The songs are: 'Don't let it be love' by Bowling for Soup, 'I'm so in love with you' by Erasure, and 'Sugar pie, honey bunch' by some random people I don't know.

Roxas turned on the water until it was a good heat, hot, but not scalding. Then stuck both of his hands under it.

Nothing happened…

He growled and knew that this would happen. Putting his hands under water wasn't helping! Usually, when Roxas was stressed or was thinking too hard, he would put his hands under hot running water, and that for some reason would always calm him. But this time…it didn't.

Then he knew that this was a moment for desperate measures. He needed….

A hot spring.

He jumped into his room and grabbed his swim trunks from his drawer, put his wallet from his mantle into his back pocket, and walked out to his car, grabbing his keys and cell phone from the counter.

He opened the car and slid in, slamming the door and dialing a number on his cell before he started the car.

"Hello?" Selphie answered before the first ring ended. And she waited happily.

Roxas clicked his seat belt and put the keys in the ignition, "I'm taking today off, Selphie. I need to go to a hot spring,"

"AHH! Are you alright!? Did something happen!?" Selphie exclaimed loudly, knowing exactly what Roxas going to a hot spring meant: He needed to think over something extremely important in his life.

Roxas sighed and leaned his back, "This whole thing with Axel…I just need a hot spring…you understand right?"

"Yeah! Yeah!" She yelled, and he could tell that she was jumping up and down, "You don't worry, I'll tell Hayner it's for a hot spring and he'll understand immediately,"

Roxas smiled, and he could tell that she heard it in his voice, "thank you Selph,"

She giggled and hung up, and Roxas did too, pulling out of the drive with a quick jerk and started driving.

It was a thirty minute drive to the nearest public hot spring, and that's all the time Roxas needed to get together was he was thinking over while there.

Axel…Roxas couldn't get that stupid actor out of his mind! When he said that he'd be gay for Axel, he did really realize that he'd WANT to be gay for Axel! Roxas growled. No! He didn't WANT to be gay for Axel! Axel was just a friend…

Roxas sighed…maybe…

He growled and pushed the button for the radio to go on, listening to the first song that came on.

So don't don't don't
Let it be love love love
Because it hurts a lot, like it or not.

Roxas stared at the radio in disbelief, then pressed the button number two, taking the station to another auto programmed station.

Oh baby refrain from breaking my heart
I'm so in love with you
I'll be forever blue

He growled and nearly slammed the buttons again.

Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch
You know that I love you
I can't help myself
I love you and nobody else

Roxas just turned the radio off and sighed, his hands holding the steering wheel so tight his knuckles turned white.

Roxas sighed and leaned back into the water. He didn't know what it was about the hot springs that helped him think things out.

Was it the great dinner at a great restaurant that he always had on his way home? Was it the way that the extremely warm and nice-feeling salt water would give off that aroma that would just let him sit there…and THINK? He couldn't help but sit with his back against the tile, up to his neck in water, thinking about stuff while just staring at the endless blue sky.

He sighed and started the process that would usually take up to two hours or more, and then it would usually drag onto the dinner he would have alone. But that was a really good dinner, and when you have a good dinner alone, you tend to think stuff over.

So…Axel. He couldn't love Axel. He couldn't, he wouldn't, and he shouldn't. Roxas knew nothing about Axel; you can't be in love with someone you know nothing about! Can you? Well…he generally knew a lot about Axel, his parents and things. But Roxas didn't know if Axel had any siblings or what his childhood was like. He knew nothing!

He didn't know Axel's details. Someone who loved someone should know every detail with his or her body. Like their smiles, their eyes, their hands, and their details. Like, Axel had six smiles: a smile when he was nervous, a smile when he really was laughing, a smile when he was with friends, a smile when he was trying to impress Roxas, a smile on the television screen, and a smile when he was just looking at Roxas. See? Roxas needed to know something like that- …

"Shit…" Roxas mumbled to himself when he realized that he DID know Axel's details. Like the way his eyes would shine whenever he realized that he had a chance to get friends. Or when he would laugh, or when he would just sit there and talk. Or the way that Axel would seem confident in almost every situation that they could be in.

"But he could never…" Roxas mused to himself and sighed. Axel would never love him back. Why would a MOVIE STAR love a person from Fraser's Bottom and worked at a Piggly Wiggly!? Who in their right mind would? Roxas was a nobody, and Axel was a BIG somebody. Nobodies aren't supposed to be with some-bodies.

