Chapter 4: Confusion

"Sometimes in our confusion, we see not the world as it is, but the world though eyes blurred by the mind."

It all happened swiftly, giving her no time to neither protest nor comprehend what was suddenly happening. It just happened. One moment she was about to fall, the next she was held tightly, and then there she was suddenly being kissed. No time and room for resisting. Her hands were intertwined with his, her body against his. How can she break free? He was holding her firmly, and Relena's body tensed. Her hands stiffened at the contact and she tightened her hold on his shirt.

Heero felt her body tensed at the contact and was about to pull away. But she tasted like strawberries, it was hard to let go. Pulling her closer, he felt her relax. Her hand that was wrapped around his waist shifted and placed it on his chest.

Too easy. Welcoming Relena's touch, Heero triumphantly deepened the kiss thinking that he had won this little game. Too easy. It ended too soon, he thought. He didn't know that their student council president would be this easy to catch. He had expected that she would put up a fight. But that didn't matter for now; all he wanted was to taste more of her.

Can't. Relena felt her mind go blank as Heero pulled her closer and tried to part her lips slightly. All she was thinking was this alien sensation and feeling of being kissed. It was totally new to her, and she just had to close her eyes to absorb this new feeling. This was not supposed to happen, but her mind went blank the moment their lips made contact.

She was losing it. She was losing her senses. All she felt was him. The alien feeling was almost euphoric, until images flashed in her mind.

Images of a dark room, a locked door, curtains covering the windows, a lamp shade turned on, a blonde man wearing a suit crossed her mind.

"No, please. Stop." Her voice cracked as she pleaded and cried. "Don't!"

A hand shot up and covered her mouth, while another pinned her arm on the bed. It hurt. His grip hurt, as well as her whole body. Everything ached, she couldn't move. Even if she tried, it was just too painful.

"You better keep it down. Don't worry, I don't intend to hurt you. Just cooperate," whispered her captor on her ear before he trailed kisses down her neck up to her chest.

Relena's brow furrowed at the sudden scene that played in her mind, and once again her body tensed. Her hand that was on Heero's chest held on to his shirt tightly.

"You're going to love this. You're going to enjoy this as much as I do," the man seductively whispered as he ran his hand on her legs that were spread widely in front of him.

"Stop this. Stop. Please, don't. No!" She begged as she cried. Fear engulfed her whole being.

The blonde man on top of her smirked as he pushed forward, making her scream.

"No!" Relena's eyes snapped open, pulled her lips away, and with the adrenaline that ran thorough her, she pressed her hands on his chest with much force to pull away from his embrace. The push was hard enough to make her lose her balance and fall hard on the ice cold floor.

Jolts of an electric-like feeling ran through her arm as her elbow hit the floor. Her light brown hair covered her face as she fell on her side. Relena tried to get up by pushing her body from the floor using her other hand, attaining frostbites in the process.

"Hey, you okay? Relena, what's wrong?" What happened? They were alright a moment ago, what happened to her? Seeing Relena struggle with herself, he went to her side and held her arm.

"Don't touch me!" Relena violently shook her arm as if his touch was poison. She didn't even look at him, maintaining her gaze on the floor. Determined to get out of the rink as much as possible, she pushed herself to stand on her two feet on the slippery ice floor.

Heero was surprised at her sudden change of behaviour. He watched her as she stood on her two feet, only to fall forward when she took a step.

She landed on the floor with her hands and knees. She stayed there for a moment, shaking. Her hands were turning red from the long contact on the ice floor.

"Relena," said Heero, placing his hand on her back and arm, trying to help her get up.

"Get your hands off me," said Relena. Her voice was threatening, not moving from her position.

Ignoring her protests, Heero wrapped his arms around her and helped her stand up. Surprisingly, Relena didn't pull away. But she still refused to look at him.

The moment they were standing once more, Relena again pushed herself away from him and tried to skate by herself towards the entrance of the rink. "Stay away from me," she commanded. She fell down a couple of times, her arms and hands absorbing almost all of the impact.

Heero watched her struggle to crawl on the floor until she reached the entrance of the rink. What happened to her? he kept thinking. He followed her, thinking what had he done for her to act like this. Was it the kiss? How can it be when she was kissing him back?

She sat down by the bench and removed her skating shoes. Her hand ached due to the frostbites. She retrieved her sneakers from the locker beside the bench and tied them hurriedly.

Sitting beside her, Heero knew better than to ask her what was wrong. Women. He didn't say anything, but he watched her. He watched her until she finished tying her shoe lace, he watched her reach for her cellular phone and sent a message to who-knows-who.

"Didn't your parents tell you that it's rude to stare?" Relena spat as she removed his jacket from her body and handed it to him. "I'm going now. The date is over. I don't owe you anything now, so let's just go on with our lives pretending that this didn't happen." She picked up her bag and went for the exit.

