CHAPTER 4

As Fraser watched Ray disappear through Welsh's door he took Benton out of his carry cot to feed him. Looking into those baby blue eyes as he did, "Now young man you going to finish your bottle for me"? Benton gave a gurgle sound, "I'll take that as a yes then".

While feeding Benton Detective Dewey came over to say hello, "Hello red how are things in the great white north"? Still feed the baby, "Hello Detective Dewey ah there fine thank you kindly". Fraser gave a smile to try and say that was true but Dewey saw behind this but didn't push it.

Dewey sat beside him, "So you and Ray about time I'd say". Fraser turned a sharp look at him, "How'd you how did you know"? Dewey laughed, "Relax red I won't say a word although we all pretty much know well we have had a pool going to see how long it would take you two to figure it out. So that your son"?

Still in shock from what he heard Fraser answered, "You had a pool going I-I don't know what to say. But I would very much appreciate it if you didn't tell Ray Veccico as we would like to tell him ourselves if he doesn't already know dose he. As for Benton here in a manner of speaking yes is my son but he is also Ray's son. His mother before she died made us his guardians in case something happened to her. She didn't tell us she was dying". Fraser's voice cracked at that point.

Dewey put his hand on Fraser's shoulder, "I'm sorry Fraser I didn't mean to upset you. And no Ray Veccico doesn't know he's only back at work here a few days. So you and Ray happy. He moving north I guess. Look in case you're wondering I've got no problem with you two. I know being a gay cop is not good in most places. But I'd be a hypocrite if I was. Well since my brother is married to a guy named Paul and there off on there second honeymoon and I'm looking after there kid".

Fraser began to burp Benton, "Thank you Detective Dewey Ray and I are very grateful. I do believe that Ray is moving north. We have a lovely property lots of land so Ray can open his own business if wants to. We're very happy. I didn't know hat your brother was gay. How old is there child"?

Dewey smiled, "She's six she go's to a special school she has down syndrome. My god though is she clever. They adopted her when she was new born her parents where only teenagers and knew they wouldn't cope poor kids. They picked my brother and his husband Paul themselves saw the good in them I guess". Handing Benton over to Dewey, They sound like great parents and very lucky to have you to help them and support them". Smiling into Benton's face, "I'm the lucky one they let me help them and her. I love spending time with her. My thinking is when it comes to my brother is love is love. It shouldn't matter weather it's two men or two women or a mixed pair. Love is love and if it works more power to them". With that Dewey handed Benton back as his phone was ringing. With polite goodbyes he went to answer it.

Fraser was surprised at how open minded Dewey was. He was also very surprised they had a pool going on them, how many knew before they knew themselves?

Meanwhile in Lt Welsh's office. As Ray sat down, "Good morning Ray how was your trip to the great white north and is Big Red"? Sitting deeper in the chair, "Sir my god Fraser was a mess. He has lost so much weight. The case has hit him really hard. It turned out the little girl that died was family a Fraser. He didn't know till afterwards. Sir I've been offered a transfer to Fraser's detachment it's a new programme there starting and I'd like to take it. There is more to tell about us but we want to that together".

Welsh eyed him up, "That must have been really hard to walk into Ray. God that poor guy can't cut a break as if he hasn't had enough suffering in his life or punishment. So this transfer you sure about this and this other stuff. So when is Fraser flying in to talk about this"?

Ray's face lit up and he pulled back the blinds to revile Fraser and Benton sitting at his desk. Welsh stood behind him, "So he came with you and whose kid is that"? Looking out at them, "Ah sir that's part of what we have to talk about".

Welsh opened his office door, "Big Red, Baby my office now". At seeing Welsh's face Fraser found himself smiling and made his way to the office, "Right you are sir".

Entering and sitting down, "Hello sir so nice to see you again sorry it has been so long". Shaking his hand, "its ok cons- what is it now Sergeant Right and this is". Welsh said pointing to the baby.

Fraser and Ray looked at each other, "Ah yes sir I am a sergeant now and this is". Looking down at the baby and then at Ray for confirmation it was ok to go on and getting a nod to do so. "This is Benton Raymond Kowalski Fraser".

Welsh went silent. So figured Fraser was tired of telling the story so he did. Told it all. The story left Welsh speechless for a bit.

When he finally found his words, "My god Fraser why didn't you phone us when this first happened. When one of my men is hurting I want to know and help them". This made Ray smile Welsh still thought of Fraser as one of his.

Fraser didn't know quite what to say at first. "Sir I was lost after it happened. I didn't speak to anyone. Only for Laura I probably wouldn't have eaten much either. She didn't blame me. My god she gave us custody of her son and blessed him after us both". Fraser felt tears sting his eyes but willed them not to fall.

Welsh nodded, "You're a good man Fraser. You did everything that you could do. Stop beating yourself up over this. Now you're punishing yourself by marrying Kowalski here". This lightened the mood and they laughed. Ray swears that even baby Benton giggled at this.

Fraser turned to smile at Ray, "Sir I love Ray very much and it's going to be an honour to marry him. We hope you will attend"?

Still nodding, "Of course I wouldn't miss it for the world. Now this transfer come back in two days and we will start the paper work". Welsh's phone stated so they made there goodbyes with promise to come back.

Finally collecting the GTO from lock up and did a little bit of shopping. They where back at the apartment.

Closing the door, "My god Ben what a day. Ok I'll put Benton to bed you wash out his bottles. Then we will have tea and order pizza what'd Ya say"? Putting the bags down on the counter, "That's a fine idea Ray".

Ray headed off putting Benton to bed and Fraser put away the shopping then started on the bottles. Fraser was not feeling to well but he knew if he told Ray. Ray would freak out. Fraser listened to Ray singing softly to Benton to get him to sleep. Fraser thought that Ray had such a sweet voice.

Just as Ray entered the kitchen to see Fraser at the sink. He saw Fraser sway and go down. Fraser went down hard. Ray shouted, "Ben Oh My God, Oh My God Ben".

Ray was frantic patting Fraser all over. Fraser came around very quickly. "Ray what happened ah I think I fainted I think"?

Ray sat cradling Fraser on the floor giving him chocolate and water. "Ben why didn't Ya tell me you weren't feeling well. I know you're still not eating right Ben. Your going to have't ta Ya know. Your going to have to do better we have Benton now you have to do for you for us. I can't do this alone your going to talk to someone ok"?

Fraser looked into those worried eyes, "Your right Ray I'm sorry. I promise I will do better and I will talk to someone. I'm sorry I caused you pain it won't happen again".

Ray got him to his feet and onto the couch, "You better mister I want my husband to be alive when I marry him. Now sit still and I'll make tea and I'm ordering two pizzas and you're going to eat every bit of it got it". Fraser smiled, "Got it Ray".

Ray went back to the couch with phone in hand and kissed Fraser long and hard with more passion then ever before. To show Fraser just what he'd be losing if he didn't help himself.

Fraser caught on, "Right you are Ray and I love you". With one more peck, "love Ya to Ben". Ray went and ordered the pizzas. And Fraser swore he was not losing this he would do what ever it takes.