What would people think? Axel had a rep to live up to, and the most he could be was Roxas's friend. Axel needed to marry another high and mighty actor and become even more famous. He couldn't put his publicity on the line just for Roxas.

Turns out it will have to be one sided…but hey! When did Roxas realize that he was in love with Axel in the first place? What if he doesn't love him?

"Geh…" Roxas gurgled and realized that he just tricked himself into admitting that he was in love. He sighed and sunk under the green tinted water until just his nose up was showing. This sucked. People said that being in love was like being free, but knowing that the one you love will never love you back just makes you miserable. He blew in the water and watched the bubbles come up.

Roxas closed his eyes and sighed mentally. For once, the water wasn't coming. He tuned into everything around him. He heard the door to the men's dressing area open, and he heard someone coming into the water. A car either came or left the parking area, and the breeze was nice against Roxas's hair.

"Roxas…"

He opened his eyes and looked up, gasping a little at whom it was…

George Harlan: The man that worked at the counter here. He must've been at least twenty-five. He'd always had a crush on Roxas, but it was one of those 'you're-sexy-so-I-want-too-kiss-you-and-rape-you' crushes. Roxas really never liked the guy. He always seemed to bug Roxas in the hot springs, and Roxas was unaware of what his shifts were. All the man did was torment Roxas, but he always seemed to be at the register when Roxas came and left.

"George," Roxas mumbled in greeting, looking up at the man standing waist-deep in the water. To say that George was unattractive would be a lie, but remember, Roxas was only gay for Axel.

"Roxas, why don't you go out with me this evening?" George asked, and Roxas stood, coming to the elder's nose, and starting to walk away:

"No thank you, George," Roxas said, going to go to the stairs that were just to the side of the deep end. Roxas couldn't swim yet, but the stairs weren't that far in too deep. Wow, Roxas, twenty-three and can't swim.

He felt something grab his elbow and he looked back at the George. The man was staring intently at him, and Roxas started to feel nervous, "George?"

"I told you…" The man pulled Roxas forward. Being stronger than Roxas, the blonde stumbled through the warm water against his own will. But George went on, "Call me Leo…"

Roxas was going to ask him to kindly let him go when he was pushed into the man's chest and his lips attacked by the others.

He felt a disgusting wave of displeasure travel up his spine and the feel of this man's lips on his made him nearly want to puke. And the fact that the man was groping his ass didn't help at all. He pushed the man away just enough to yell, "Lay off! Get away from me, you sicko!"

The man pulled Roxas back and plunged his tongue into the other's un-expecting mouth, grabbing Roxas's jaw painfully so that he couldn't bite.

Roxas still tried to push away as the man attacked his mouth, but the man was gripping his backside and pushing their hips together.

Somehow they'd managed to spin around so that George's back was now toward the deep end. Roxas didn't want any of this! He wished that someone would have heard his scream, but the hot springs wasn't that busy today…and they were the only ones in this particular spring.

"Get off him, you perv!"

Someone grabbed George's shoulder and shoved him in an attempt to get him off the smaller blonde. This caused the man to stumble backward into the water, but he still had his steel grip on Roxas, so that meant that the blonde went with him.

Roxas held his breath, but couldn't open his eyes because of the intense amount of salt in the water. He couldn't hold his breath for long because that pervert was still kissing him, and the hand on his ass tightened. He growled and pushed the man away, but this time, George willingly went away and swam to the top of the water.

Roxas was ready to stand on the bottom and get a big breath of air…but when he went to stand, there was no bottom. Shit…they were in the deep end. And Roxas couldn't swim.

I didn't open his eyes, and he waved his arms around, feeling his lungs tighten. Great, nearly getting raped and then drowning, what fun. He kicked his legs and didn't get how people did it…all he seemed to be doing was sinking. He sighed and realized that he was out of air, and that his senses were starting to fail.

He nearly gave up hope when he felt arms go around his waist and pull him up. This person must've known how to swim, because they were at the top of the water within seconds, and Roxas just went limp in the others arms, coughing and sputtering, gasping for air.

"Gees, man! Molest him then leave him to die! You bastard!" The newcomer was yelling at George, and Roxas leaned against his chest, finding his voice oddly comforting, although it was yelling.

He opened his eyes and came face to face with a shirt. Someone had jumped in here fully clothed! But at least they saved Roxas. The blonde traveled up the chest and looked at the man who saved him. Wait…it couldn't be…

"Hayner?" Roxas asked, squinting to make sure he was looking at the right person. Why would Hayner be here? Why would Hayner save him?

