I'm back! I'm ignoring homework right now because it really got me frustrated, teachers.. they think we don't have lives. Anyways I'm really happy with your reviews, I showed them to my friend and she was hugging me every time I got one because I just got too excited.. is it weird? About the papa... well.. you will know very very soon, but not in this chapter jejej. The song in here is called "Something we call love" from Broken Heart College, they're Italian and I'm kind of obsessed with Italy or just learning about cultures. I hope you guys enjoy the next chapter, let your feelings show.
We were on our way home already. I was holding the picture of the sonogram; I couldn't stop looking at it.
"Katie, you still haven't answered. Who's the baby's dad? When did you even get pregnant?" My mom asked sounding a tad desperate.
"It was in my birthday." I said avoiding the other question.
"Yes honey, but who's the dad? He has to do his part too in this you know."
"Mom, he… I can't tell you who he is, or at least not right now." I said trying not to frown as much as I felt I could do at that moment.
"But he has to be responsible…" I interrupted her. "That's just it mom. He wont step up, so there's no point on anyone knowing who he is."
"What? He told you that? Just wait til Kendall knows. He's going to want to kill him." She said obviously angry.
"Mom don't tell Kendall, or any of the guys, anyone for that matter. The only other person that knows I'm pregnant is Stephanie and I would like to keep it that way."
"Why not Katie? He's your brother, and he really cares about you. He deserves to know." My mom said while pulling in the driveway.
"I know that, but this is my life and my decision mom." I told her dryly.
"You have to tell him." She commanded.
"Well no!." I said while getting out of the car and slamming the door. She got out and started to quickly follow me.
"What are you doing huh? Come back here!" She said while I opened quickly the door and ran upstairs ignoring my mom and earning the glance of everybody.
When I got to my room I slammed my door, but knowing that everybody was going to ask mom what was going on I decided to eavesdrop, which was not that hard to do.
"Mom what's going on?" Figures, Kendall always had his nose in first. "She seems more upset than before she left."
"Look Kendall this is up to her to tell you." At least she respected my decision at the end, but she should've at least tried to keep it on the down-lo. "I'm going to go over to my friend Marissa's house in case you boys need anything but I'm sure you guys can handle yourselves and Katie." She said while walking out the door.
I locked my door and I turned the music up. I know why mom is upset, she always wanted for us to be open with each other about everything. But this is why I didn't even want to tell her, I know she is disappointed. I know she wanted a grandbaby but she also wanted me and Kendall happily married or with a steady person when that happened.
I started singing softly while listening to the song, remembering everything that happened.
I can't forget
The day you took my breath away
And I can't pretend
Tonight you're gonna stay yeah
I see you dead
In my dreams again
Inside my soul
There's something you can find, something you can
I had been longing for this for so long. He had always been my every thought since the very first moment. Now the moment that we could share something, anything at all, even if it was wrong had arrived.
She said that he's the one can't stay here
A mystery, A poetry
Something we don't know
He said she's the one can't sleep here
A mystery, A poetry
Something we collide
He couldn't stay there, somebody would know, he had to leave my room. He couldn't stay to sleep with me, he had to go back to his girlfriend.
Now here I stand
Staring at my empty bed (Staring at my empty bed)
So I close my eyes
I swear I'm trying to fly
I swear I'm trying to fly
Now hold me tight
And tell me how I'll be alright (And tell me how I'll be alright)
So take my hand
Tell me this is not the end
He had already left but I wished so bad to have him hold me through the night. It was my birthday, but everyone enjoyed the party except for me. That made it easy for him to sneak out, nobody was home yet.
She said that he's the one who can't stay here
A mystery, A poetry
Something we don't know oh
He said that she's the one who can't sleep here.
A mystery, A poetry.
Something we can know Oh.
I just wanna let you know (Yeah).
You'll always be deep inside of me.
I don't wanna let you go.
You'll always be in my dreams.
In my dreams.
She said that he's the one who can't stay here.
A mystery, A poetry.
Something we don't know.
He said that she's the one who can't sleep here.
A mystery, A poetry.
Something we can know.
Maybe something we could know.
Maybe something we can know.
Maybe something we could know
(Maybe something that we could know)
I kept listening to the last beats of the song and decided to turn it off. I realized it was making it worst and I couldn't do it to my baby. I loved the sound of it, knowing that soon I would have something of my own to love and someone who would love me unconditionally.
I was submerged in my thoughts when I heard a soft knock on the door…