"Hey. I'm sorry I wasn't here for a long time." Haley sighed. "I really wanted to come but dad wouldn't let me. But here I am. Two years later. I'm so happy to be back I missed my friends especially Brooke she always makes me laugh. Did you know that she has a brother? Probably not. His name is Nathan. I met him yesterday. Actually it was really funny although embarrassing as well. He is really nice. I really miss our conversations mom. I really miss you."
At this point a sob escape Haley's throat. "I really need you mom." Haley wasn't able to control her tears. She laid down her mother's grave, hugging her knees to her chest and the tears were rolling down her cheeks out of control.
"Mom, why did you have to leave me? Leave me alone with dad. He doesn't even talk about you. Hell he only mentions soccer towards me. And I don't want to be a burden for Lucas and Karen."
Half an hour later Haley got everything of her chest and was now on her way to leave. Even if she wasn't with her, Haley still got the feeling that her mother was listening to her. She laid a kiss on the gravestone and promised.
"I will be back as soon as I can. I love you."
Then, Haley sat in her car for a minute trying to relax as her phone rang. She looked at the id and smiled.
"Hey tigger." Her voice sounded raspy so she cleared her throat. "I'm on my way back."
"No problem. I just wanted to tell you that we're at the supermarket and we'll be back in 20 minutes."
"Okay, bye"
"How did she sound?" Lucas asked curiously. The five were still sitting in the car so everybody listened.
"Not so good. I think she was crying. But she tried to hide it." Lucas sighed
"She can't keep on doing this. It's killing her."
"She still blames herself." Peyton chipped in.
"Okay just out of curiosity but why is she blaming herself?" Nathan wanted to know. He also wanted to know where she went but he didn't want to be too pushy. He looked at Brooke hopefully.
However, Brooke wasn't so sure to tell him. It was Haley's story to tell but Brooke saw the way Nathan was looking at her. He rarely looked at a girl like that. Actually, he had never looked at a girl like that. Brooke hadn't seen this look at him at all in the years he was living with her. She wasn't sure what this look meant but she was determined to find it out. Then, she watched Lucas who comforted her to tell him about Haley. "Haley's life isn't as great as some people might think. Sure, her father is rich and she can buy everything she wants though Haley doesn't like to spend her father's money. She used to wait tables at Karen's Café. But everything changed 3 years ago. Haley's life went downhill. She just became 15 years old a week before it happened. Haley had soccer practice this afternoon and because she still wasn't 16 she used to go by bus. However, her mom had called her that she would pick her up because she wanted to tell Haley something which couldn't wait. At the end of Haley's practice her mother wasn't there yet so she begun to walk towards her. Her phone had started to ring and she answered her mother. Haley had already seen her at the stop light and told her where she was. They hung up on each other and the stop light turned green. Just as Haley's mother drove a car speeded along the street and…" Brooke took a deep breath at the edge of tears."…crashed into her mother's car. The impact was so hard that the car overturned several times until it came to a stop. Haley's mother Lydia was dead instantly. The other car just drove away as if nothing had happened. And as if it wasn't bad enough Haley saw everything. She didn't speak for about four weeks. She just looked herself in her room and listened to music. She barely had eaten. She couldn't even sleep she just laid there motionless. A week later, in the middle of the night I woke up because someone was knocking at the door. I opened the door and there was Haley. Her eyes were red and puffy. Her clothes were drenched from the rain. She cried the whole night. Not until the next morning she had told me that her mother had been pregnant and she wanted to pick her up to tell her that she would have become a big sister. Haley started to blame herself. Then Haley was getting better she went to school again and even to the soccer practices. One month before she turned sixteen Dan send her to Europe without even asking her."
Silence was in the car. "How can such a lovely person endure so much?" Nathan wondered. "Why did her father send her away?" Nathan asked.
"Well, let's see. He never really cared about her. He just wants her to be his perfect daughter. Being the best in everything. So he sent her away to this boarding school for sports. At the beginning Haley called everyday or wrote emails whishing she could be here with us. Sometime later her calls weren't that often anymore. She was always busy or too tired to talk. One time she even fell asleep when I was talking to her.
