Chapter 4: Blissful hurt

Beca woke up the next morning and stretched before she felt pain shoot up her side, causing her to flinch and place her hand over the bandages covering the wound. She suddenly noticed she was not alone in her bed as she felt the bed move as Chloe turned around to look at her with a worried look on her face. Andrew was also in the room, sitting up in his bed shirtless while holding up a brand new book. He was also giving her a worried look and Beca just let out a huff before standing up without using her left side at all.

She then noticed she was only wearing the same sweat pants as she had left the hospital in the day before and the sports bra. She knew Chloe had to have taken her t-shirt and hoodie off the night before but did not know how she had not awoken during the process since she had always been a light sleeper since her days in jail. She looked at the clock and saw it was 11am.

"How did I get in here last night and how the hell did you undress me without waking me up?" Beca asked as the Red head in her bed stood up as well.

"Andrew carried you from the car and I was very careful not to wake you. You were completely out of it though. I think you weren't fully recovered from the blood loss." Chloe said and Beca just gave her a small smile before grabbing a black dress shirt from her drawers and put it on with Chloes help. They had bella practice in an hour.

Though Beca wasn't sure she would be able to do much due to doctors orders and the watchful red head. Aubrey would probably be pissed off and yell at her but the brunette could not get herself to care. She would just use the time to do whatever she could do for the bellas and also help Andrew with his school work. Her father had brought him all of the school books and supplies that morning and had also given the boy an laptop. Beca didn't get why he was being so nice to Andrew but guessed it was to gain points with her.

All three of them headed to eat then and then went to practice, them taking Andrew along so Beca wouldn't try to choke Aubrey. Or even more likely, Aubrey would not get close enough to Beca to choke her for getting shot. When they arrived they saw all of the other bella's already there. She saw them give Andrew an odd look and Aubrey already had this bitchy look on her face which told her that she had heard about the shooting.

"This is a bella's practice, what the hell is that boy doing here?" Aubrey asked and Andrew just gave the blond a charming smile as Beca sighed and took a seat on a nearby chair and Andrew stood behind her.

"He's my best friend, not a treblemaker and here to keep me safe and also to make sure I don't do anything reckless or stupid." Beca replied and the blond glared at her before Chloe stepped up and hugged the blond.

"Beca got shot yesterday in case you hadn't heard. She can't do much more than learn the songs and the easier parts of the choreography for awhile. I will be helping her out with that and also will get her up to speed when she has healed." Chloe said and Aubrey rolled her eyes before turning to Beca with a glare once more.

"Everyone has heard about the shooting. Figures that you would bring violence to a school that has never had any issues like this. You even shot someone, I should really kick you off the team since you will obviously tarnish our name by being on it." Aubrey said and Beca could see the panic on everyone's face, including Chloes.

"Yeah. I guess trouble follows me. If you want me off the team then say so Aubrey, I'm honestly sick of how you act. And its pitiful how you are trying so hard to remove the shame from your name that you gained last year when you threw up in front of everyone by having us use the same ancient shit you used last year. I can guarantee that you will not get past semi-finals unless you change the songs." Beca said, Chloe covered her mouth and everyone seemed to be holding their breath in as Aubrey looked ready to kill her.

The blond suddenly rushed forward, slapping the brunette whom stood up and made to lunge at the blond before she felt Andrew wrap his arms around her, restraining her but being careful not to hurt her as Amy and Cynthia came over as well to restrain her. Aubrey was being restrained by Chloe but it was obvious the red head was having a hard time doing so.

"SHE FUCKING SLAPPED ME ANDREW! NO ONE SLAPS ME AND GETS AWAY WITH IT!LET ME AT HER! " Beca yelled as she struggled to get free and saw the other Bella's help Chloe restrain Aubrey and the red head walked over to where they were once Aubrey was being calmed down by the other girls.

"Beca, calm down please." Andrew said, grunting as she elbowed him in the stomach but did not let her go. Chloe then came to a stop in front of Beca who just glared over her shoulder at Aubrey before the red head forced her to look at her instead and leaned in, pressing their foreheads together and kissed the tip of her nose teasingly. When Andrew noticed Beca had calmed he let go and gave Chloe a smirk.

