Chapter 4

Disarray made her way over to the docks. She was told in and e-mail earlier today that she was suppose to meet someone here and they were to take her over to the base. As she made her way out to the end of the dock, she noticed how peaceful it was. Just listening to the water hit the dock and shore, the wind blowing a calm breeze as the birds sang; then her mind began to wonder on what it would be like if she just ran away and gave up this life. Wondering what it would be like to be a normal teenage girl.

She shook her head of those thoughts real quick. Even if she tried, she knew that there was not going to be any normality in her life. Her whole life went from being normal to being a soldier in just a few minutes after her birth….

~~~~Past~~~~

"Hurry, we can still save her and the child!" A doctor with short brown hair started to scream at the paramedics to get the young woman into the room. "Someone call Jekkander and will someone please go get Doctor Page before we lose them both." He started barking orders to them when they weren't moving fast enough.

Once they got her in a room a room in the back, it was a busy full of people getting needles and tubes in the young expecting mother. When Dr. Page finally came to the back of the room, everything was in a rush. People running to and from the room, orders being given and blood lose.

After hours of people in the ER, Dr. Page finally made her way to the waiting room, where a one Doctor Jekkander was waiting. "Jekkander?" She asked.

A man with long hair that was starting to gray and small glasses on stood up and walked over to the Dr. Page. "Please, just 'J'. How is she?"

"I'm sorry, 'J', but we tried to save her. But the damage was too great." Dr. Page told him as she placed a hand on his shoulder to steady him as she watched him take in a shuttering breath.

"And the child?" He asked, worried about his niece or nephew. His sitter didn't want to know; she always did like surprise's.

"They are fine. We were able to get them out before any damage was done to them."

'J' looked up at her in question. "They?"

"Yes, she was having twins." Then Dr. Page gave a small smile. "A boy and girl." She then place both hand on his shoulders and made him look her in the eyes. "They are going to need you know. They don't have anyone else."

'J' could only nodded his head as he tried to wrap his brain around the fact that his sister had twins. And now they were his. He knew nothing of children, how was he suppose to raise two?

~~~End Past~~~

Disarray sat at the end of the dock when she heard foot steps. She looked behind her and saw a young man in an Oz uniform. She stood up and made her way over to him.

"Lady Disarray?" He asked. At the nod of her head he saluted to her. "I am Private James Goodwin, ma'am. I am to take you to the base."

"Then," She gestured with her hand. " by all means, please, lead the way." She followed him to a small speed boat that was closer to the shore. When she sat down in the boat, she grabbed her braid and held it over her shoulder. She really didn't feel like having to wash too much of the salt water out of her hair.

After a few hours of walking the base and looking through files, Disarray had learned that this was going to be a training base. A boot camp. She sided heavily as she left the files on her desk in her given room and finally took a shower. She let the hot water run over her aching muscles. She never knew that trying to be normal would be such a strain. As she was washing her hair, she started to think that it was going to be a waist. She would just have to wash it again after she comes back from the main land. ~I am going to have to talk to them about building a bridge.~ She thought.

When her shower was over, she picked up her school uniform and tossed it on the bed to be packed up later. She grabbed her bag of civilian clothes and pulled out her knee high black flat boots, a pair of fitted dark blue jeans, and a black low neck t-shirt. She was just happy to be out of uniforms.

Once she was dressed, she walked over to her night stand and pulled out a long black leather wrist bane and placed it over her left wrist. Then she pulled out a dark crystal that was on a think black strap. She tied it around her neck and fixed the ends so it was easily adjusted into a low choker. Then she started to French braid her hair at the middle of her head and worked the braid down till she could pull her hair over her should and finished the braid. When she stood up the tip of her hair almost touched the back of her knees. She reached into her back and pulled out her gun and placed it at the small of her back in her jeans. She then grabbed a long blue jean sleeveless button down dress. She put it on but only buttoned from the second one down, at the start of her chest, and down to the top of her pants. When she stood still, the dress brushed the floor but when she walked it flapped in the wind. A lot of people never did like the way she dressed, but she never cared what they thought.

As she started to pack her bad there was knock on her door. She went to go answer the door and there was Private James Goodwin standing at her door. When she noticed that he was just looking at her and not talking, she cleared her throat. "Is there anything that I can help you with Private Goodwin?" She asked sternly.

"Ah,….ah, sorry Ma'am." He cleared his throat. "I'm sorry to bother you, but His Excellency, Lord Treize, had sent something for you." He looked a little nervous.

"And?" She asked. "Where is it?" She was starting to get a little annoyed, but it could just be the fact that she was on the base. She never did like being on bases and she was not planning on living here either.

