Why am I doing this?
How did this happen?...
Why does it feel so right?
Paige's mind was racing and it felt like it was going to explode but Roman was just lost in the moment. It felt like it was just them two in the world and nothing else mattered. As he laid on top of her kissing her passionately, there was nothing else going on in his head. Except, all of it felt too familiar, like they've been in this exact moment before. They soon realized that they had, except back then it wasn't this wrong. Paige started to remember the first night their lips met as his hand explored the side of her body.
This was before Brie was even in the picture. They were laughing and talking in his apartment before he had made the first move. She had always thought that there was something more to their relationship but she was never completely sure until he had kissed her. They would've done a whole lot more than kissing if Dean hadn't interrupted them. They were both sure that he hadn't seen anything because as soon as they heard the door open they both stopped abruptly and sat up while trying to make it seem like nothing was going on. Dean never questioned them so they both came to the conclusion that he didn't see anything. Roman and Paige never talked about it again and went on pretending that it never happened because they didn't want to complicate things. A few weeks later, the guys got the news that they would be called up, which later on led to the demise of their friendship.
Paige was pulled away from her thoughts after realizing Roman had stopped kissing her and proceeded to pull his shirt off over his head. She couldn't help but stare at his chest, she was mesmerized by his tribal tattoo. She placed her hand on his chest and began tracing the patterns of the tattoo with her fingers. He placed his hand on top of hers stopping her in her tracks before leaning down towards her again. She wrapped her arms around his neck as he began to kiss her again before making his way down to her neck.
She could feel him start to tug at the shirt she was wearing (which was in fact his.) She slightly raised her body off of the bed in order to help him remove the shirt before he made his way back to kissing her neck. She was breathing heavily as she felt the kisses make their way down to her chest. She had lost her fingers in his hair as his hand slid under her so he could unclasp her bra.
He suddenly felt her tug at his hair causing him to put his head up and look at her, directing his attention away from undoing her bra.
Her breathing was still heavy and she said, almost in a whisper, "Stop."
He removed his hand from under her still looking into her eyes as she released his hair then put her hand on his chest to gently push him away from her. He sat up on his knees, still on top of her, as he looked down at her. It was as if he was waiting for her to say it again to make sure he heard her clearly. She rubbed her face with both of her hands before quietly saying, "I can't let you do this. We have to stop."
He took a deep breath and removed himself from on top of her. He sat with his back turned to her then ran his fingers through his hair as reality hit him. He felt like scum, like he was the worst person on the planet for even letting things get that far.
She sat up as she grabbed the shirt she was wearing before and she put it back on. She got off the bed and looked at him while his back was still turned to her.
"I really think I should leave now..." she said, still speaking softly.
He rested his head in his hands as he thought to himself. A moment later he finally turned to look at her. "I told you earlier that I wasn't going to let you go until Emma comes back to open the door for you."
"I'll call her." she responded quickly.
He sighed, "No, don't ruin her night. Just... stay." he said almost desperately because he really didn't want her to go.
She thought to herself for a minute before responding with a nod. "Okay..." she said. "I'll just wait over there. On the couch." She pointed to the other side of the room behind her with her thumb before turning around. He rubbed his forehead with his hand and watched her as she sat herself down on the couch and they remained silent.
It was past 4am and Seth slowly turned the doorknob before entering the room because he wanted to make sure he was quiet in case Roman was in there sleeping. He walked in and quietly closed the door behind him. He turned around and stopped at the sight of Paige asleep on the couch. He looked over to Roman's bed to see that he was sleeping also. He shrugged then took his phone and keys out of his pocket and reached over to place them on table in front the couch that Paige was sleeping on. He accidentally let them slip out of his hand causing them to fall onto the table, causing a ruckus.
"Shit" he said under his breath as he looked at Paige who had started tossing and turning.
She rubbed her eyes before opening them to see Seth standing in front of her with an 'oh shit' look on his face. "Sorry," he whispered.
She rubbed her eyes again before feeling her phone buzz under her. She sat up and picked it up to see that she had missed five phone calls and had seven new text messages. She looked at the last message and read,
I swear to god if ur ok I will hurt you for making me this worried
She took a deep breath before responding to Emma's text,
I'm ok, sorry
She looked up at Seth who was still standing in front of her.
"Um..." he said. "Sorry for waking you..."
"It's fine." She looked over at Roman who was still sound asleep.
"What are you doing here?" He asked as he walked around the table then sat on it in front of her.
"I was locked out of my room. Emma has my key." she answered with a tired voice. "But she's back now so, I'm gonna head out now." They both stood up and he led her to the door. "Have you seen my jacket?" she asked as she scanned the room.
He shook his head in response. She sighed remembering that Roman had taken it away from her but she couldn't remember where he placed it.
"If I see it I'll let you know," he assured her. "I'll ask Roman when he wakes up."
She took a deep breath before answering him, "Okay." She forced a smile. "Thanks." She reached for the doorknob and opened it then made her way out.
"Hey," Seth said causing her to turn around. "Take care of yourself, alright?"
She smiled then nodded. He smiled back as she turned around and made her way down the hall way. He closed the door then walked over to the couch before throwing himself onto it. Only seconds passed before he drifted off to sleep.
