There's someone down below blowing you a kiss.
They watch from their windows
as all arms fall to their sides,
and all eyes fix on the death of tomorrow.
And you found everything you need
to make a life complete,
completely revolting and they have safety and relief
For sale down the street.
I see you in line every day
You had time to waste and I'm not sorry,
such a basket case, hide the cutlery.
I had time to kill, it's dead and buried.
You've got guts to spill but no one trustworthy.
These creatures are waking up in these dark trees.
Awaiting like vultures.
Eyes roll back turn white in time to feed
They salivate in hunger.
for you, and everything they need
to make a death complete,
completely unnatural and salvation lies
behind those dead eyes that watch you while you sleep every night, and
You had time to waste and I'm not sorry,
such a basket case, hide the cutlery.
I had time to kill, it's dead and buried.
You've got guts to spill but no one trustworthy.
You had time to waste and I'm not sorry,
such a basket case, hide the cutlery.
I had time to kill, it's dead and buried.
You've got guts to spill but no one trustworthy.
Lexie walked back into the house. She had forgotten how much she enjoyed being in a relationship even if it was hidden. Everyone was wrapping up dinner when she walked into the house. No one said anything as walked in. Lexie made eye contact with Lori who elbowed Rick. Rick quickly stood walking into the study followed by Lori.
"Lex we need to talk."
Lexie frowned before nodding.
"Sure thing. What's up Rick?"
Rick took a breath.
"I saw you and Shane earlier."
Lexie's mouth dropped.
"We're you being a total perv and watched the whole time? Gross!"
Rick immediately looked disgusted.
"No! I saw enough to know what you two are doing."
Lexie sighed.
"Ok fine! We are back together. It's what I want. Before you start telling me I don't need to do this I love him."
Rick looked down before running a hand through his hair.
"Shane may be the father of Lori's baby."
Lexie's mouth dropped and her heart began to pound. She looked at Lori.
"The fuck? You god damn bitch! You cheated on my brother with my boyfriend? You better be god damn thankful that your knocked up right now or so help me I would beat the mother fucking shit out of you!"
Lori whimpered holding her hands up.
"Lex please!"
Lori choked as Lexie started toward her.
"SHUT UP! I don't want to hear your excuses!"
Rick stepped between the two as Shane walked in automatically knowing something was wrong.
"Lexie they thought we were dead! They didn't know!"
Shane slowly reached over trying to take Lexie's hand but instead got a slap to the face.
"And none of you all could tell me about this? Was it that hard to say?! Shane on all three of you. Fuck y'all!"
Shane reached out.
"Hey quiet walking off all half cocked and listen to your brother."
Lexie turned on him. Her blue eyes livid and enraged as she pushed him away ignoring the face his cheek was bleeding now.
"You dirty son of a bitch! You of all people should opened your mouth but no you start making me feel like I am something to you. Start fucking me like you used to when we was actually a couple. Don't touch me and stay away from me! All of you!"
Shane shook his head.
"I don't think so Lexie. I didn't tell you so I could protect you! I didn't want you spending the next couple months until she has the baby freaking out."
Lexie ignored that Shane was turning red and clearly losing his temper.
"Well that's just too fucking bad! I know now. What the fuck was the next part of yalls master plan for keeping Lexie out of the loop?! Huh? What were y'all going to do if that baby comes out with brown eyes and hair!? How were you fucking professors going to explain that to me?! Oh wait you would probably just sweep that under the rug too. I'm done with all of you! I hope you all go burn in hell!"
Lexie pushed her way past Shane and stormed out the door. Rick sighed shaking his head. Shane rolled his eyes.
"Well that went well didn't it? I told you all we needed to tell her. Now look she's out there alone! I almost had her trusting me again and this fucked everything up. Thanks!"
Shane, Lori, and Rick could only watch as Lexie stormed off into the white snow.
Lexie stormed through the woods sobbing. How could they not tell her? Was it that hard to open they mouths? Now she would have to be on her to sfor another few weeks until Lori had the kid so she could see if it was Shane's or her brothers. Shane couldn't have a kid with her but now he could have one with Lori. The thought made Lexie even angrier.
Coming upon an abandoned subdivision Lexie decided to stay away for a couple of days...weeks maybe. She couldn't return to the farm for the time being. Lexie needed to calm down. She wanted to give them time to worry.
(3 weeks later)
Lexie surprised herself. She did pretty well on her own again. Deep down she had began to rely too much on Shane and forgot to rely on herself.
"I knew I could do this."
Lexie thought with a smile one morning as she went out to look for food. The only down side was she missed her friends. She felt bad for the worry she had to be inflicting upon Maggie and Glen. If she ever saw them again she would have to kiss major ass to get them to forgive her. As far as her brother, Shane, and Lori that was another subject that included a lot of four letter words.
