I found Draco, I mean Malfoy, at his room kicking his bed. He was obviously mad. His school stuff was scattered all across his room.
„Go away!" he shouted at me.
„What's wrong?" I was worried about him. This was the first time I saw him like this.
„Just go away! Leave me alone for one second that's all I ask! Is that too much to ask?" he was furious.
„I've been watched all the time. Just for once I want to be alone", Malfoy was wispering now and that scared me more than his anger.
„I can't leave you", I wispered back. „I'm sorry."
That was the truth. I could not leave him. I wanted to give him his alone time, but I needed to wake up for that and I went to sleep just now. The sleeping potions activity will end about 5 a.m. I had to stay. I wished so bad for Lavander to wake me up ,but that was a fools hope. To give him some privacy I turned invisible. That much I could do.
After an hour or so he finaly spoke.
„You can show your self now".
And I did.
„What's going on?" I truly wanted to know, so I could help him.
He said nothing and for a moment I was scared that he will start to shout once more.
„Fine. If you don't want to talk about it..."
„My mother's sick. And Dumbledore wants me to stay here. I mean she could die but I'm not allowed to see her for my own good," he placed his head in to his arms.
„I'm sorry", that was all I could say.
„You know you were a lot funnier when you tried to strangle me", he spat. „I don't need your sympathy."
„I think you do Draco".
For the first time in my life I said his name out loud. He just stared at me in disbelieve . I panicked and turned invisible again to hide my shame. I was Hermione Granger. And Hermione Granger must call him Malfoy.
„Don't hide", he wispered.
„I think your right. I do need you sympathy."
And I saw that scared boy again. Only this time he was scared for his mothers life not his own. For weeks I thought about him as two people. First as arrogant bastard he was in class and second, the boy in my dreams. They were so different. Malfoy in my dreams was scared and lonely.
„Please", he begged and I returned to my misty form.
„Do you want to talk about this?" I asked. „About your mother?"
„No. I just don't like to feel so weak. I mean I know I can't help her by showing up in were Death eaters are lining up to catch me but I want to see her so bad."
And then I realized that I can help him. It almost made me jump from joy.
„Malfoy..."
„What happened to Draco?" he smiled.
„Draco," I smiled too.
„Use your dreams."
„Of course! You're brilliant Granger!"
„Granger?"
„Oh don't push this too far!"
I pouted. He seamed not to notice that.
„You must know the potion and spell by heart right now. You are using them for months. What should I do?"
The thought that I'm breaking all the rules never crossed my mind. I wanted to help him so bad.
„Hmmm .... You need some ingredients for the potion. I could give them to you tomorrow at class. Can you wait till tomorrow?"
„Do I have a choice?"
„Well.... no."
„Ok. I can wait. It's better than nothing."
Malfoy relaxed and went to bed. When he fell asleep I could not controle myself and walked to stand beside his bed to look at him. He looked so peacfull when he slept. One strand of his blond hair lay across his forhead and I wanted to touch it. For the moment my hand reached towards him but I found the strenght to pull it back.
Did I like him? Did I? I think I did. Then I thought about my boyfriend. Oh yeah, I had one, his name was Ronald Weasley. How could I do this to him? I mentally slaped my self. I was in love in Draco Malfoy. There was no way to deny it. My heart would break if I lose him. Then I thought about Ron and I knew my heart would break if I lose him too. So there was only one explanation. I loved them both. Oh, how cliche Granger! You know you can't have them both! Great, now I was talking to myself.
Next day I sliped the ingredients for potion in to Malfoys bag. Nobody noticed. He did not look at me but shook his head a bit as to say thanx.
I was nervous all day and could not wait for classes to pass. As they did I run up to my room and went to bed immediately.
Malfoy... Draco... Oh who cares. He was waiting for me already.
„That was fast", he smiled at me and my heart melted. How stupid.
We made the potion together and he lay down in bed.
„Thank you", he said it like he meant it.
„You can thank me later. Just go!"
Only then the thought of me being expelled for this crossed my mind. But the damn boy smiled again and that thought vanished.
He fell asleep pretty quickly. And I had to stay here, in his room, with his motionless body.
I think that two hours passed when I could not take it anymore and started to call out his name to wake him up. I had to scream from the top of my lungs untill he finally came back.
The moment his eyes flung open he jumped of his bed and tried to hug me. Only his arms went straight throug me.
„Damn it!" he said and I giggled.
Then he slowly drew nearer his head to mine and put his lips to mine. It was not a real kiss but it felt like real to me, in my head.
„Did you felt it?" he asked me with a little hope in his eyes.
I did not felt it. I could not. My voice broke and all I could mumble was:
„I'm sorry".