Chapter Four

Jake's POV

These last few weeks without Bella had been hell. I've missed holding her hand as we walked along the beach. Our long talks about anything and everything, large or small, it didn't matter. I've been driving the pack crazy when I was in wolf form with my thoughts of her. Of kissing her, holding her close, and how it felt to have my hand running through her long, silky hair.

The sad part of it was that none of this had really happened, at least not yet. But hey, a wolf can dream. Most of the pack understood because of the imprinting. But I was consumed with thoughts of her even before the imprinting because I already loved her.

I never needed any werewolf magic to tell me she was my soul mate, the one created just for me. The imprinting just solidified it and proved I was right. Even if I hadn't imprinted on her, my mind and heart were so full of her and I knew that no one else could compare.

Her face was the first thing I saw in my mind before going to sleep and when I woke up each morning. I had been driving myself crazy trying to figure out a way to spend time with her so I could prove to her she could trust me and that only death could take me from her again. I loved her more than my life.

Then a miracle occurred and now I was thanking the gods that I would have two months alone with her because of Billy and Charlie.

When she pulled up at my house and got out of her truck, I had to fight myself to keep from running and grabbing her to me never letting her go, but all I did was stand there, watching my angel, my Bella. I thought to myself, how could she possibly think I would want anyone but her?

She is the only girl I have ever wanted, though when I was younger, I just thought we would be best friends for life, but when she moved back to Forks, I realized she was the woman I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.

When she walked by me to enter my house, her scent hit me like a ton of bricks. How was I gonna sit there and have a civilized meal with her when her scent was so intoxicating to me? It was like a drug, making me want to jump her right then and there. I'm sure I looked like a total idiot just following her around, but I could hardly keep my eyes off her.

As we ate, Charlie broke the news to her of our little vacation together. Although I already knew about it because Billy had told me before they had arrived, I still wanted to jump for joy. But contained myself, not giving away how pleased I was.

I snuck another peek at her and she had the look of a deer caught in headlights. I had to stifle back a smile. This will be my chance to show her how much I loved and respected her, above anything in my life, but I couldn't lie to myself though, because I also wanted her in more physical ways too, but it was more important to me right now for her to know how precious she was to me.

As I watched her from across the table, I thought to myself that she better get herself ready, because I was going to sweep you off your feet completely, mind, body, and soul.

I kept my cool until Charlie and Bella left to pack their things and come back to spend the night at my house, so we could all leave early the next morning, but after helping Billy clean up the kitchen from dinner, I went to my room and punched a fist into the air, dancing around a little, quietly so Billy couldn't hear me. I really wanted to be screaming, yes. I couldn't wait, let the games begin, I thought.

After my silent celebration, I brought the extra mattress to the den and made it and the sofa up for me and Charlie, then put fresh sheets on my bed for Bella. I have to admit. It gave me a thrill to know she would be sleeping in my bed.

When Bella and Charlie returned and everyone was settled down somewhat I decided to take a quick shower, knowing there would be no time for it in the morning since most of my things were already packed.

I grabbed a fresh pair of cutoff sweats to sleep in from my room and went to the bathroom, so I could take my shower. I had been outside loading things into the vehicle, but had all I could load tonight finished.

I had just reached the door, ready to knock, when it opened and something soft slammed into me. It was Bella. I quickly grabbed her before she fell and hurt herself, and as I looked down into those beautiful soft brown, doe eyes, I was lost. I had the urge to mold her to me, to tangle my hands into the luscious, brown waves of her hair, bring her lips softly to mine and tasting the sweetness that was Bella, my Bella. I found myself leaning toward her, when she spoke breaking me out of my trance.

"Excuse me," she said, seeming a little off balance.

For a minute, I couldn't understand what she was saying. Then I realized, she wanted to get past me on her way to my room, so I moved back a few inches where she had to brush against me to get by. It is not something I did on purpose, it was my inner wolf recognizing that it's mate was there and it wanted her, wanted her now and it took everything I had to move those few inches.

I wondered if she realized this because she was slowly leaning toward me too. Shivers of pleasure ran down my spine when she did. After I heard the bedroom door close behind her, I went into the bathroom to take my shower.

This is going to be a long night, I thought as I stretched out on the couch. And it was while everyone was soundly sleeping that I tossed and turned because I knew Bella, the love of my life, my soul mate, was asleep just a couple doors from me.

I had the urge to go cuddle with my sleeping angel or just watch her sleep, but I'm sure she wouldn't appreciate waking up to me cuddling in the night and I'm sure it would be creepy if she woke up and caught me watching her sleep, besides I doubted Charlie would appreciate it either. After all, I hoped to have children with Bella someday and I had no desire to be neutered by her dad. That would not help my cause at all.

So I settled myself down, as best I could and listened to her heart beat and let the sound soothe me into sleep and dreams of her and the future I hoped to have with her.

As usual none of the characters belong to me,they belong to Stephanie Meyer,if they did, jacob and bella would be together,hell..in my world they are.

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