Deep down Lexie did miss Shane. She had gotten used to feeling him in bed to keeping her warm at night. Lexie missed waking up in his arms. With a sigh she looked down at her worn boots and in a way contemplated going back.
Voices quickly caught Lexie's attention resulting in her to automatically run behind a tree. To her shock Shane and Daryl walked out of the woods.
"Her tracks end here."
Daryl said quietly. Shane sighed angrily.
"God damn it. How the fuck is she pulling these hoodini moves?"
Daryl smirked
"She's good. I'll give her that."
Shane ran a hand through his hair.
"I blame Rick for this. If it wasn't for his dumbass she wouldn't be running around out here like fucking Pocahontas now would she? God damn it. I should have opened my damn mouth."
Daryl looked up.
"Are you done?"
Shane looked offended as he looked back at Daryl.
"What?"
Daryl rolled his eyes.
"If you were her man you would have. You wouldn't have let Rick and that broad tell you what to do. Now quit your bitching and help me look."
Lexie smirked. Daryl was right. The Shane that she knew would never let Rick and Lori talk him into such bullshit. This Shane wasn't the man she knew. Maybe the outside shell of him but not her Shane.
Would she go back? Lexie didn't know. It depended on how quickly her anger vanished. Normally that wouldn't be any time soon.
(1 year and a 1/2 later)
Things hadn't really gotten any better for Lexie. She, as she suspected, remained stubborn and didn't go back. As food became scarce; however, she decided it was probably time to go back and face the music. If she didn't go back Lexie wouldn't survive much longer out in the wild. The walkers were becoming too many and she was definitely too few.
Lexie knew Rick and company hadn't left Herschel's farm. She had spent many of days checking in on them in the past year or so. To Lexie's pleasure and displeasure she hadn't seen Lori or the baby. Maybe from a distance she could have determine if the child was Rick or Shane's. Silently she prayed it was Rick's. There was no way she could handle it if the child was Shane's. She knew that he had to let go of the fact that her own baby was long gone but she couldn't. Shane was supposed to be the father of her child not someone who was supposed to be her sister in law. It wasn't supposed to end like that!
Lexie tried to reason with that way that things played out. Shane and Lori thought both she and Rick were dead. They thought both parties were worm chow and wanted to carry on with their lives. That was fair and reasonable...right? Lexie tried to keep that thought in her mind but he nagging nightmare that Shane should have told her the truth when she came back was ever present. She wouldn't have been as upset if all three of her so called "family members" were honest from the get go.
Glenn sat on the porch keeping watch when a moving figure in the wood line caught his attention. He quickly stood pointing his gun as Shane walked out.
"What is it?"
Glenn shrugged,
"Not sure it just started moving a moment ago. Moving awful fast to be a walker."
Shane nodded feeling to his hip for his handgun as the moving shape got closer. Glenn stepped off the porch as he began to realize that moving shape was Lexie. His mouth dropped. He had been worried about his friend from the moment she left. Glenn glanced back at Shane, who was also standing with his mouth open.
"Lexie?!"
Glenn shouted as he took off to his friend. He was shocked when he got to her. She didn't look awful or like she had been alone in a zombie infested world. Lexie was still the same Lexie he had met on day one. She was just a little thinner than he remembered.
"Hi Glenn."
She said with a warm smile before throwing her arms around him. Glenn smiled hugging her tightly.
"We've been so worried about you! Are you back for good?"
Lexie nodded letting go of her friend as she shifted her bag onto her other shoulder.
"One isn't a fair number out there. I would rather be here with people I don't exactly enjoy then be dead. Just so you know I am in no way talking about you or Maggie."
Glenn nodded.
"I know what you mean. Just so you know you have really made them all miserable too."
Lexie looked up to see Shane headed her direction with a worried expression on his handsome face. To her relief, he hadn't changed. Still handsome dark eyed Shane Walsh.
"Lexie. We've been so worried about you."
He said softly seeming got forget that Glenn was standing with them. Lexie raised an eye brow.
"Well I'm fine."
She wasn't about to let him off easily nor was she about to run and jump in his arms begging for forgiveness. That was the last thing she was about to do no matter how much she wanted him to hold her.
Shane sighed realizing she was still pissed.
"About what happened. You should know..."
Lexie held her hand up.
"I don't want to hear it. Where's my brother and Ms. I'll screw anything that moves?"
Shane winced at the acidity in her tone.
"I hope you didn't give me a nickname."
Lexie placed her hands on her hips.