"Well, Ma'am…it wont let anyone near it." At Disarray's confused looked he went on. "He sent a message with it. Saying, 'He was not happy at home and was being unruly as a three year old'."

She sighed, but smiled. "Take me to him. He doesn't trust easily." She went over to her bed and grabbed her bag with all of her stuff in it and followed after Goodwin to the main entrance where she saw a tall man with long platinum blond hair, that brushed his lower back, standing in his full uniform and mask.

"Zechs, well I know you can get into trouble when I'm not around." Disarray said with a smile as she walked closer and Goodwin left the room. "But acting like a toddler?"

Zechs just gave her a small smile at her playfulness. "Sage has missed you. He has been pestering everyone."

"That's Sage for you. He's been with me since he was a pup. You know how wolves like to stick with family." She smiled. And just then a gray blur knocked Disarray on her butt and started to rub his nose into her neck. "Okay, okay." She said as she pushed against him. "Get off of me you big baby. I missed you too." Sage finally moved away from her and sat down as he watched her stand back up. She placed a hand on his head, since his head came up to her hips. "Well, you can Treize that he is acting his age. He's three and hardly spent this much time away from me. I never did get to say hi after Treize came and got me out of that training camp." Disarray then looked up at Zechs. "And how is Malvrie taking his demotion?"

The small dropped from Zech's face. "Not well. He's still ordering people around as if nothing has happened." He paused for a minute. "Are you sure it was right to demote him?"

"Yes, if you were under his train with anyone noticing you, you would have don't the same thing. He's lucky enough to still be with Oz." She sighed, "It's only been a day, lets hope that things will straighten out." She patted Sage on the head and then picked up her bag from when he knocked her down.

Zechs quirked a brow at her and bag. "Going somewhere?"

"You know me well enough, I will not stay at a base if I have a chose in the matter and I will not stay at this one. I feel to much like a prisoner in here."

"You are a soldier Disarray…" Zechs began.

Disarray snapped at him. "And I'm better than more than half of Treize's top ranking soldiers." She narrowed her eyes then she sighed and looked down. "I must do what feels right." She looked up at him. "And staying here, do not feel right."

"I just might agree with you." He looked around the room that he was in. "Especially with these Gundam Pilots going after every base we have." He straightened himself up and nodded his head at Disarray. "I shall see you a shore."

Disarray just smiled as she swung her bag over her should and followed

Zechs out to the boat, with Sage following after.

"Man I'm bored." Duo huffed as he sat down on the couch of their shared apartment.

"Then do your homework." Heero said from the other side of the room where he was typing away on his laptop, typing up his report on his last mission. "That should give you something to do."

"It's already done." He said. "Like I really need to do it anyway." He said under his breath.

"Well, Maxwell must really be bored if he's done work for something other than a mission." Wufei said as he walked from down the hall to the kitchen. He stopped just before he reached the kitchen and noticed that Duo hadn't made a comment back to him about what he just said. ~Weird.~ "Why don't you go for a walk, the fresh air will do you some good." he said as he walked in the kitchen.

Without a word, Duo just got up and walked down the hall to his shared room with Heero and grabbed his gun. Only in his black boots, dark jeans and black shirt and his cross under his shirt, he walked out of the room and to the front door. As he made his way to the door, he placed the gun at the low of his back, tucked in his jean and he grabbed his black duster on his way out the door. All without a word to the others.

Wufei walked back out of the kitchen with a drink in hand. "Must be a lot on his mind. He's not talking as much as he usually does."

Heero just nodded his agreement as he continued his report.

Not really wanting to be in the apartment himself, Wufei grabbed his white jean coat and went to find a calming park.

Disarray had said her good-byes to Zechs before she made her way down the streets to the park so that Sage can run around without a word or a strange look. Wolves were already a rare breed in this world and people think they are all just wild mindless animals. She really disliked closed minded people. Most of them thought that they were better than the soldiers that try to help them, but then there are those soldiers who think the people of the world owed them for keeping them alive. Oh how she wanted to take her gun to their heads. It was because of people like that, that had caused her to lose her best friend.

Sage noticed that Disarray was lost in her thought and didn't like the feeling that he was picking up from her so he nudged his head against her hand and that seemed to nock her back to the world and he was happy to have her back.

Disarray pulled out a ball from her pocket when they entered the park and tossed it, only to watch Sage run after it. She looked around and noticed that there was not a lot of people here, there was still a few hours left in the day, so she wondered why. She walked deeper into the park till she came to a small clearing. She looked around at the edge of the clearing and found a big shady tree and went to set under it. There she sat, resting with her back behind her back and watched Sage fine the ball she threw and to just watch the clouds go by. It wasn't everyday that she got a break like this.

