CHAPTER 4

It was hours later since she bid goodbye to Matt for good. She had initially thought of cancelling on Meredith and cry herself to exhaustion in her apartment but thought better of it. She wasn't that kind of person. She offered her help to someone who needed assistance and became one of her dear friend at Grey Sloan.

Meredith Grey-Shepherd opened her front door to April looking like all her energy had been sucked out of her. She didn't think the girl had an ounce left in her to function for the rest of the day.

"Hi Mer. I'm here as planned. So where are we starting?"

"Oh screw the nursery for today April. You look like you need a drink and a talk. No worries, I won't be sending you home inebriated. So, spill!" She really does feel bad for the girl in front of her. She can pity April in a way that the others probably couldn't. What was it really with all the love triangles in Grey Sloan? Or as her lovely husband put it, maybe it's a quadrangle honey!

"I met with Matt this morning and we broke it off for good. He's moving out of Seattle and possibly to Texas. Houston specifically."

"I know you are hurt," Meredith carefully treaded on water as she spoke. "I have been down that road April and it was not easy. How do you really feel right now? Just let it out, you'll feel a better." She knew that the red head can talk anyone's ears off when it comes to any medical topic. She is smart but when it comes to emotions, it seems that April is not too keen to talk about it freely.

"I..I..I really don't know. Everything's jumbled up and I don't know where to start. I got a note from Jackson yesterday telling me that he loves me and that he has been in love with me for a while. He slipped it in my locker and then this morning I saw Matt and ended that chapter of my life." April hastily replied as she fidgets with the hem of her shirt.

"But did you love Matt like you love Jackson? Did you try to picture your life maybe five years from now with each of them and whom of the two could you really see yourself with?"

"I did love Matt but perhaps it was not the same magnitude to what I really felt and still do for Jackson. Both are great in their own way but Matt never pushed me like Jackson. I could sense the hesitation coming from him and I guess part of it was my fault. Even while I was with Matt, I had thought more of Jackson than my own boyfriend. I tried pushing his name to the back of my head but seeing him every day only made it worse. We never talked about the San Francisco fiasco and, I think as we continued on we didn't know what we wanted from each other." She looked at Meredith helplessly. Like a child would look at her mother to scoop her up and help her to her feet.

"I can't tell you exactly what you have to do April but you and Jackson need to sit down together and talk. It is the only way for you both to solve your problems. Do not back out of it. You have to let each other know where you stand and go from there." She hoped that the talk really would happen. She would lock them in a room if she has to considering both parties are too stubborn for their own good.

"I know. It's been long overdue."

"Why don't you go home and think things over. Clear your head. Let me know if you need to talk some more."

"Thank you. Really….I appreciate it. It has been a rollercoaster and I feel like I am only halfway through the ride. And, I am sorry we couldn't work on your nursery today. My offer still stands whenever you need my help."

"Oh I will let you know when I need you back here for the nursery!" As she looked at April, she was reminded of Lexie and that there was no longer a younger sister that she has to look out for. April slid into the role without much thought and she couldn't be happier to have someone to dote on besides Derek, Zola, and her baby boy.

"I think they will be fine sweetie. They might be both hard headed sometimes but my money's on Jackson. I know he won't give her up easily!" Meredith smiled as she felt the kick of her unborn child.

Back in the confines of her apartment, April mulled over her afternoon with Meredith and what was advised of her. She knew she had to call Jackson so they could talk and fix whatever was wrong between them.

Picking up her phone, April dialed the all too familiar number and waited.

"April? Hi,umm, how can I help?" Jackson sounded all too surprise to be getting a call from her today.

"Yeah it 's me. Listen I got the note that you slipped in my locker. We have to talk about everything Jackson and fix whatever is wrong with us or where we messed up. Please give me tomorrow to clear my head and I'll let you know. That is all I ask."

"I can do that April. I can wait."

"Ok. I'll talk to you soon and of course I'll see you in the hospital tomorrow."

Well there's the first step to getting this right. She wants to fix this.