"I can make one. Now where is my brother and Lori?"
Glenn and Shane exchanged glances before Shane looked to Lexie.
"Lori died."
Lexie's eyes widened.
"What?!"
Shane nodded.
"We had a heard come through some time ago. One of them got her. We was able...well Maggie was able to get the baby delivered before Carl had to shoot Lori."
Lexie's face looked, if possible, even more freaked out.
"You guys let CARL kill her?! Oh my god! Where the fuck were you and Rick?"
Shane sighed again running a hand through his hair.
"We all got separated. It all happened before we could get to her. Rick is a mess. He went kinda crazy for a bit. He's finally comin around."
Lexie shook her head handing Glenn her bag.
"Jesus ya think? Mother of god the shit that goes on these days."
She turned and started walking toward the house. Shane held his hands up.
"Where ya goin?"
Lexie didn't even turned to meet her ex's confused expression.
"To find my brother and nephew."
Shane started walking after her.
"What no nice to see you or anything for me?"
Lexie started laughing.
"If it was true I would say it.'
She turned leaving Shane looking at her with a shocked beyond all reason expression. Lexie didn't know why he acted all shocked. She told him off all the time. In the beginning, when they first got together he said that was one thing that he admired about her. She wasn't afraid to speak her mind.
"I would rather you tell my ass off for fucking up then letting me be an ass to ya."
Lexie smirked at that thought and wondered if he regretted saying that now.
Walking into the house everyone looked shocked to see her. Within moments she had a dozen sets of arms around her.
"Lexie you're all right!" (Carol)
"We've been so worried!" (Andrea)
Lexie smiled warmly feeling glad that they were worried. Although the others had nothing to do with what had happened she was glad they had missed her too. Herschel stood walking to her.
"We need to have a look at you and make sure you are healthy."
Lexie patted Herschel's shoulder.
"I'm good. I haven't been bit and I've stayed healthy. I promise you. I really need to see my brother."
Herschel exchanged glances with Andrea and the rest of the group.
"He's on a walk right now. He should be back soon."
Lexie nodded as Shane walked into the house behind her. Carol meanwhile, smiled her motherly smile.
"Why don't you come see your niece?"
Lexie stepped back a few feet and everyone knew that Carol had hit a nerve. It wasn't no secret as to why Lexie had ran. They all knew what Rick, Lori, and Shane had done.
Shane sighed looking at Lexie gently putting a hand on her forearm leaning closer to her.
"She isn't mine."
Lexie's blue eyes didn't look the least bit trusting as she looked up at him.
"Like I believe that."
Shane shook his head grabbing her hand pulling his now nervous looking ex girlfriend behind him.
"Come look at her if you don't believe me."
This was the last thing Lexie wanted to do. What if Shane was lying to her again and when she walked into the room she saw a baby that had his dark eyes and features? He might as just shoot her at that point. She would be devastated!
Walking into a bedroom off the kitchen Lexie apprehensively looked down at a small baby who sat on the floor playing with Beth. To Lexie's relief that baby didn't look like Shane or Lori but herself as a baby. This baby was a mirror to Lexie when she was about to be one. Her big blue eyes were focused on a teething ring that she was shoving into her tiny mouth
Shane gently snaked his arm around her waist holding her against him. To his shock Lexie didn't fight him off or attempt to kick him in balls but instead leaned back against him.
"She looks like me."
Shane nodded.
"Carbon copy. If that's my baby then we must be related or something which would be kind of odd given our history."
Lexie chuckled as the baby looked up at her for a moment before smiling.
"Yeah it would wouldn't it? Wow I feel like such an ass right now."
Shane tightened his hold on her pulling her if possible tighter against his body before getting bold and placing a gentle kiss on her shoulder.
"You had every right to be. We should have told you the truth from day one. That was one us. It was shitty. I think the only reason I agreed to it was I had just gotten you back and didn't want to loose you again. I should have known something bad would have happened. Guess I am winning the jacksss olympics."
Lexie smiled,
"Yeah you're carrying the torch too but right now I'm not too angry anymore. I should have listened before l lost my temper like that. Ok before I get all forgiving of you do you have anything else that you've done that I should know about?"
Shane shook his head.
"Not that I am aware of but tomorrow is another day."
Lexie chuckled before touching his hand and pulling away.
"I have to go find Rick. We'll talk later ok?"
Shane sighed.
"I don't really like you going back out there alone."
Lexie smiled.
"Relax I've been on my own a year now. I'll find my brother in now time."
Shane nodded watching as Lexie turned and walked out the door yet again. Only this time he didn't feel a sense of doom or dread. Now he had the promise that she would be back and maybe...just maybe he could fix the damage.