Wufei found the park and he found someone he didn't expect to see. Duo. He had never thought to have found Maxwell in a quiet park. ~Something must be troubling him if he's letting his guard down.~ His attention brought away from Duo when he was a gray blur running in the distance. He raise a brow, "Never thought I would see a wolf around these parts." Wufei said to himself. He went and sat down on a park bench and kept and eye on Duo and the wolf.

Duo watched a gray wolf run past him a little after he made his way into the park. He smiled when he saw the animal. He remembered the first time he ever saw one and it was in no place you would have thought possible; on L2.

~~Flash Back~~

A young boy of 13 with long chestnut brown hair, that laid down his back in a braid that reached the lower part of his back, was running through the streets with his school books in hand. Everyone one made fun of him because he were the uniform that the church gave him, that looked like a dress, and with his hair it made him look more like a girl. But he wasn't running from the bullies today, he was running in excitement because he found a gift for his friend.

He finally made it to the church where he found a young girl around 13 with dark brown hair that to was pulled back into a braid and that laid down her back. She was wearing a nun's dress, just without the head piece. He stood there watching her place candles around the altar till she noticed him. She had turned around and just smiled at him. He loved it when she smiled. "His Dis." He said with one of his own smiles.

"Duo, where have you been? Your late." She put her candles down and walked over to him. "I told you I should have staid with you, did they try to fight you again today?" She asked a little worriedly.

"No, no. I'm fine." He put his books down on a pew. "I think after our little tag team last Friday really sent them for a loop." he laughed and so did she. "But no, that's not why I'm late." he said with a sly smile.

"Well," Dis said. "You going to tell me?"

"I'll do better than that." He said and he smiled at her raise brow and confused expression. "I'll show you. Come on." He grabbed her hand before she could say anything.

After a few minutes of being pulled down this alley and that one Dis couldn't be quiet any more. "D…Duo, where are you dragging me off to?"

"We're almost there." He said when he stopped at the entrance of another alleyway and just stood there for a minute till he heard whimpering and then a cheesy grin came on his face. "We're here." Dis just looked even more confused as Duo pulled her down the alley and stopped at a box where the whimpering was louder. He let go of Dis's hand and went to the box and pulled out a pup. "I found this little guy on my way back to the church."

Dis was in 'aw' when she saw the pup. "Oh Duo, how would just abandon a pup like this?" She more than asked herself as she made her way over to the pup and took him from Duo. "He's just a few weeks old too. An the poor thing looks half starved." She snuggled the pup to her face. "Oh, and he smells of sage." She smiled and looked to Duo. "So, he's why your late. I guess I can let you slide because of it."

"I thought you would like him. I remembered how much when we were learning about the endangered animals and how you were drawn to the wolves." Duo stroked the pup on the head. "He looks like a gray wolf. His eyes are crusted over, so I wouldn't be able to tell you what color his eyes are."

Dis was just beaming with happiness as she leaned over and gave Duo a kiss on the cheek. "Thank you, Duo. I will take good care of him." She said as she smiled sweetly down at the pup.

Duo just chuckled as he spoke, "One minute your talking about making someone bleed and the next your cuddling with a puppy." He started to make his way back towards he church with Dis following.

"Well I have to live up to my name you know. And plus I can't just sit around while someone needs my help when I can help." She said as she held the pup to her chest as he started to fall asleep.

"What name? Disarray or Ghrya?" Duo asked.

"I don't even know why Solo gave me that name." Disarray said. "Or what it means.

"I think it has something to do with you looking elven." He sighed deeply. "I really do miss the old gang."

Disarray walked up to his side. "I know Duo, but we survived and we must honor his memory by living the life that we were given." She placed a hand on his shoulder. "We can't go through life just morning the people we once loved and had lost." She then smiled at her own memory of Solo. "He did read to many SciFi books that he found." She giggled.

They walked in silence till they were walking in the doors of the church, "So, what are you going to name him." Duo asked as he grabbed his books to take to his room in the back.

"I think I'll call him, Sage. Because he smells of sage." She kissed the pup on the head.

