged my feet into the bathroom. I did my business and then stood in front of the sink, staring at myself in the mirror. I noticed the dark circles around my eyes and the red patches all across my face. Then the tears started and there was nothing I could do to stop them. I gripped at my chest as I slid down the wall and began to sob.

I don't know how long I had cried but by the time I got back into my room I was already late for school. I changed into the first things that I picked up and made my way out of the door, not caring what I looked like.

When I got to school the parking lot was full so I had to park right at the back, the furthest spot from school. I dragged myself out of the car and headed inside. I kept the hood of my hoodie up as I opened the door to homeroom in the middle of Mr James saying the announcements for the day and felt everyone stare at me as I walked to the back and dropped down in the only empty chair next to Rosalie without saying a word.

"Nice of you to join us, Miss Swan," Mr James commented sarcastically. I rolled my eyes.

I heard everyone commenting on my appearance throughout the hour and, when the bell rang, I jumped up and headed out of the room, ignoring the sounds of Alice and Rosalie calling my name.

At lunch I dodged the cafeteria all together, not feeling hungry, and headed straight outside. Unfortunately, not long after I sat down, I heard Alice, Rosalie, Jasper, Emmett and Edward walking over to me.

"Hey, Bella," Alice said cheerfully as she and Rosalie sat down either side of me.

I closed my eyes and reminded myself that it wasn't her fault she was so happy on a day that my whole world was falling apart.

She didn't know.

I nodded at her and closed my eyes. I faintly heard the boys begin to talk about the movie they had seen over the weekend – apparently Alice finally gave in and agreed to watch the horror movie – while Alice and Rosalie talked about the upcoming shopping trip for prom dresses.

"You should come Bella," Rosalie said.

I opened my eyes when I heard my name and saw Alice nodding with a grin on her face. "Ooh, please come with us Bella. We can give you a makeover."

"I don't want a makeover."

Her face fell. "Why not?" he squeaked in a childish voice and I felt my anger boiling.

"Because I don't need a makeover."

She snorted. "I beg to differ."

"Fuck you, Alice." Everyone was silent as Alice's eyes filled with tears.

"No need to be rude, Bella," Jasper said as he wrapped an arm around his girlfriend. I rolled my eyes.

"What's your problem?" Rosalie asked, leaning across me to touch Alice's arm.

"Nothing, I just have more important things in my life to worry about then how I look."

Alice, who seemed to be feeling better after her sensitive moment, commented, "Nothing is more important than how you look."

I snapped. "Maybe to you who leads a perfect fucking life but some of us have bigger fucking problems."

"Hey, watch it," Jasper warned as Alice started to get emotional again.

"Oh fuck off. She's seventeen, not seven, and you guys are acting like she's never heard cuss words before."

"Why are you being so rude?" Rosalie asked, a frown on her beautiful face. "All we've done since you've moved here is try and be your friends and…" I cut her off.

"I never asked you to! Not once did I ask any of you to be my friend; not once did I ask you to talk to me or invite me to movies or parties or shopping trips; not once did I ask you to ask me out," I said looking at Edward. "Not once did I ever seek any of you out. You always came to me. So don't say you're my friends like you were doing me a fucking favor because you weren't. All I've wanted since I moved here was to be left the fuck alone!" I finished and took a deep breath.

"Looks like you've just got your wish," Edward said as he picked up his lunch and walked away. The rest followed his lead and I was finally left alone.

I felt the tears start to fall again and decided that I didn't want to deal with the rest of school, especially since biology was after lunch and I would have to sit next to Edward, so I picked up my bag and made my way to my car, jumping inside and headed home, where I locked myself in my room for the rest of the day.

I heard my mom walk through the door at five and heard her heels clicking on the stairs. She knocked at my door.

"Bella, I got a call from your principal. He said that you didn't return to school after lunch." Silence. "I understand why, I'm not mad. It's a hard day for both of us." Silence. "I know things haven't been great between us but I really think we need to be together today." Silence. "Your dad…" she started.

"Fuck off!" I shouted. I heard her start to cry and walk into her room.

I didn't return to school for the rest of the week.

When I finally did, the following Monday, Alice, Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie and Edward stayed away from me. They sat away from me in homeroom, not even looking at me; they sat away from me at lunch; Edward even managed to get Mr Molina to trade biology partners so I now sat beside Angela while he sat with a different girl.

As the first of June approached, I felt my mood from that day start to build within me again.

The school day continued like normal. I sat through my classes with disinterest until lunch, when I walked outside and sat down at my usual table.

"My God those boy are pissing me off today," Lauren commented as she, Jess and Angela approached me. "Hey Bella."

The other two said hello and then carried on talking about what the boys had done.

"Oh my God, did I tell you what my dad did last night?" Jess asked a few minutes later. She didn't give them a chance to answer before she started to tell them about how her dad, who was apparently OCD, was cleaning her closet and decided to take her shoes out of their boxes and throw the boxes away. "I was so fucking mad. He never respects anyone' privacy. Sometimes I wish he'd just drop dead."

Tears of anger pooled in my eyes as I snapped at her. "Shut the fuck up you ungrateful bitch. How fucking dare you say that about your dad you stupid slut."

She gasped like I had slapped her.

"Bella calm down," Angela said softly.

"No I won't. You're all so fucking ungrateful. Go fuck yourselves. All of you." I stood up and walked inside, deciding to go to the biology room early.

Like Alice and her friends, Angela, Jess and Lauren didn't speak to me for the rest of the week.

Poor Bella. She's so heartbroken. Again I ask that no-one be mad at Bella. Some have figured out what's happened, even if you don't know how or when. But things will be revealed soon.

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