Four days had passed by and neither Roman or Paige had said a word about what happened that night. They had not seen or spoken to each other either. They had a house show today and Paige was nervous because she knew she would probably see him backstage. When she closed her eyes at night, she couldn't fall asleep because all she could think about was what almost happened that night. Part of her was mad at herself for stopping, and the other part was pissed because she let it happen in the first place.
"Are you pumped? I'm pumped!"
Emma's voice snapped Paige out of her thoughts. "Yeah..." Paige responded as she bent over to lace up her boots.
"Are you okay?"
Paige looked up at her bubbly friend. "Of course, why?"
Emma brushed her hair behind her ear. "I don't know, you seem really... distant lately. You're sure you're fine?"
Paige forced a smile, "Yes. Now let's go kick some ass." she said as she stood up.
Emma smiled as they walked out of the locker room. They had a tag team match against AJ and Alicia Fox and they talked strategies as they made their way down the hall of the arena.
"After we win you have to celebrate with me and do my dance." Emma told her as they walked. Emma started doing her signature dance while Paige laughed.
"No way." Paige said as she continued to laugh at how ridiculous her blonde friend looked. She suddenly stopped laughing when she spotted The Shield members talking through a crowd of other superstars and divas.
"Paige?" Emma waved her hand in front of Paige's face snapping her back to reality.
"Alright, ladies. Your match is in 5." said the voice of one of the WWE's management.
Paige and Emma nodded at the man before he walked over to where AJ and Alicia were to tell them the same information.
Paige suddenly felt a hand on her shoulder and was startled.
"Hey." The person said as he smiled at Paige and Emma.
Emma waved at the person and Paige released the air she was holding in her lungs when she realized it was Seth. "You alright?" he said to her with a look of concern on his face. "You look like you're gonna be sick."
Paige nodded, "I'm fine guys, really."
"Okay," he said as he crossed his arms over her chest. "Listen, the guys and I were talking. We were wondering if you two wanted to do something sometime?"
Emma furrowed her eyebrows a bit shocked and confused at the same time. "Seriously?" she asked. It had been so long since they all hung out together so she was a bit surprised by this.
He nodded to her in response.
Emma looked at Paige to get her input but Paige was in her own world. She was staring at Roman. He turned around and they suddenly locked eyes. She felt her stomach tighten. Emma looked back at Seth and nodded, "Okay. Sounds good."
She heard Alicia's music in the background and realized it was time to go out to the ring. "That's our cue." she said.
Seth nodded and wished them luck as he stepped out of their way but Paige didn't move. Emma grabbed her arm and pulled her out of her daze. Paige finally realized what was happening and quickly followed Emma to the curtains before her music began signaling that it was time for her and Emma to make their way to the ring.
Emma could tell that Paige's head was not in the match at all. It was really sloppy and she was getting a bit frustrated with her. Paige threw AJ into the turnbuckles in the corner where Emma was standing. She attempted to get AJ onto the top rope and succeeded. Paige adjusted herself to get ready to do a suplex off the top rope but accidentally slipped causing both her and AJ to fall awkwardly into the ring. AJ landed on her arm and it looked as if she was in pain. The crowd stood to their feet as the referee rushed over to check on both Divas. Emma shook her head feeling very frustrated before leaning over to tag herself into the mach. AJ held her arm in pain as Emma went for the pin to end the match quickly in case there was a serious injury. The referee counted the pin before Emma's music played and the crowd cheered. She looked over at Paige who had already exited the ring. Paige stood on the ramp staring into the ring and pushed her hair out of her face in disbelief at what she just did as Emma stared back. Alicia and the referee were busy aiding AJ and making sure she was okay. Paige shook her head and quickly made her way backstage. She was angry and frustrated with herself because she knew that what just happened in the ring was 100% her fault because her mind wouldn't focus on the match. All she wanted to know was that AJ was okay.
She entered the women's locker room and was thankful that it was empty. She stood against the wall and slid down so that she was now sitting on the ground. She brought her knees up against her body and hugged them as her mind continued racing. She wondered to herself if Roman was affected by this too or why she was even bothered by it at all. A week ago she didn't even care about him... okay she did but it wasn't like this. She felt guilty knowing how much he and Brie love each other, but part of her was still wishing she didn't stop him that night. She was angry at herself for it all. She was angry at herself for letting herself make the same mistake twice. The difference between now and the first time was that now, she was the cold-hearted bitch that made a man cheat on his girlfriend. And what was worse what that she couldn't stop thinking about him. She buried her face into her knees, and took a deep breath. She heard the door open and shut but she didn't look up. She felt a hand on her shoulder.
"Paige, AJ's fine. She probably sprained something, but she'll be fine." Emma informed her. "But... what was that out there?"
Paige didn't respond because even she didn't know what that was. Emma knelt down next to her. "Whatever it is, you can tell me." she assured her. But Paige still didn't respond. Emma looked around then sighed. She wrapped her arms around the dark haired diva and just hugged her. Normally Paige would tell her to get off of her but this time she didn't. She actually needed the hug more than Emma would ever know.
Thank you for the reviews on the last chapters! It really means a lot. I hoped you enjoyed this chapter. I noticed that I focused a lot on Paige and Roman lately so I will definitely incorporate others more in the next chapters and hopefully start developing other couples :)