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A/N: Hello again! First off, I would like to thank 'Rile E. Coyote' for pointing out a couple major flaws in my first chapter of this story. I would also like to thank all y readers for taking their time and reviewing this story. I hope that you all find the future chapters to your liking. Now then, let's all get on with the show.
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Final Desire
Chapter 04 -X- Fear of reality…
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Natsuki's eyes slowly fluttered open as she grumbled. The girl looked around and saw she was on her couch. "What… Happened last night?" Natsuki asked as she ran her hand across her face. The girl looked up at the clock on the wall. It read '11:34 AM'.
"Oh… My head… Why is the silence so damn loud…?" The girl said, quickly resting her face in the palms of her hands. Natsuki was experiencing the worst hangover in her entire life. "Gah…" Natsuki slowly got off of the couch and limply made her way over to her bathroom. After finishing her business, she walked back out into her living room and sat down in her couch.
Her head hung low as she gazed at the floor. Her chest was beginning to act up, but it wasn't to bad that she had to take those painkillers. She tried desperately to recall the events that took place the other day. Everything was fuzzy. "I feel like I kicked a puppy for some reason…" Natsuki said as she calmly laid back into the couch.
Her head reasted on the back of the couch as her hair gracefully hung down it. "What was it… I was talking to someone." Suddenly, the image of Shizuru popped into her head. Her eyes quickly opened. "Oh… DAMNIT!" Natsuki aggressively slammed her head into the palms of her hands.
"I can't believe… Why did I…?" Natsuki lifted her head out of her hands. "Why did I say that to her?" The girl thought as she glared at her hands.
Natsuki looked over at her cell phone that laid on her coffee table. "Huh?… Wasn't that in the bedroom?" Natsuki reached over and flipped the phone open. The display screen read 'Seventeen missed calls'. Natsuki clicked the 'OK' button and progressed to the missed calls section of her phone.
The caller I.D. was Shizuru's. Natsuki just looked at the display screen with a soulless stare. That feeling returned. The feeling of helplessness, the feeling of fear. Everything.
Suddenly, the events of the night before flashed in her head. It explained why her phone ended up on her coffee table when it was supposed to be in her bedroom. "So… That's how it was, huh?" Natsuki slumped as she looked helplessly at the phone.
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"Gah… What the hell… -Hick-, Does that bitch know?…" Natsuki walked into her dark apartment. She reached over to the wall and hit the light switch. The girl was drunk. "I'm perfectly fine… Nothing wrong here, Perfectly -hick- fine…" Natsuki swayed left and right as she made her way to her couch.
"Bah… What the hell do they know… I feel fine… -hick-" Natsuki said as she plopped down onto her couch. She rested her chin on the arm of the couch. "I can't die. I'm -hick- way to young. That makes sense, right. -hick-"
The girl then began laughing hysterically, followed by soft sobs. Soon, the girl began to break into tears. Natsuki curled into the fetal position. "Why is it suddenly so cold?" The girl asked as she wiped away the tears.
The girl could hear ringing in the background. "Gah… What now?" Natsuki asked as she got up off the couch. The ringing was coming from her bedroom.
Natsuki stumbled into her bedroom and looked around. It was to dark to see anything, but she saw a light flashing. The source of the ringing was coming from that small light. The girl walked over and reached for the light.
Natsuki felt something hit her hand as she reached for the light, then heard a shattering noise. The girl looked over and saw something that looked like shards of a lamp. "Bah." Natsuki took the thing and stumbled back into her living room.
Raising the object up to her face, the girl saw that it was her cell phone. The girl made an effort to flip the thing open. Each time she tried, the top half of the phone seemed to slip out of her grip. "Grr… Damn… you… BAKA!" Natuski threw the phone on the ground, causing the top half of the phone to open up.
"Ha! Take that… You -hick-… Something…" Natsuki reached down and picked up the phone. The caller I.D. read 'Fujino Shizuru'. Natsuki glared at the phone, then answered the call. "Hello? Natsuki?" The girl heard on the other side of the line.
"Sorry. You've got the wrong number lady. hick" Natsuki replied. "Natsuki? Are you okay?"
"Oh, I'm just PEACHY!" The girl yelled into the phone. "While you sit in your -hick- tooty-fruity little house of miracles, I'm standing here, infected with the most pain in the ass bug that ever -hick- existed." Natsuki stumbled backwards.
"Natsuki!? You're drunk!" Shizuru said with a shocked tone. "You're damn right I'm drunk! And let me tell you somethin'… I'm pretty damn sure… I'm about… to…" Natsuki made a drunken dash to her bathroom, and bent over her toilet. Shizuru could hear sounds of gagging and coughing on the other end of the line.
After Natsuki finished, she reached over for the phone that she dropped next to the toilet. "Well then… Where -hick0 were we?" Natsuki asked as she flushed the toilet. "Why Natsuki? I… Can't believe that you would actually resort to this kind of treatment."
"Listen, woman. -hick- Until you get the lord of the flu, don't you dare -hick- talk to me about what find to be a perfect solution. So, bug off!" Natsuki hung up and closed her cell phone. "Whiny little…" Natsuki walked out of the bathroom and back to her couch. She dropped the phone onto her coffee table and rested on her couch.
