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Seeing the Truth

CHAPTER 4

SPOV

Niall returned today. Finally he is back. I am scheduled to have dinner with him and another fae. It has been 2 weeks that I have been waiting for him to return. I have a whole bunch of questions for him. Darn it I should have made a list.

I met him in the south courtyard which was my favorite. It had huge weeping willow trees that were lined with crystals. They sparkled in the sun making it so beautiful. When the breeze would blow they would chime the most delicate sounds. In the night was actually the best time to be there. The crystals glowed at might it was a soft golden and blue glow. They looked like twinkling stars the way they swayed between the leaves and branches. There were also a number of bird baths with a silver liquid in them. When you looked into them it was a perfect mirror reflection. They never rippled it was pretty neat.

"My child, I have missed you. I hope everything has been to your liking? "He asked as he met me with a hug.

"Everything is wonderful Great-Grandfather. I do have some questions for you though" I told him

"Well come let us have dinner with our guest then we shall talk." he led me to the table were the second most beautiful man I have ever seen stood. "Sookie, this is Preston. He is a friend of the family." Wow, what a friend he was. He had to be about 6'3". He had broad shoulders and very thick arms. His hair was long, chocolate brown, and tied back at the nape of his neck. When I finally got to his eyes I was mesmerized. They were a honey brown color and the sparkled like everybody else's that lived here did. He was wearing white linen suit pants and a green button down dress shirt that fit his body perfectly.

"He...Hello, pleasure to meet you Preston" I said and offered him my hand.

He took it into his hand and kissed the top of it. "The pleasure is all mine I assure you your Grace." He looked into my eyes and a smirk crossed his face. At that moment I realized he was the exact opposite to Eric. He was tanned, dark hair, and dark eyes to Eric's marble skin, blonde hair, and bright blue eyes, but they were built exactly same. He pulled my chair out and I sat down still staring at him.

Just as we were about to eat a man came to the table "Your majesty, your Grace" he said and bowed his head to each of us. "Your majesty you are needed for an important matter" he said to Niall

"Of course" he says to the man then looks at me "Well my dear a Princes work is never done. I will join you as soon as I can my sweet." Niall said and left the table.

"Well I guess you will have to endure dinner with just me" I told Preston

"It is a torture I would endure forever if allowed" He answered with a chuckle

Oh, he was quite the charmer. "So Preston, I have been told everyone in Faerie has a certain job what would yours be? If you don't mind me asking " I asked

He looked a little surprised "Oh of course. Well I am a scholar and a trainer"

"Okay so what does that mean... cause all I get is that you're smart. Does it mean you are a teacher?" as soon as the words came out my mouth I felt like an idiot.

"Yes I am" He said puffing his glorious chest out

"Your students sure are lucky." why was my mouth just spilling out words to this guy.

He laughed and said "I am a personal tutor, but right now I have no pupils so I am the keeper of the archives."

"So you're a librarian then?" Ha! Finally a smart comment

"In a way yes I am."

"I love libraries" I swooned. What the eff? I sounded like a teenager with a schoolgirl crush. I couldn't help myself he was gorgeous and smart, not to mention we have things in common.

"I wonder if I lived here what my job would be." I said trying to cover the swooning I just did.

"You're a royal" he answered like duh Sookie you should know that.

"So my job would be to sit around and be regal all day. What's that consist of, being fed grapes and yelling 'off with their heads' ?" I responded with a little more bite then intended.

"I meant no disrespect your Grace. I only meant that you would spend your days being tutored in many subjects and trained by your guard over there" He pointed is thumb over his shoulder to Evina.

"Well I guess I'll never know being that I'll be leaving and all"

"What? You are leaving our fair lands so soon your Grace?"

"Uh... yeah I mean I have a job, friends and family to get back to." Not to mention Eric. "They're probably worried sick as it is"

"Of course, how silly of me, I'm sure your mate must be out of his mind with worry" He said and started paying extra attention to his plate

"Oh I don't have a ...mate. Well not like that ...I mean... I.. well I don't know what I have" what was I suppose to say, I have an ex 1,000 year old Vampire that may or may not care about me. Could I even call Eric that? It wasn't like we were actually together; it was just that week long love affair that he couldn't remember an inkling of.

I had spent the last two weeks examining my feelings for Eric. I discovered that with or without the bond my feelings were the same. I did love him. I also discovered that I had to suck it up and tell Eric how I felt. That was the real reason I needed to go home. I needed to know if he still felt the same way he did when he had amnesia or was it all just in my mind. I mean he did save me over and over again and he also bonded with me, but was the bond just his way of saving me from Andre, I didn't know what it all meant to him.

"Really that's surprising" Preston said pulling me out of my thoughts.

Just then Niall reappeared at the table. "My sweet sorry I have missed the meal. Would you like to take a stroll with me?"

"Oh, of course I would Grandfather." I rose and so did Preston. I turned to him and said "It really was nice to meet you"

He kissed my hand once more and responded "It truly was. I hope that you are not a stranger your Grace" then bowed to Niall and popped away.

Niall held out his arm for me to take as we started strolling down the path. "So my dear, what is it that you needed to ask of me?"

"Well I was wondering when I get to go home." I kinda whispered to him.

"Is this what you wish my sweet?" He asked gently

"I mean my friends and family have to be worried about me by now."