Dan had called the school to get his point across that she wasn't allowed to leave the campus because she should focus on school and soccer."
"Man, I feel sorry for her." Nathan exclaimed.
"Yeah, we all are." Peyton sighed. "But she's strong our Haley."
They went into the supermarket and bought everything they thought they would need.
In the meantime Haley had finished her shower and put on some black sweatpants and a green t-shirt. She looked in the mirror to see that her eyes were still a little bit red but not so much anymore.
Then she closed the bathroom and went into her room and grabbed her iPod to kill time. Haley listened to "A view from Heaven" which seems to fit her situation perfectly.
I'm just so tired
Won't you sing me to sleep
And fly through my dreams
So I can hitch a ride with you tonight
And get away from this place
Have a new name and face
I just ain't the same without you in my life
Late night drives, all alone in my car
I can't help but start
Singing lines from all our favorite songs
And melodies in the air
Singin' life just ain't fair
Sometimes I still just can't believe you're gone
And I'm sure the view from heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in heaven,
Maybe we'll make it through one more year
Down here
Feel your fire,
When its cold in my heart
And things sorta start
Remindin' me of my last night with you
I only need one more day
Just one more chance to say
I wish that I had gone up with you too
And I'm sure the view from heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in heaven
Maybe we'll make it through one more year
Down here
You won't be comin' back
And I didn't get to say goodbye (goodbye)
I really wish I got to say goodbye
And I'm sure the view from heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in heaven
Maybe we'll make it through one more year
I hope that all is well in heaven (well in heaven)
Cuz it's all shot to hell down here (we need you)
I hope that I find you in heaven
Cuz I'm so...
Lost without you down here
You won't be coming back
And I didn't get to say goodbye (goodbye)
I really wish I got to say gooooodbye
When her iPod switched to the next song Haley went outside to keep up her ball. In between she begun to sway her hips and started to dance along the music not noticing that her friends were arriving.
All the lights go down as I crawl into the spaces
If I died on the screens
Life tearing at the seams
Way-yay-yay-yay-yay
I don't ever wanna be here
Like punching in a dream breathing life into the nightmare
At this point she kicked her ball away and did some back handsprings and danced to the music full of emotion almost fearless.
If it falls apart I would surely wake it
Bright lights turn me clean
This is worse than it seems
Way-yay-yay-yay-yay
I don't ever wanna be here
Like punching in a dream breathing life into my nightmare
They'll get through
They'll get you
In the place that you feel it the most
When you're cornered
When it's forming
In the place that you wish was a ghost
Way-yay-yay-yay-yay
I don't ever wanna be here
Like punching in a dream breathing life into the nightmare
Way-yay-yay-yay-yay
I don't ever wanna be here
Like punching in a dream breathing life into my nightmare
Haley stopped her music and wondered where the hell her friends where. Suddenly she was jolted out of her thought by a really high-pitched voice. "Oh my gosh. You are so joining the cheer squad." Brooke screamed and Peyton nodded.
"Holy crap, Brooke did you need to fucking scare me?" Haley held her hand to her chest and tried to stop the blushing which appeared on her face because she was embarrassed that her friends had seen her.
"But seriously how long did you stand here?" Everyone chuckled except Haley.
"The first time you screamed way,yay,yay,yay" Nathan answered.
"Damn, you weren't supposed to see this. I never danced in front of someone. This is so awkward."
"Are you serious?" Peyton complained.
"Goldilocks is right you always said that you couldn't dance. You were totally lying to us."
"What? No, I cannot dance." Haley replied.
"If you say so but I think you were really good." Jake uttered.
Haley tried to change the subject. "So what did you all buy?"
Half an hour after discussing what they were supposed to watch they sat in front of the TV. They decided to watch Fast&Furious 5. Lucas and Brooke shared the love seat. Peyton and Jake laid upon blankets and pillows which were scattered on the floor which left Nathan and Haley on the couch. It was already dark outside so Haley offered them to stay and they watch a second movie.
Through the movie everyone felt asleep. Haley was snuggled against Nathan's chest with his arms holding her so that she wouldn't fall off the couch. Neither of them realized the state they were in they just enjoyed the pleased sleep which they didn't have for a long time.
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