Sitting alone in the ice skating rink, Heero ran a hand through his dark locks. This was a first. It was the first time that he had let a woman in control. Moreover, confuse him like this. Mood swings, he was used to that. But leave him like this? There was no way that he would let this. Grabbing his jacket, he followed her way to the exit.

Standing by the end of the street, Relena checked her phone again only to sigh in disappointment. She yelped in surprise when a hand grabbed her wrist.

"Come on," said Heero. His voice was commanding, which complemented the serious look on his eyes. "I'll take you home."

"I'm not going with you. The date is over. We have nothing to do with each other anymore," argued Relena, not moving from her place. Her voice and eyes also had an authoritative expression, but she didn't look at him. "Go find someone else you can play with."

Irritated at her comment, he reached for her arm and made her look at him, holding her in place. Why was she being difficult? "I..."

He was cut off by a loud honking of a pink car that parked in front of them. The windows rolled down and Heero eyed the chauffer seriously.

"Miss Relena, shall we go home now?" asked the elderly chauffer.

"Yes, Pagan," she smiled at the chauffer. "Good bye, Heero. Thank you for today." She sarcastically smiled at him and broke free from his hold.

Heero as she entered the car. Damn it.

"Heero's not in a good mood today, is he?" asked Duo, leaning over to Quatre.

"I agree." Quatre nodded, eyeing the vacant seat behind him where Heero should be sitting located on the far corner at the back of their classroom by the window. "He's at the rooftop as usual."

"Well, Heero has always maintained good grades even when not attending classes," said Trowa while reading a book beside Heero's vacant seat. "His date yesterday may have not gone well as we think it did."

"The woman probably dumped him," added their Chinese friend Wufei, who was sitting beside Trowa on the other side.

"Heero? Dumped? That's not really possible, right?" asked Duo disbelievingly. Heero had been the campus heartthrob that every girl desired. And his dating record never had the word "rejected" written in it.

"Who knows? Relena Darlian also has a record of her own, right? She doesn't date anyone," said Trowa.

"That's right. But Miss Darlian agreed to go out with Heero as far as I know," replied Quatre. "If that is so, then something must have happened to their date."

Duo laughed. "You think Heero finally met his match?"

"Probably," replied Wufei. "This may be interesting."

"Yeah. Maybe for once we can see Heero cry over a girl," said Trowa.

The group was silenced when their young professor entered the room.

It had been a very boring afternoon with the sun at its peak on the sky, making the students of St. Gabriel Academy feel drowsier by the minute. As if their soft-spoken elderly female Math professor wasn't enough to send them dozing off on their seats. The students pillowed their heads on their arms, while others pretended to listen with blank expressions on their faces, as their professor discussed Calculus.

Seated at the window side in the middle row of the classroom, Hilde covered her mouth when she yawned, fearing that her professor might hear her. She looked at Relena who was sitting beside her scribbling some notes at the same time not diverting her eyes from the blackboard in front. Hilde then suddenly wondered how Relena can have that much attention span on a boring and confusing lesson.

Too preoccupied in scribbling notes on her long pad, Relena was startled when a crumpled paper landed on her desk, which came from her right side. She turned to her right seeing her friend Dorothy smiling at her and with the expression that seemed to say "Come on, you have something to tell us. Spit it out." Relena often saw this expression when Dorothy was out and about asking their peers of the latest gossips in school. And she kind of dreaded of that expression now that she was the one being asked.

Relena nervously unfolded the paper and read the message in it. "How did your date with Heero Yuy go? I promise I won't tell Hilde that I know."

For some reason, Relena froze after reading the message. She didn't remember telling anyone about her "date" with the school's notorious player. That was one. But the other reason why she felt so cold was because of what happened on their "date" itself. Relena bit her lip as she remembered the sensation of his lips on hers, how her mind went blank for a moment when they connected, and how she pushed him away after some unwelcome scenes played on her mind. It was all too confusing.

The student council president ripped a small piece of paper from her long pad and wrote a reply. Asking her friend how she obtained the information will be futile, she knew that. Dorothy is one of the most informed person in their school, sniffing for the latest gossips and rumours in their school being her hobby. But Relena hoped that, that information will not be spread. Being linked to Heero Yuy will make her feel cheap, she thought. I will not let him get to me.

Keeping her eyes on the blackboard, she handed Dorothy the paper. From her peripheral vision, Relena saw Dorothy smile wide before she wrote down her reply. Dorothy handed Relena the note afterwards, and she read, "It was nice? That's it? By the way, if you're wondering how I got that info, I was on school last Saturday. I forgot my sneakers in the locker and I saw you get in his car. Don't worry, no one else was around in school that time. Can't wait to hear the whole thing later!"

