It had been 4 months since Mitsuki had talked to Takuto. Alice was taking good care of her even though she was also 6 months pregnant. Her husband was also very nice to Mitsuki; he was very straight forward and quite comical. He liked to make Mitsuki and his wife laugh. He always said how he prayed that his son would be like him to whom Alice would respond "Oh great yet another clown in the family," They were cute. They were one of those couples who teased each other but at the same time were sweet to each other. But they always made Mitsuki think of her and Takuto.
For now, Mitsuki was staying in their very nice guest room. Alice's husband would go to work while Alice would stay home with Mitsuki. They would go shopping and stuff and have some fun together.
But still, there was some empty void that Mitsuki couldn't fill.
Although she claimed she was happy, she really wasn't. She missed him screaming at the TV when they were watching a sport game, she missed waking up in the morning to Takuto screaming to find the fire extinguisher because he burned her breakfast, she missed it when they would go to grocery stores and he would only buy the things on sale or what he had coupons for; she missed all the little things.
But Takuto had forced her to go do something she didn't want to and when she resisted, he let his anger get the best of him.
Takuto felt the same way. For 4 months he had been surviving off of cheap grocery store food because he had no desire whatsoever to cook. Like Mitsuki, he missed the little things. He missed the smell of her strawberry shampoo, he missed how she used to paint her nails red before a fancy event because red made everything look elegant, he missed her nagging him to clean up the kitchen after he burned her breakfast; all the little things.
Multiple times he found himself just staring at the phone thinking about whether to pick it up or not and call her, beg her, plead for her to come home. He needed to apologize and tell her how he did everything wrong and how he will do anything to make her happy. But he felt like he'd be lying, he wasn't sure if he wanted a baby. He was in a college, he was trying to aim for his masters because he didn't feel as if a bachelor was good enough and he was barely passing his World Religions class. The best job he had was managing a record/music/instrument store and even that pay wasn't amazing. He could probably get a promotion except he had to focus on school so he could never put in the hours.
However, ever since Mitsuki left, he began to do worse and worse in school. He never fully appreciated how much she supported him. When he had a big exam coming up, Mitsuki would make sure to help him study whenever possible and make her he was in the best mental and health states. Also, during finals week, she would always create a schedule for his studying and she would purposefully put her musical career on hold to make sure she could do everything for him. Without Mitsuki, he had lost all his inspiration to achieve something. He was getting distracted during class, he wasn't doing his work, he wasn't studying, and he had lost all work ethic.
Did this mean he was weak? That he wasn't a good person? This child after all was his, his DNA. And he didn't want it? What does that mean? Now that he thought about it, he didn't really not want it. In fact he always wanted a kid to play around with. So why was he so against the idea? All he had were excuses, some were logical. But to kill a living being? What's a good excuse for that? Now he began to understand why Mitsuki left.