The girl cuddled with her pillow in the fetal position and began crying. "Why… I don't understand. Why does it have to be me? Always me…" Natsuki's tears began to stain her throw pillow. "Ever since my mom… My dog… Now me. It's like… -hick- like someone's out to get me…" The girl thought.
Her cell phone went off again and again. Shizuru's attempts at reaching the girl were in vain. "Please… Just stop. I don't want to do this anymore…" The girl buried her head into the pillow. She could hear laughter in the background. The pain in her chest reappeared. Every time she took a breathe, it would intensify.
"Please! Someone make it stop!" The girl thought as she continued crying into her pillow.
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Natsuki looked up at the ceiling of her apartment. Nothing could help her now. Her destiny was to die at a very young age from the beginning, but she didn't want to believe it. Natsuki just curled back up onto the couch.
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"So, as seen here, during the Edo period…" A man wearing gray pants, white shirt and brown overcoat said as he read from a book and pointed towards a blackboard. Shizuru sat in a chair on the third row of a university class room. The course was on ancient Japanese literature.
Shizuru impatiently waited as the clock ticked by. Once the class was over, she decided that she would take the next class off and check up on Natsuki. "Come on… Hurry, please." The woman thought as she continued to watch the clock on the wall.
"Fujino-san? Am I boring you?" The teacher asked as he gave the woman an irritated look. "Uh… Oh, no. I'm sorry. Please, do continue." Shizuru said as she apologetically held her hands together in a prayer like fashion. The teacher just sighed and continued with his lecture. "As I was saying…"
To Shizuru's luck, the bell finally rang. "Ah. There goes the lunch rush. Okay students! I would like for you all to review on everything we have learned this week."
The entire class, besides Shizuru, gave out a loud groan of disappointment. Shizuru simply gathered her things and made her way out of the door. "Oh, Fujino-san!" The teacher yelled right before Shizuru could turn around the corner of the door.
"Hai, Sensei?" Shizuru asked as she whipped around. "I'm going to need your paper by tomorrow." The teacher said as he fiddled around with a stack of papers on his desk. "Oh, about that, do you think you could possibly give me a few more days? I have… Some issues right now." Shizuru said as she began to take off. She didn't have enough time to stay and talk.
"Wait! Fujino-san!" The teacher yelled as he ran out into the hallway. Shizuru was already out of sight.
The woman quickly got out of the large building, ran out into the parking lot, threw all of her things in the side seat of her car, then started it up. Shizuru tried multiple times to get in contact with Natsuki the other day after she disappeared. The conversation she had with her last night worried her greatly.
"Hang on, Natsuki! I'm coming!" The woman thought as she took off.
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The light begins to show, yet some cannot see. Those who are consumed by fear are shackled into the endless abyss of ignorance. How must one unlock these shackles if the key cannot.
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Natsuki laid on her couch as the time slowly passed. The flaming pain in her chest had increased. She couldn't even get up. "Someone… Make it stop!" Natsuki thought as she bit down onto the pillow.
Suddenly, there was a frantic knocking on her front door. Natsuki looked over at the clock on her wall. It read '12:27 PM'. It was to soon for the mailman to be arriving. "I wonder…"
Natsuki used all of her force to lift herself off of the couch. "Coming… cough" Natsuki said as she opened the door. "Natsuki!" Shizuru leaped and quickly wrapped her arms around Natsuki. "Ah… Shizuru! What are you doing here?" Natsuki asked as she tried to pry the woman off of her, but her efforts failed.
"Where were you? Where did you go!?" Shizuru asked as she broke off of the other girl. Natsuki just looked away. "You ran off, got drunk… Only god knows what you could have done to yourself! Do you know how much you worried me!" Natsuki turned and began to walk away. "Natsuki!" Shizuru yelled as she stomped her foot on the ground.
"Just leave me alone… I… Don't want to see you right now." Natsuki said as she continued to walk away. Shizuru quickly ran up behind her and grabbed her right arm. "Why do you keep avoiding me all the time!? Why won't you just…" Shizuru looked towards the ground.
"You already know why… Don't you!?" Natsuki yelled and tore her arm from the woman's grasp. Natsuki whipped around towards Shizuru. "You already know that I'm dieing… You should already know why I can't see you… I just…" Natsuki wrapped her arms around herself and slouched a little.
"I just… Don't know what to do…" The girl began to weep. Shizuru gently wrapped her arms around the poor girl and began stroking her head. "It's okay… I know. I'm here. So please, don't-… Don't avoid me any longer." Shizuru began to sob.
Natsuki gave in and began heavily crying as she melted into her loves grasp. Shizuru slowly lead herself and Natsuki over towards the couch and laid down onto it. The feeling of emptiness cleared from Natsuki's conscience. The of the girls fell into a deep sleep in each others arms.
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The light has been recognized. The shackles have been undone. Yet the reality still stands. Will one ever find the final solution to the ultimate problem?
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A/N: Well, seems like things are starting to get a little brighter, eh? I thought of writing a yuri session for in this chapter, but then remembered it was rated T. Heh. So, I'm going to ask you all if you want me to go ahead, take the time and write out a yuri scene for this story. In all honesty, it really doesn't , matter to me. It's up to you, the reader. Anywho, I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. Hope you all are looking forward to the next one. See next time!