Relief ran through her whole being knowing that no one else saw her with Heero. She nodded to her friend, assuring her that she'd be telling Hilde and her about this Heero thing. And she hoped that this would be the last time that she'd be thinking and talking about him. Her thoughts were interrupted when another note fell on her desk. She unfolded the paper and read, "Sorry. I know that you'll be sharing this later but I'm just REALLY curious. DID HE KISS YOU?"

Relena's eyes widened at the question and felt her cheeks blush, flustered at the memory of his warm body against her, holding her gently, while kissing her. She shot Dorothy an irritated look when her friend's eyes widened as if saying "Oh my god, he did!"

Feeling the room getting even hotter with the memory of him, Relena stood up from her seat and headed for the door. She raised her arm to catch their professor's attention, "I'll just go to the restroom, Ma'am."

Dorothy tried really hard to suppress her laughter when Relena left the classroom and glanced at Hilde who was giving her a confused look. The blonde replied a "Later" to her friend, asking her to wait for Relena to tell them the whole story.

It was probably 2 p.m. in the afternoon now, with the sun being so high in the azure sky. Heero blocked the sun's rays from his face with his arm as he lay on the rooftop – his favourite hang out place in their school. He wasn't in the mood to attend classes today, perhaps because it was the first day of attending school after going out with Relena Darlian, which didn't end the way he expected it to be. And it irritated him to pieces as he recalled how she rejected him.

He was confident that he had won her over. But what was with the sudden change of attitude? She responded to his kiss, he knew it. And then something held her back, making him think over and over what had gone wrong. He was almost there, almost close to his goal. But it failed. And he hated failing. His mission was to make her fall for him, and he will accomplish this. Afterall, how could she be any different from the other girls he dated in the past?

Heero suddenly recalled how beautiful Relena looked even in her casual clothes, how warm her hands were, how she held on to him for dear life while being scared of falling down the ice cold floor, and her lips. Based from his experiences, his kiss with Relena was the most gentle one that he'd executed. All of the girls that he dated before were all aggressive and forceful. While Relena was, if he may say so, seemed inexperienced, prompting him to be gentle and slow. And he couldn't recall any other moment with the other girls how nice it feels to kiss someone without all the aggression and lust-driven touches.

Disgusted at how his mind was reeling towards in Relena being innocent, Heero went out of the door. Time to go back to the classroom, perhaps he might absorb anything sensible in there.

Reaching the second floor of their school building, Heero noticed someone come out of the girl's restroom just a few doors away.

Feeling someone's eyes on her, Relena turned towards the staircase and saw the man who had been occupying her mind for the whole weekend. Her body went cold, but she didn't say anything. It wasn't the first time that she was drawn to his deep Prussian blue eyes that held her in place. Heero.

He stared back, also not saying anything. He wanted to talk to her, but he didn't know how to start. Anger was winning in him, his fists were clenching on his sides. He wanted to know the reasons of her rejection last weekend, but he couldn't say anything. Not when he was still hot-headed. He hated her even more, especially for the very reason of her making him feel this way.

Suddenly feeling self-conscious, Relena gave him a quick smile and turned her back on him at the same time when a tall, blonde with light blue eyes came out of the boys' restroom, bumping on to her.

"Oh, sorry, president," the man with long blond hair apologized.

"Don't mind it, Allen," said Relena, smiling at him.

Heero didn't remove his eyes from Relena and watched how she conversed with the team captain of the basketball team all too quickly and comfortably. Allen Schezar. He narrowed his eyes on the tall, well-built man, and his anger welled up when Relena laughed at whatever it was that he said that made her playfully hit his muscular arm. Not wanting to cause a commotion at the moment, Heero put his hands in the pocket of his pants and walked another floor down, ignoring the two, hoping that his anger will dissipate immediately.

The blonde named Allen Schezar turned to see Heero walk down the stairs. "Was that Heero Yuy a moment ago?"

"Yes, I think. Don't mind him," said Relena, looking at where Heero used to stand on.

Unfortunately, Heero heard her comment. And he wanted to pound his fist on the wall, frustrated at how those words seemed to hurt him.

Author's Note: Okay, updated! I think I'm not giving up on this after all. I was busy lately, so updating took so long. This was rushed so it's a few words shorter than my regular chapter length. I hope that this will be enough for now for those who are asking for an update. Thanks for the encouraging comments. Yes, yes, I will continue this. ^_^

About my new character here. I'm trusting you guys know Allen Schezar from the anime the "Vision of Escaflowne"? It's another favourite anime of mine, so I just had to put him here to suit Relena other than Heero because of his prince-like aura that makes me swoon. LOL. ^_^

That's all. R&R as always. Take care everyone! ^_^