everyday since i got back now, valek has asked me if i could tell him what happened. i want to tell him, i just dont know how he would take it, if he would be mad at me or if he would feel sorry for me. i will tell him soon, maybe even today. i just can't predict his reaction.

"valek?" i called, opening the door to his suite.

"yes opal, you can come in" he said.

i was so amazed at how untidy his things was, yet he didn't mind. books piles scattered the floor, and black rocks and debris cluttered the reamining space. i noticed valek led on his couch, just laying there with his eyes closed. he looked peacful, decided to leave but he asked me again. "are you going to tell me what happened to you, opal?" he said not moving, his eyes still shut.

i moved towards him, he moved backwards on the couch making room for me to lay infront to tell him. valek wrapped his arm around me and i lost focus for a minute. i refocused and began to start.

"that night of the party, after i kissed jason i noticed you had left, i felt bad for upsetting you and i just needed some air. when i sat on my usaul spot in the cemtry i thought i was all alone, but i heard a cough and a guy appeared, thats when he grabbed me, the next thing i knew i woke up in a dirty black room. every two hours a diferent guy would come in and..." i paused, tears already filled my face and i don't know how long i could control them before i end up in a crying fit. i felt valek clutch my hand, indicating to carry on. "it would be a different guy each time, they would come in and do whatever they pleased to me. they beat me, the majority of them raped me, they tortured me. ugh i wanted to die, it's was painful and frightening and i wish never to hav anything like that happen to me agian, i wouldn't even wish it on my enemies." the tears came faster and i closed my eyes to try and calm myself.

"what did they want?"

"they wanted me to give up the most feared assassin in ixia. i would have laughed everytime they asked if it wasn't for the torture. i don't know any assassins, i tried to tell them, but the beatings became harder."

"i see, but it appears you do know an assassin. would you have given me up to stop the torture?" valek asked. i just stared at him dumbly.

"it's true? you are an assassin. why didn't you tell me before?"

"for the reason you just described, if they had any longer with you, torturing you. you coud give in and tell them exactly what they want to know."

"and you don't trust that i won't keep that information to myself? we're friends valek, i thought we told everything to one another?"

"its too high of a risk. i was trying to protect you."

"more like protect yourself."

"if you see it that way then i am sorry, but that was not my intention, opal."

"i don't get it, i thought i knew you, i thought you trusted me." i got up of the couch and sat on valeks desk chair, he only lets me sit there.

"opal i trust you with my life, but just think if you had told them, they would have killed you anyway. you see, your alive becuase you did'nt know."

"no im alive, becuase i survived there torture. if i was weak i would have died, but the thought of seeing you and my father again gave me motivation and the strenght to stay strong. in the future don't do me any favours" valek walked up to me and pulled me out of his chair, he then sat down and then pulled me on his lap, i curled up.

"i know your strong. i am sorry i had doubted you. i just worry about you, those were the worst months of my life, i felt powerless."

"you are too protective, mr icefaren." i joked.

"can you blame me?"

"no"

"valek?"

"yes"

"who do you kill?" i looked up at him.

"who do i kill? well i never kill innocent poeple, only criminals and magicains."

"i supose thats not so bad." i said.

"it could be worse."

"what? you would kill me?" i asked intrigued, but i had a feeling i knew the answer.

"just don't do any thing illegal. i would never hurt you intentionally opal." he said.

"you are already hurting me now. not telling me who you really are until now, saying that no matter what, you would kill me if i did something bad, which i would never do. do i have to act like im afraid of you now?"

valek's face hardened, suppose i should get used to the face of a killer. "it's your choice." valek got up placing me back into the chair, he turned to leave but i stopped him.

"im not afraid of you." the truth, valek doesn't scare me. what scares me is that he could be a whole different person and i will soon lose him. as quick as lighting valek grabbed me by the neck, twisted my body around and held a knife to my throat. it happened so fast, not frightening it's more like exciting. "go on then, kill me." i prodded him, why was i teasing a killer? the fear never entered my body, the adrenalin pulsed through my veins. he pressed the knife harder on my skin without making a mark.

"never." he whispered into my ear. valek let me go and i stood there starring at him, smiling like an idiot. the confusion was evident on his face, he had no idea what he just said had he? "why are you smiling."

"im smiling becuase that felt reckless but fun. the fact that you could have killed me there gave me goosebumps and..."

"and your heart rate increased? desire filled your being? adrenenlin?" valek finished for me.

"yes, what does that mean?"

"those were the exact same symtoms i had when the first time someone held me like that and pointed a knife to my throat. but that can't be."

"its impossible" i replyed. "so that means im a..."

"KILLER" we both said in unison.

my hands shook, my head spun, i reached for the arm of the chair but missed and fell. staying put, i stared into valeks eyes. "what does this mean?"

"training." valek grinned.