"Now that everyone is calm can we discuss this like adults?" Chloe asked and Aubrey started glaring again.

"I'm not changing songs." Aubrey said and Beca scowled and crossed her arms over her chest as Chloe turned to look at her.

"I kind of agree with Beca. The songs will not get us far in the competition." Cynthia said and Beca saw the rest of the group agreeing with her as well.

"I carry the pitch pipe, I decide the songs." Aubrey said, sounding like a spoiled brat and Beca saw irritation flash through Chloe's eyes before they just showed defeat. Beca then realized the red head had tried to argue with the blond many times to no avail.

"Fine. Have it your way. Not like I'm gonna be humiliated when you lose face because people are bored of you." Beca said after awhile, knowing Aubrey would never give in. She then took a seat again as the blond woman started barking orders while Beca sat back with Andrew and helped him with the school work he had missed in the month that had gone by since school started.

They kept joking around though so it was going slow but they enjoyed just being able to relax like this together, there was always the risk of you getting killed any time of the day when they had been in the gang. Beca noticed Aubrey shooting her glares all throughout practice.

Beca started to feel hot so she took her shirt off with Andrews help and she heard people gasping and looked up and saw them staring at the bandages around her stomach area. She looked down and saw the bandage was bleeding through so she sighed before rummaging through her bag for bandages she had brought with her and stood up before Chloe ran over to check on her.

The red head started unwrapping the bandages until the wound came into light and Beca saw the stitches were still whole but the wound had started bleeding again due to her having struggled so hard against the people holding her back from killing Aubrey. Chloe went to the nearest bathroom and brought out some wet paper-towels and cleaned the wound to the best of her ability before taking the new bandages and wrapped around her stomach once more.

The whole time she looked worried as hell for the brunette,who just stood there looking casual as hell. Aubrey was almost looking guilty at the scene in front of her and Beca just glared at the blond who then glared back. Chloe then stood up straight and was about to head back to practice when Beca suddenly wrapped her arms around her in a hug.

"I'm sorry." Beca said and the red head just looked at her before smiling and nodded before kissing the tip of her nose and then went back to practice and Beca just sat back down and kept helping Andrew. Occasionally sneaking glances at the red head who sometimes met her eyes with a smile. 3 hours later practice was over and the girls all decided to head out for some food. Andrew tagged along.

The bellas went to the normal pizza place but sat in the area where they would have a waiter bringing them pizza. They were waiting for the waiters to have finished clearing three tables and putting them together. After a few moments of Beca and Andrew goofing off the bella's turned to Chloe who was watching them with a smile.

-Chloe's pov-

"So. How long have you two been together?" Cynthia asked and Chloe looked at the african american with surprise on her face.

"We aren't together." Chloe said and Cynthia raised her eyebrow.

"Could have fooled me. She hasn't kept her eyes off you all day. And you have barely kept your eyes off her." Amy said and everyone in the group seemed to agree that they had seemed to be together.

"Chloe has better taste than that hoodlum." Aubrey said and Cynthia rolled her eyes, not hiding her irritation with the blond woman. Chloe had never felt as angry as she had that day with her best friend. She didn't know why but having Beca around seemed to be bringing out the worst in the blond.

"Beca is not a hoodlum Aubrey. And I do have feelings for her. I just don't know if she returns those feelings. So think before you speak Aubrey." Chloe hissed, shocking the blond whom wisely decided to shut up. Beca seemed to sense the tension around them and looked up from what she and Andrew were talking about. Looking between Aubrey and Chloe with a worried look and Chloe walked up to her.

"Hey. Everything alright?" Beca asked as the red head came to a stop in front of her. Chloe just smiled, it was kind of sweet how much Beca seemed to care about her.

"Yeah. Aubrey's just still being a little bitchy. I'll talk to her about it later. I think she's still sore about your comment about her trying to redeem herself by using the same old songs." Chloe replied and Beca just shook her head. A waiter then walked over to their group and told them to follow him. He led them to a table and then took their order and left once more. Chloe, Beca and Andrew took over one end of the table while Aubrey sat on the opposite end with Jessica and Denise. The other girls sat in between each end and they started just talking excitedly about anything that came into their mind.

