Chapter 4

Mew's POV

The dance was really fancy but i was bored. There were no poles to dance on, not that Bex would let me do it if there were. The drinks were nice and people were happy. Bex was flirting with one guy, playfully not being serious. I saw Carezzo talking to Nicole but they were to afraid to dance. James said he wasnt going to show up until later.

"so can we have that dance now?" Lucas said and i jumped, he came up from behind me and startled me. He was wearing a suit and he looked good. I looked over and saw Nicole trying to fix Pat's tie it was sweet.

"I'm not sure..i cant do this to you." I pulled his arm off of my shoulder.

"It's only a friendly dance." He tried to pull me by my hand to where everyone else is. I pulled away. "No"

"Haven't you danced before?" He asked and put his hand on my waist.

"Yes i have." I sighed and put my arms around his neck. "I did Ballet"

"Oh." He laughed "So can you do it now?"

He made me laugh. "I can but you can't" He told me i was right and

we danced only for a few minutes. James had to come and ruin it.

To say the truth I dont hate him. I dont Love him. He is just..there now. I wish that what happend in the past can be forgotten, i wish i didn't go so far with him. But i did and now i have to live with the regret. I want him to be happy but i want him to stop this with me, just be friends and get over me. But i can't tell him that no matter how hard it try i cant tell him what he did to me. It was my fault, right? I invited the sex and stuff like that but i shouldnt have and now i know that. But does he know that what we did was wrong?

"Mew, what are you doing?" He interrupted. I pulled away from Lucas and let James take me to dance. Glancing over my shoulder i mouthed " I'm sorry" to Lucas. He simply nodded.

As I was dancing with James I noticed how Carezzo, Nicole and Lucas were being wallflowers. I always love those people, the wallflowers. I used to be one. I wanted to join their little garden but instead i stayed out in the light. They wouldn't want me in their garden; all i am is a wilted black-rose with thorns; no one would pick me and they deserve better. Nicole was wearing a pretty white dress and she looked like a Greek goddess. Finally the slow song ended and i instantly went to go find Lucas but he was gone. That sucked. So i went to Bex instead.

"Hey, I'm going to the rooftop to have some alone time." I said pulling her by the hip and she laughed.

"Ok mewy be safe." She punched my shoulder. I rolled my eyes. Mewy? The "y" at the end is highly unnecessary.

Lucas was up there waiting for me. He is so…cute in his ways, like a child. He is innocent. And my heart broke when I saw a tear on his cheek.

"Hey mew..." He said and I hugged him. We sat on the ground together and it was nice except for the fact that he was sad. I kissed his tear, and he smiled slightly then I used my hands to dry his cheeks.

"What's wrong il mia regazzo?" I asked gently.

"Earlier… I...I went up to James and began like yelling at him and we got into an argument and I did it in front of some people and he is mad because I ruined his potential friendships with them." He put his head on his knees "I'm a horrible person for doing that to someone."

I wasn't sure what to say I felt the urge to kiss him and take him to my room and cuddle with him but I knew that was out of the question I don't want to be a tease and lead him on since I know he likes me.

"You're not a horrible person at all you are the best person I have ever met." I said "Ti amo. I love you."

He finally smiled. We just sat there and it was nice. The clouds were coming in quickly and I could smell that a storm was coming, I love that smell it is nice and calming. But it wasn't long before the rain began to fall lightly at first, very lightly. So we walked back inside and went back to the dance to hang out. On our way down he showed me a spot where he and his friends hung out in the mornings before class and he invited me to join them. It was nice that they accepted me. When we got back to the dance James was flirting with a short girl. He better be over me if he is doing that if not he is screwed. Her face looked red and it wasn't blush. I did some ballet moves and took Lucas's hand and did some fancy dancing and then I realized that Bex and I could show off our dancing skills. I kissed Lucas's cheek quickly and said that I would show him that I can still dance. As I went over to my partner I noticed the other girls' dresses and realized how short and sexy mine was compared to theirs and I kind of felt bad about stealing their guys' attention.

"Hey Bexy" I said grabbing her thin arm "Let's show them how to dance!" We both had learned multiple types of dance and we knew how to do it together as partners.

And that is exactly what we did and it was fun.

We did it for a while but then her feet started hurting because of her shoes so I carried her off the dance floor and over to Nicole and Carezzo. I really wanted her to meet them.

After I introduced them I lectured Pat on confidence and how he needed to open up. Bex wanted to go to sleep so she left. I wasn't sure what to talk about and we all just leaned against the wall silently but it wasn't bad at all. Just being with them was fun.

But the fun had to end.

The night came to a close and we all went to bed.

"The angels dance like feathers float, they're here to see and to be seen,
The clock strikes two, the music slows and each one slowly dons their wings,
Once outside they all pair off and hand in hand they leave
But I'm still waiting, yeah, and I'm still waiting"