"Sage, Hm." He walked over to the pup that was still in Disarray's arms. "Welcome to the gang, Sage." Duo said as he stroked a finger down Sage's back.

~~~End Flash Back~~~

Duo let out a heavy sigh. It was only 4 months after he found Sage for Disarray that the church was burned down and his whole life changed, again. He put his hand in his pocket as he walked around the park but he was stopped when he heard a female voice call out a name.

Disarray was needing to find a place to stay the night, so she stood up and grabbed her bag; tossing the bad over her shoulder. She walked out of her little clearing and started to make her way out of the park as she looked around for Sage. She found him just lay on the ground, soaking up the last few rays of the days sun. "Sage!" She watched as Sage's head popped up and looked around for her. When he spotted her, he jumped up and ran over to her.

Duo turned around just into time to watch the wolf run up to a girl with a long dark braid. ~Could it really be?~ Duo asked himself as he his way over to the girl with the wolf.

Wufei saw Duo walking off towards the girl, so he got up and followed him to make sure that he wasn't going to do anything stupid.

Duo was just a few steps away from her when he took in a deep breath, ~It's now or never. I have to know.~ "Excuse me, but is that a wolf?" He asked. ~That's a great way to start out a conversation.~ he mentally smacked himself.

"Yes." Disarray said as she placed a hand on Sage's head before she turned around and gave the man that had asked her the question a small smile. "His name is Sage." She said before she looked up at his face and it was then that she was stunned into silence.

"Dis?" He asked, thinking he was seeing a ghost.

"Oh my God….." She whispered as her bag slide from her shoulder, hitting the ground as she started to feel tears wheal up in her eyes, but she blinked them back. She was a soldier now, and soldiers didn't cry. Sometimes she really hated being female. "Duo? Is it really you?" She whispered.

Duo then gave a half smile and a small chuckle. "Who else would I be?" He halfheartedly joked. Sage then came over to Duo and nuzzled Duo's hand. Duo looked down at Sage, "It's good to see you alive too mutt." He rubbed Sages head before he looked up at Disarray. "So, how have you been?"

She couldn't take it anymore, her emotion in her were just a world wind and she jumped at Duo, hugging him close to her. "God, you are real." She whispered, afraid if she talked any louder she would cry.

Duo hugged her tightly to him, not wanting to let go. He placed his chin on top of her head. "I thought I lost you."

Wufei stopped a few yards away from the two teens when they looked dumb at one another, but he rose a brow in confusion when he watched the girl jump at Duo and noticed that the two weren't letting go anytime soon. That's when he noticed that the girl that Duo had in his arms was the same one that he fenced earlier today. When he was feeling a little uncomfortable with seeing Duo a little out of character, he walked up to them to make himself known. But there was no need.

Sage started to growled at Wufei when he got closer to the two teens and they looked up to see Wufei and pulled apart from one another. Duo cleared his throat first. "Oh, hey there Wu-man. What's up."

Wufei just raised a brow for a second. "I was just in the park enjoying the quiet when I thought it was time to go back, that's when I noticed you and," He looked at Disarray. "Miss Ghrya here."

Duo looked a little confused for a second and then he smiled. "Ah, that's right. She's the one who challenged you in class today." He laughed.

Disarray bowed her head to Wufei. "It's nice to meet you again Chang Wufei." She rose up to see Wufei nod his head. "And please, no miss. I have yet to earn the title of 'miss' or 'lady', even though I hear it a lot, I am no lady."

Duo busted out laughing, "Yeap, you haven't changed all that much." That's when he noticed the bag at Disarray's feet. He raised a brow at her. "Do you not have a place to stay?"

"I do, but I don't feel safe there." She said, knowing that Duo would understand.

"Why not just stay at the school?" Wufei suggested.

"Really?" She asked. "There could be a top high class assassin going to that place and you would never know it till someone showed up dead in their bed." She said, thinking like a soldier again and almost kicking herself mentally for it till she heard a snicker, not from Duo but from Wufei.

"I would have to agree with you." Wufei said.

"Hey," Duo jumped with a smile. "You could crash at our place if you want."

" 'Our'? You two are rooming together?" She asked a little confused.

"Not just us two, but we have 3 other room mates. We'll have to talk to the other guys to see if it's alright with them." Duo smiled

"I don't think Yuy will go for it." Wufei stated.

"It sounds great Duo," Disarray said, before Duo could say anymore. "But I can find my own place. I mean me and Sage will be fine until I can find my own place. Trust me, it's not a problem." She tried to reinsure Duo.

"Well,…." Duo started, but then he sighed. "at lest come to our place for dinner."

Disarray smiled. "Alright, but only if I get to cook. I have a feeling that you still can't cook." She said as she picked up her bag.

"She has you there Maxwell." Wufei said with a half smile as he started to walk back to the apartment.

Disarray quirk a brow at Duo. "'Maxwell'?" She asked.

"Yeah, I wanted to hold onto something that was good in my past." Duo said as he looked at the ground as he followed behind Wufei with Disarray following next to him and Sage between them.

"It was a good four years, wasn't it." She sighed. No one said another word as they made there way to the apartment.

A/N: Hello everyone, sorry that this one is longer than the other, but I just couldn't find a good place to stop. Well, I am in need of your help. I will let you all help me decide is I should have Yaoi in this story or not. It's been a though in my head, but I will let you, the readers, help me out.

So, should I have a yaoi with Quatre and Trowa?