Amy started telling them a crazy story about how she had wrestled with crocodiles and dingoes simultaneously. Andrew then told them how he had said goodbye to his old high school by stealing his teachers and principals underwear and throwing it all over the school. Beca chuckled since the boy had told her about it while she was in jail and she still thought it was funny. They had gone to the same school and the principal had always had it out for her the few times she was not in juvie.

"So Beca. How did you and Andrew meet anyway? You two seem like polar opposites and yet you guys get along splendidly." Amy asked after they got their pizzas and had started eating. Chloe noticed Beca and Andrew shooting each other an amused look which told her that this part at least was not painful for them to remember.

"Me and Andrew have known each other since preschool. We didn't get along at first. He kept teasing me about my small size, yes I was smaller than everyone even back then, and was always tugging at my hair or something else. This continued all throughout kindergarten but when we started first grade he was walking home one day he came across a group of older boys who were beating me up since I wouldn't give them my lunch money. He got angry and beat them all up with a nearby stick and then to make me feel better he offered me some of the sweets his mother had given him earlier that day. We have been friends ever since." Beca said and she heard some of the girls go 'aww' at that.

"So how did he get involved in the underworld?" Aubrey asked from her end and Andrew tensed as Beca closed her eyes.

"When Beca's parents split up she pushed everyone away and landed in bad company. She had been the most popular girl at school before that so it was easy for her to take the sharp turn. Everyone wanted to know her. She then started using drugs and eventually was recruited into the black knives. My dad had been a detective before he was shot in the line of duty and had told me about how disgusting that world was so I asked her to get me into the gang so I could watch over her. Something I failed miserably at, if I may say so." Andrew said, only saying what Beca allowed to be said about her past, and was bombarded with questions about what that meant by the Bella's. This caused Beca to open her eyes and the look in her eyes was steely and cold.

"Enough about the past. What happened, happened. There is no way to change what happened." Beca said firmly and everyone got the message and dropped the subject. They then continued eating and just talked about normal things like school and boys or in Cynthia's case girls.

Beca and Andrew stayed silent though and just ate their food. Beca sharing pizza with Chloe like always. The red head ate 3 slices before feeling full and the brunette finished the pizza with her permission.

"How about we Bella's all have a sleep over tonight? Try to bond and maybe Beca and Aubrey can learn to get along for once. We can get some booze and just have fun together." Chloe suggested when everyone was done eating. All of the Bella's agreed cheerfully except for Aubrey and Beca. The two girls staying silent while having a stare down.

"Sure. Why not. I will behave. And why don't we invite a few boys to make things interesting. For example Andrew." Aubrey said finally, looking at Beca in a challenging way. The brunette just rolled her eyes before looking at Chloe.

"Fine. I have nothing else to do. But red, can you help Andrew out with his math? I suck at it." Beca asked and Chloe smiled before nodding.

"And I will also invite Luke, Jesse and Tom." Aubrey said and Chloe knew the blond was plotting something.

"Go right ahead." Beca said before standing up and she paid for all of the food before leaving with Andrew. The other girls then also left and Chloe went to speak with Aubrey. When they arrived in their Apartment. The red head turned to her best friend.

"What are you plotting?" Chloe asked and the blond just turned around to look at her.

"Nothing. I'm just gonna have a party tonight like you suggested." Aubrey replied and the red head glared.

"By inviting a treble? And my former friend with benefits? And some boss of Beca?"

"And her child hood friend. It will be fun."

"Aubrey. I'm begging you to get along with Beca. We need her on the team. I don't get why you hate her so much."

"She's the one who hates me. Not the other way around."

"Look. I'm not going to be fighting with you. Just let it go alright? And don't stir up trouble between me and Beca. Please." Chloe said, looking into the blonds green eyes. Aubrey hesitated before nodding but still called the three boys and invited them to the auditorium for a party.

-Beca's pov-

Beca growled as she paced across hers and Andrew's dorm room while Andrew just sat on his bed watching her pace. She then started packing some stuff down for the night as there was a knock on the door. Andrew opened it and let her father in. He was holding a box in his hands.

"Beca. Since I'm scared that your past will continue haunting you I have something for you. I got you a gun permit and also got you a pistol carrying permit. They gave you an age exception like Andrew due to your past." Ethan said as he put the box on the bed before opening it. It had two black pistols and four boxes of ammunition and some black concealment shorts that she could keep the guns in along with a concealment tank top. There were also a pair of military knives in there. So obviously the man was worried for her.