Hayner looked at him with a triumphant smile, "Yup, the one and only! You okay, dude?"

Roxas sighed and felt a headache coming on. He lolled his head to the side and felt like throwing up. Hayner took this time to realize that the man was indeed NOT okay, and he quickly pulled the man onto the bank, pulling himself up soon after. He was surprised when Roxas just lay there with his head to the side.

"You need me to call a ambulance?" Hayner asked, looking over him with a strangely worried glance. Roxas shook his head and sighed, closing his eyes when he felt them burn from the running water into his eyes,

"Why are you here, Hayner?" Roxas asked, sitting up slowly and spitting to the side.

Hayner growled and shoved Roxas a bit too hard, "that's a way to thank your friend!"

Roxas fell over to the side that Hayner pushed him too and just laid there, thinking things over.

"Well," Hayner left him there and crossed his soaking legs, "Selphie told me and Axel that you were here, and he wanted to come over and try and cheer you up. I came along to show him the way, and he is currently looking through the other springs for you."

"Just to let you know," Roxas sighed and flopped to his back, "thanks for saving me. I'm never coming here again."

"You should totally sue," Hayner said, ringing out his shirt, "I would. I can for you,"

Roxas just sighed and wished that it were Axel who saved him. That would have been so…oddly romantic.

"Roxas!"

He looked up and saw Axel running over here, him being fully clothed as well, "what happened, Roxas?!"

Roxas sighed and sat up finally, running a hand through his hair, "I'm okay. Nothing happened,"

"No!" Hayner said, gesturing to himself, "this is not nothing! You nearly drowned!"

Roxas sighed and watched as Axel sprinted over and kneeled next to him, putting a hand on his cheek and checking him over, "are you alright!? Do we need to take you to the hospital!?"

Roxas laughed and shook his head, "No, I'm fine…" He blushed slightly, hoping that Axel didn't notice, "I'm good,"

Axel sighed and smiled, nodding.

Roxas was waiting for Hayner and Axel, sitting against his car, sighing all the way. He looked over when he heard a voice, and he couldn't hold back a gasp.

It wasn't that bad…it was just Axel flirting with another guy. It didn't help that that guy was George, but it surprisingly hurt when he watched this exchange. And he couldn't hold back that hurt look as he watched them.

Roxas jerked when he felt a hand on his shoulder, and he looked over at Hayner, smiling nervously, "Hayner, you ready to go?"

Hayner looked at his friend quizzically, then nodded. He wanted to get home too. He had some odd wanting to go to the bar…

Roxas laughed and got into his car, closing the door and looking out the open window, "Hay, I'm going to have a little dinner by myself. I'm not going to be back until a little bit later than you guys, that all right?"

"No need to confirm with me," Hayner said, then gave him a thumbs up, "I'll be at the bar if you need to talk."

Roxas wondered absently when Hayner became so nice. The normal Hayner would have yelled at him and called him 'rock's ass'. Hmm…weird things happening all over.

Roxas found himself at the restaurant in a matter of seconds. It was a rather expensive place, and it was large, and crowded whenever he got there, but it was really nice. It had the best rolls in the world, and they usually sat him quickly because he was alone. Big groups generally went there.

Roxas smiled to the cashier and put in his name, "Roxas. One person."

They nodded and put it in, smiling and looking at him again, "Okay, Roxas. We can seat you immediately. Just follow that man over there and he'll take you to your seat."

"Thank you," Roxas nodded his head and followed the man she'd talked about, and he took Roxas to a rather secluded table on the second floor. Just the way Roxas liked it.

He was almost immediately brought rolls, and he dug in, looking at the menu absently, already having ordered a coke. He was driving, but if there was anyone else here with him that could drive, he would have ordered a beer or something.

The menu began to blur suddenly and he dropped the roll he was currently eating on the table. Roxas choked back a whimper and covered his face with his hands. He'd waited until the waiters and waitresses were gone, and then let it all go. He couldn't…he couldn't go to California with someone he loved. He would be tormented to always see Axel flirting and making out with others. He'd have to watch Axel fall in love with someone else.

Roxas sighed and pulled out his cell phone, dialing the number he'd heard only days ago.

"Hi, Axel?" Roxas murmured into the phone and then he clenched his eyes shut, "yeah. I don't think I can go with you to California anymore…"

YAY! Another chapter. The tension in their relationship is growing high!