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Chapter 4

It's been a couple of days now since Randy's been back and Lita still hasn't spoken to him since she left his house the first day he came back. Ryan and Kadie were getting to know him and she was happy he was finally in his kids lives, they disserve the opportunity to get to know their father. Randy's tried to talk to her but she just can't he hurt her too much she thought about reading the letters Ryan gave to her from Randy and as much as she wanted to read them she just couldn't.

Trish couldn't believe it when Lita asked her to go and see a lawyer with her about a divorce and to be honest it shocked Lita as well she never thought she'd ever go through with it not even when he was gone all these years. The lawyer explained due to his disappearance for all these years it will be a very quick divorce as he'd given up on the marriage years ago. Lita was glad it could go smoothly she didn't want to be put though any more heartache and as much as it kills her to be even thinking about divorce she knows she'll never be able to get over the pain if she's still legally his wife. She didn't know what would happen with their house she doubted he would take it from her and the kids but the lawyer insisted on her speaking to him about it.

When Lita got home from the lawyers Randy and Ryan where in the garage fixing up the Jeep her dad left to Ryan when he died. As much as hit hurt seeing Randy all the time she was happy Ryan was getting to know his father, she never expected them to get on after what happened but she knew how much having Randy around was good for Ryan, since her dad died he's not had a fatherly figure in his life.

"Hi mom, I've done my homework Randy's just helping me, did you know he's a mechanic" Ryan asked his mom as she got out of her car.

"Hi Ryan no I didn't, I'll just get diner started, your sister is staying at Trish's to help her with Jamie as Jeff's working away.

"Ok, mom can Randy stay for diner" Ryan asked hoping she said yes they'd been working for hours and he knew his parents needed to talk.

"Ryan, I'm sure your dad has places he needs to be" Lita said hoping Randy would tell Ryan he couldn't stay she really didn't want to be the bad person in this situation.

Randy knew this was hard on her him being around and he really didn't want to cores his wife pain by staying when he knew she didn't want him there but he knew it would hurt Ryan if he said no and went home he didn't really know what to say.

"Mom it's fine dad's not doing anything, please can he stay for diner I'll even wash up" Ryan said hoping she'd say yes.

"Ok, Randy if you would like to stay for diner, it's ok with me, I need to speak to you about something we can discuss it after we've eaten" Lita said as she went inside she knew it was going to be hard but he needed to hear it from her.

"Ok, thank you Lita for letting me be in my family's life" Randy said things were going better than he expected.

While Lita was cooking Maria popped in she couldn't believe Randy was at Lita's house she hasn't seen him in years, and when Trish told her he was back she nearly fainted so she had to see for herself.

"Hi Maria, what brings you over" Lita asked as she placed the diner in the oven.

"So Randy's back and he's here have you lost your mind, after what he did, I can't believe your letting him back in" Maria said shocked she wasn't expecting this.

"I'm not letting him back in he's here for the kids not me, and this is already hard for me I don't need the lecture" Lita sighed as she sat at the dinner table it's been a long emotional day.

"So you're not getting back together" Maria asked hoping she wasn't how could a man walk out on his family the way he did its unforgivable.

"I'm not getting back together with him, and I never will he hurt me too much" Lita said even though it killed her she knew things were over for good.

"Ok that's good because I've set you up on a date with this guy, he's just moved into the area and he's going through a divorce, I met him the other day he seems like a nice guy" Maria said as she sat across from Lita it was about time the red head started dating it's not normal to be single this long.

"Maria I'm not ready for that" Lita said not believing her and she knew Trish was part of this they've been trying to set her up for years.

"Oh your ready it's time to move on and don't worry about the kids Kadie will be at my house and Ryan is going with Matt to see Jeff in competition" Maria said knowing that would be the next excuse.

"I just can't, I've finally come to terms my marriage is over, I'm just not ready" Lita said she knew she couldn't date someone else she knew Randy still had her heart and she wasn't ready.

"Li. you'll never be ready I've already set it up he's going to meet you and Rosita's at 8pm, you can't cancel now he's knew to town, even if you feel no spark its time you start to move on, you can't hold on to Randy forever, what you had was fifteen years ago that's half your life ago it's time Lita" Maria said hoping she'd listen.

"Ok I'll go but once this is over no more I will move on in my own time and I'm making steps to move on, I've started the divorce proceedings which should go through fast" Lita said hoping that would stop Maria and he silly ideas. She knew one day she'll probably meet someone and want to date again but not right now.

"Hi Randy" Maria smirked knowing he heard what the red head said she hoped it hurt him as much as he's hurt her all these years.

"I, I'm just gonna go, I'll tell Ryan, I just have to go" Randy cried he couldn't believe Lita had filed for divorce this was the last thing he expected to hear. He couldn't blame her after what he did but divorce he never thought this would happen.

"Randy I'm sorry you wasn't supposed to find out like that, that's what I wanted to talk to you about" Lita said as she stopped him from leaving, she never meant to hurt him.

"It's, it's ok no need to apologise I did this to us not you, I'll be over in a couple of days Ryan is going to help me open the new garage, I'll try to stay out of your way" Randy said as he left he'd never felt so broken in all his life not even what he went though in Iraq hurt this bad he's lost the love of his life and he didn't know what to do anymore.

Lita couldn't believe what just happened she never wanted to hurt Randy and it killed her to see him in pain but she needed to move on and she can't do that while she's still his wife, she hoped things would get easier with time at least she hopes so.

"Hey Randy where you of too" Ryan asked as he saw his dad walk towards his car.

"I'm sorry Ryan I have to go, but I'll be over in a couple of days, you can come by my house whenever you want" Randy said as he go into his car he didn't want to hurt his son but he couldn't stay he was to broken.

"Ok are you sure your ok" Ryan asked he could tell something happened when he went into the house.

"I'll be ok take care of your mom she needs you" Randy said as he drove off.

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