"How? Don't I have to take a test or something?" Beca asked, feeling surprised since she had been told to kiss her gun permit chances goodbye.

"Officer Rodriguez pulled some strings. You had apparently shot out of a gun in a firing range and he got the test results that they had on you from them and had that evaluated. I want you to carry at least one of these with you at all times. And I know you have some military boots so you can keep the knives with you as well." Ethan said and Beca just blinked a few times before raising her eyebrow with a small smile on her face.

"Thanks dad... I'm sorry that you have to worry about me." Beca said and for once in her life went up to the man and gave him a hug. The man then left since he had to get home to Sheila. Beca then finished finding stuff for the night which included a sleeping bag. Beca then got Andrew to help her pull one pair of the concealment shorts on and placed a pistol in each slot before dressing into camo pants. She also took off the shirt with his help and got dressed into a black tank top and pulled her black leather jacket on over it. She then slipped one of the military knives into each boot and then they headed to buy Andrew a sleeping bag.

They ran into Chloe and Aubrey on the way as the two girls were buying booze for the night with Luke. Said man greeted her warmly and Beca just smiled at him before they headed into the nearest store that sold sleeping bags. Once they had one they went back to the dorm room and Andrew got his stuff ready. He then got dressed into camo pants, a concealment tank top and placed his pistols in each slot and a leather jacket just like her so they matched outside the concealment tank top.

By the time he was ready it was already past the time they were supposed to be there at so they headed out towards the auditorium. When they arrived everyone's eyes were on them and people were wondering why they matched.

Beca saw Chloe standing in a corner and was talking to the same dude that she had been making out with during hood night. She didn't look comfortable at all which gave Beca some feeling of relief before she was ambushed by Jesse.

"BECA! Hi." Jesse said loudly, sounding drunk and Beca just raised her eyebrow at the boy.

"Hi Jesse." Beca replied and then looked around the room, studying where each Bella was. She saw Stacie hitting on Luke who looked amused as always. Andrew walked over to where Chloe was standing with the boy from hood night and Beca wondered for a moment if the boy was interested in the red head.

"Do you maybe wanna go out on a date tomorrow?" Jesse asked, causing Beca's head to whip back to him in shock.

"I'm sorry Jesse but I'm a lesbian." Beca said kindly and the boy just smiled softly.

"Alright. Can't blame a boy for trying though right?" Jesse said and Beca just clapped him on the shoulder before promising that she would be his wing-man if he ever needed one.

She then headed over to where the drinks were kept and grabbed two beers before walking past Andrew and Chloe whom were now standing alone and threw one beer to Andrew who caught it easily and continued talking to the red head. Beca just walked up a few seat rows and sat down alone, drinking her beer and thinking about her feelings for the red head.

That was when they were all summoned by Aubrey to the floor where she had placed 14 chairs in a circle. Beca took a seat between Chloe and Andrew while Luke sat on Chloe's right making sure the dude from hood night had to sit somewhere else.

"So I was thinking we would have some fun and play truth or dare." Aubrey said and Beca scoffed before making a move to stand up but was pulled down by Andrew and Chloe. Everyone else agreed.

"So. Let us begin. Tom, Truth or dare." Aubrey said and Beca glared at the blond lightly, she had a bad feeling about this night.

"Truth." Tom said, looking at Chloe like she was a piece of meat. Beca reached behind herself and grabbed one of the pistols calmly.

"Tell us something few of us in this room know." Aubrey said and Beca was surprised at that she didn't just simply ask him straight out.

"I was until recently Chloe Beales fuck buddy." Tom said and Beca gripped the pistol tighter and she saw Andrew giving her a warning look. Tom then turned to Andrew and asked him truth or dare.

"Truth." Andrew replied, not looking away from Beca.

"Do you have feelings for Chloe?" Tom asked, actually looking curious and Beca knew it had to do with Andrew going over to them earlier.

"No." Andrew said simply before looking at Beca again and then smirking.

"Beca. Truth or dare."

"Dare." Beca replied and Andrews smirk grew bigger.