"Well, I will be honest with you child. I have had letters dispatched to them informing them that you are well and taking some time to yourself, enjoying your ancestrial home if you will."

I was shocked. I mean he has been gone all this time, but he had time to write out letters to them all. Oh and Eric how did he feel about this. He couldn't have been happy about any of this. At least he knows I didn't just abandon him. I still needed to see him and tell him how I felt.

"But what about my house and I have bills to pay and well can I call them?" I asked to be honest they knew I was safe, but I needed to see Eric.

"If you want to go home you can my dear. You are not a prisoner here. As for your house and bills an account has been set up for you that are currently paying all your expenses." I started to protest but he quieted me "Ah, ah, ah... it is your birthright. Your trust fund, as humans call it. It is also long overdue to you, so no arguing about it young lady." He told me sternly. I nodded in acceptance. There really was no arguing with him and he was family. It was no difference then getting an inheritance right?

Then he continued "You can see them now if you want. Then you can travel home tomorrow."

"I can! I would really love that." I said practically bouncing up and down.

He led me to one of the bird bath things. "Concentrate on who you want to see. Then touch the center of the pool and watch the ripples." he instructed and went back to the path to give me some privacy.

I thought of Jason, Amelia, even Sam, but the only one I wanted to see was Eric. I concentrated on him really hard and touched the pool of silver. Then there he was. His face began to appear. I started to smile, but it soon faded.

He looked angry. Then the rest of the scene unfolded on the silver ripples. He was pounding into a brunette that was busy eating out another girls pussy who was spread out on his desk. There was rage written across his face as he pulled the girls hair bringing her neck up to him and savagely bit her. Blood flowed all down her body as he fed. He pulled his dick out of her and pushed the other girl down on her knees she willingly took him in her mouth. Then he was forcing himself in her mouth further than she could handle while licking the blood off the other. When he finished feeding from one and releasing in the others mouth he dressed, sat behind his desk and waved them off as if they were nothing. While he went back to his paperwork.

I backed away from the pool trying to contain my tears. "Grandfather please, excuse me I must go." I told him as I rushed away back to my rooms. I entered my room slamming the door behind me leaving Evina and Ryn out in the corridor. I paced back and forth tears streaming down my face. How could I love him that... that monster that I just saw. There was a knock on my door.

"GO AWAY!" I yelled at Ryn or Evina whichever one it was.

"My child?" my grandfather called. I opened the door and fell into his arms sobbing.

"Do you still wish to return my sweet?" he said holding me as I cried.

"NO! I just wish I could forget him. I just want everything about him gone." I said between sobs. He picked me up and carried me to the bed.

"We will speak of this tomorrow my sweet. Rest now" He said and sat next to me

The next day I stayed in bed till after noon. Ryn came in and told me that Niall wanted to see me for lunch. So I got up and let her help me get ready. We met in the dining room, which was weird because we always met in the gardens and courtyards. It was good though 'cause I didn't feel like being outside today.

"My child, you are looking somewhat better this day." He said as I joined him at the table. I'm glad he thought so cause I didn't.

"Hello Niall." I responded

"Are you still wanting to go home? I have an alternative if you would like to hear it."

"I'm not really sure what I want right now to be honest with you" I answered. It was true I couldn't face the world right now and I damn sure couldn't see Eric.

"Well, then stay here." He said casually "You can recover from your loss, study, train or whatever your heart's desire." My heart's desire huh. My heart's desire was busy fucking his way through northern Louisiana again. Niall continued "I am not forcing you, but with your Vampire ... pursuing his own interest this could be the best thing for you. You can learn to defend yourself and you can also gain the greatest weapon of all."

"What weapon is that?" I asked curious cause even though I was really pissed I didn't think a nuclear bomb could be isolated to just one man.

"Knowledge my sweet, you can study about the world you are now part of. Understand the laws and rules. So if and when you go back you can better protect yourself." He explained

"Can I think about it? It just hurt so bad grandfather. I don't...I just...I just wish I could forget him the way he forgot about me and our time together. I know it's silly, but I need time." I told him. It was so unfair that I have to live with the memories of Eric loving me while he could just do whatever he pleased. All cause he couldn't remember.

"Well my sweet, I have enjoyed your company for this meal immensely. I may be able to help you with forgetting if it is truly what you wish. I will be leaving tomorrow on another trip. If you wish to go home Claudine is not far, but I would hope you would wait for my return. Think about what I have said I will be back in two weeks." He rose and kissed the top of my head then popped away leaving me stunned.

I had a lot to think about. Staying here might not be too bad. It would definitely be nice to learn a few things, but the whole forget thing. I don't know about that. That will be a huge decision. Could I just forget him like that? Did I want to? Yeah I had a lot to think about.

For the next two weeks I was barely able to sleep. Every time I closed my eyes all I saw was Eric with those fangbangers. Then I would think about all the other times I had seen sex scenes run through the minds of woman at Fangtasia. It all just made me angrier with him and with myself. Why did I ever think that Eric Northman sex god would change or be able to love? Silly, silly Sookie. By the last day of Grandfather's trip my decision was made.

A/N:*ducks for cover* So another chapter. Please don't kill me. Tell me what you thought of it good, bad, or ugly all reviews are helpful and wanted. What do you think Sookie will do? Next up is Eric's POV...what was our beloved Viking thinking?...just wait you'll find out.