"I dare you to kiss Chloe." Andrew said and Beca looked at him like he was crazy before looking at Chloe who was glaring at Andrew so Beca just sighed before leaning in and pressing her lips to Chloes softly. The red head gave her a smile before Beca looked at Aubrey.

"Aubrey. Truth or dare." Beca said and the blond tensed.

"Dare." Aubrey said hesitantly causing the brunette to grin.

"I dare you to make out with Andrew." Beca said and the blond glared at her before doing just that.

Aubrey then turned to Amy and the Aussie chose dare so she was dared to give Beca a hug. The brunette saw how hesitant the Aussie was in doing just that so she just stood up and walked over to the girl and opened her arms wide, showing her it was alright. The Aussie hugged her tightly and Beca took her seat again. Everyone was giving her odd looks since people knew she hated hugs, only tolerating them from a certain red head, but she was not about to allow Aubrey to torment the Australian girl.

Amy then dared Cynthia to sing Low by flo rida. Cynthia had Stacie tell the truth about whether she had ever slept with a girl which was that she had once. Stacie dared Jesse to kiss Aubrey and Jesse then turned to Beca and dared her to play one of her mixes. She went to her bag and got out her laptop since she brought it with her everywhere and started looking through the list on her computer. Trying to choose.

In the end she choose a mix of go by the mcclain sisters and what are you waiting for by Nickelback. People seemed to like it and Beca just closed the laptop before asking Luke truth or dare.

"Dare" Luke replied looking at her with a challenging look on his face.

"I dare you to sing titanium." Beca said, smirking and the brit smiled at her with his eyebrow raised before asking her to play the song on her laptop but to cut out the singers voice. She did just that and Luke stood up before singing the song. Beca could see Chloe get exited beside her and hid her smirk.

After that Luke dared Aubrey to dance for them and Aubrey then turned to Chloe.

"Chlo, truth or dare?" Aubrey asked and Beca saw the red head hesitate.

"Dare."

"I dare you to make out with Tom." Aubrey said and Beca could feel the girl tense beside her as Tom walked over and started making out with her, making Beca feel a little jealous. After a minute the red head started trying to push him back but he didn't back off so Beca stood up and pushed him back roughly. The boy glared at her for that and it looked like for a moment that he would attack her. She just stared him down with her face completely blank. Eventually he sat back down and she took her seat as well.

Chloe took her hand and squeezed it in thanks and she just gave the red head a small smile. The game kept going like that for awhile, Beca and Aubrey trying to piss each other off by hitting their weak spots. Eventually they all went into just talking and drinking so Beca took a beer before heading outside to get some fresh air. That was exactly when Luke started playing some of her music and people started dancing.

She stood there just staring out into the night before she was joined by Andrew. Said boy just stood behind her and she could feel him stare at the back of her head.

"What do you need Andrew?" Beca asked, her voice sounding defeated so she resolved to put more steel into it next time she spoke.

"I know you have feelings for Chloe. What I don't get is why you don't act on them. It's obvious that she returns those feelings so why don't you ask her out?" Andrew said and Beca sighed before turning around to look at him.

"Because she deserves better. She deserves someone who hasn't done any of the shit I have done. She deserves someone whom isn't broken and hasn't sold their body for drugs." Beca replied and then felt the boy come up behind her and hug her.

"You should tell her all about your past and let her decide Beca. You don't have to walk this life alone just because of your past. You never wanted to sell your body, the boss forced you to. That is bound to mean something."

"And if she walks away? Do you realize how much that would destroy me?"

"What if she doesn't? You have to take chances sometimes Beca. She knows you have a hard past. And no doubt has heard about how drug addicts are from the news or from her dad. I think she cares enough to stay Becs..." Andrew replied and Beca sighed before seriously thinking about it.

"Fine Andrew. I'll talk to her." Beca replied and turned around before continuing. "but if she rejects me its on you."

Andrew just nodded and they then headed inside again. Beca stopped in the door when she saw Chloe making out with Tom. She felt someones eyes on her and saw Tom smirking into the kiss so she just backed out of the door and ran away. Ignoring everyone's call for her to come back.

-Chloe's pov-

Chloe kept pushing at Tom's chest but the boy was stronger than her. That was when she felt him be ripped away from her and saw Andrew punching him straight in the face. She then heard everyone call out for Beca to wait and looked to the door and saw the brunette run away.

"Chloe. If you care at all about Beca you will run after her." Andrew said before knocking Tom out and Chloe nodded before running after the brunette. She saw the brunette's back as she was running towards her dorm and Chloe gave chase, hoping to reach her before the brunette could lock her out of the dorm.

-Beca's pov-

"Beca! WAIT!"

Beca stopped running in shock at hearing Chloe call her name and turned around only to see the red head come to a stop in front of her. The red head looked surprised that she had stopped. Both of them were breathing hard.

"Let me explain. Please." Chloe said after they caught their breaths. Beca just stared at her so the red head apparently took that as a go ahead and continued. "Tom was forcing himself on me. I was not kissing him willingly. Andrew pulled him off since he wouldn't stop even when I was trying to push him away. I only have feelings for one person Beca. And that person is not Tom."

"Who is it?" Beca asked and Chloe looked at her like she was stupid.

"You. I have had feelings for you ever since I first saw you on at the activities fair. I didn't know what these feelings were until after hood night and I didn't think you returned them which is why I never said anything." Chloe said and Beca felt happy and yet worried.

"I also have feelings for you Chloe. But." Beca said before the red head could get too happy. "There are things in my past you have to know about before you decide you want to be with me."

"I figured as much. So where do you want to talk?" Chloe asked and Beca just motioned for her to follow and led the red head up to her dorm room. Chloe took a seat on Andrew's bed while Beca sat on her own bed and tried to get her thoughts in order before speaking.

"As you know then I started using drugs when I was 14 years old. I was recruited into the black knives and the boss had us run jobs. Sell drugs, beat someone up, rob someone. That sort of thing. But that was just the beginning. When I was 16 he had me drugged, I was barely conscious but I still remember what happened at first." Beca said before taking a break from her story since she could feel the memories trying to overwhelm her. She could hear Chloe draw in a sharp breath and knew the girl suspected what she was about to say.

"The boss started selling access to my body to clients. I thankfully don't remember much of the things they did to me but I became a shell of myself after that. Andrew tried to protect me everyday as this continued but the black fist kept him in check. One day me and this other girl named Danielle got sold to this rich business man. He choked her as he was raping her but before he could turn his attention to me I had killed him in revenge and escaped. The boss sent out people to find me and kill me and eventually the black fist found me. He beat me up and was about to kill me before I tripped him and then shot him using his own gun. The rest is history." Beca said, not daring to look up at the red head.

"I haven't acted on my feelings because I feel like you deserve someone better than that Chloe. Someone who hasn't been used over and over and hasn't done any of the shit I have done." Beca finished closing her eyes.

"Beca...open your eyes." Chloe said and Beca did so and saw the red head on her knees in front of her looking into her eyes.

"What these men did to you is disgusting and I hate them for it since they took something as beautiful as you and broke it. It is not your fault that this happened to you, it is their fault for taking the choice from you. I will not stop caring about you because of this and my feelings remain unchanged. I still want you to take me out on a date and all of that couple stuff. I knew you had a bad past when I fell for you and nothing you say is going to change how I feel." Chloe said and Beca could see it in the red heads eyes that she was telling the truth so she gave her a small smile.

"You are amazing. You know that?" Beca said quietly and the red head smiled before leaning in and kissing her lightly.

"Only with you. Now lets head back before they send out a search party for us." Chloe said and Beca just nodded before walking out to the auditorium, holding Chloes hand.

They walked in just as Andrew was about to come running to find them. When he saw them holding hands he smiled at them and headed inside the auditorium with them. Beca saw that Tom was nowhere to be seen and guessed Andrew had beaten him up so much he had left.

They spent the rest of the night drinking and talking and when they went to sleep Beca and Chloe connected their sleeping bags into one and cuddled in their sleep with the Bella's watching them with a smile. Even Aubrey had a small smile on her face, feeling happy for her best friend despite her thinking the red head could do better. Beca stared at the red head beside her for awhile after said girl had fallen asleep and couldn't believe her luck but eventually just leaned down, pressing a kiss to the girls forehead and then closing her eyes and falling asleep herself. Her guns being tucked away in her bag along with her knives.

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