Red phase was finally over and Korra couldn't be more thankful. After their talk in front of everyone. She had stopped stopping her body from doing what it does best. Help keep her alive. Korra would hate to admit it but she actually felt herself start to become stronger. Even if it did take Asami beating the shit out of her.
Her and Asami could barely keep their eyes open as they were taking off their dirty clothes. They leaned on each other back and forth so they wouldn't fall over. Once they grabbed their stuff they made it into the showers and they sighed happily. The weather had started to become colder than it already was. So the hot water was a small relief. Korra was rinsing her hair when she heard one of the other girls.
"Guess we already know who's gay." The girl said.
"Give it a rest already. We're to tired for your unnecessary bullshit." Another girl said and several other girls agreed.
Korra turned around wondering to see who she was talking about only to see Asami staring at her. Korra blushed from under her gaze. Asami shook her head trying to clear it before turning back to her shower. Korra turned back around and frowned realizing what Asami probably saw. Before when they had quick showers she always made it so Asami was in front of her.
"Great." She mumbled before willing her thoughts away.
"I know you saw it." Korra said as they changed. "Your the only one besides my parents that can see it." Asami didn't say anything. "Can you say something. Anything please. I need to know if this will be a problem."
"How can it be? It's you." Asami said looking at her incredulously.
"It's not me and it wasn't who they were either. It's apart of me! It was apart of them to!" Korra said through clenched teeth. "I'm so tired of everyone saying things like that. It's not me. I'm just Korra." She said looking up at Asami. "It's just apart of Korra. A part I don't even want but with what little choice only to accept it."
It was quiet between the two of them even though the rest of the room was buzzing with noise. It was always like that for them. Always getting caught up in their own little space.
"I'll admit it is shocking I'm not gonna lie about that. I also have had my growing supicions about you though." Asami said smirking.
"Like what?" Korra asked curiously.
"It's just that I could see and feel that you were different from everyone else is all." Asami said matter-of-factly. "That and the busted lip I gave you was healed before we finished our first lap that day."
Korra chuckled lightly before pointing between them. "This is something I still can't believe. I thought you hated me. You never said anything to me."
"I don't think I could hate you. It's just that I was-"
"Disappointed, ashamed, irritated, indifferent, sad, etc. Etc. Etc." Korra sighed out running a hand through her hair as she sat down.
"What did your parents say?" Asami asked as she sat down beside her holding her hat. She didn't correct her because she didn't know herself if that was right or wrong.
Korra laughed bitterly as she twisted her foot on the floor. "Let the white lotus tell it and they gave me up for protection. But I let them tell me truth after I tracked them down a month ago."
"What did they say?" Asami asked twisting her hat.
"They hate me." Korra said catching Asami off guard. "I was there one and only child. A miracle at that because my mother couldn't have children. Then imagine there faces when they see I am the avatar. I ruined the whole idea for their humble family dream. Who wants to raise the avatar and be stuck in a lifetime full of stress and saddness. Who wants to put up with all that crazy shit when they could have had a normal child."
"Korra" Asami said speechless.
"Yeah" Korra said getting up and walking to the door. "No one was more unsuspecting than me."
Asami sighed shaking out her hat. She followed her out as she put her hat on.
The had barely talked since red phase started besides the incident in the training field. Both being to tired and only able to eat and sleep when they could. This was not how she was hoping their real conversation was going to go. It seemed like they just kept going down hill after hill instead of actually getting somewhere. The sad part was that she didn't expect anything less. This was her life after all. Full of disappointment and unrequited desires. She didn't want to but she couldn't help but want to be close to her. Asami caught up to Korra's side and filed into the auditorium with everyone else.
"Ok pile in guys we don't want to yell." Jinora said as she motioned everyone close.
"Yeah we got some important shit to say." Kuriva said looking around the room. When she found Korra she winked.
Korra blushed and looked away causing Asami to frown. That was another thing that she didn't like. It was pissing her of that Kuriva thought it was ok to flirt with Korra. She glared at her and only got a smirk in return before Kuriva addressed everyone again.
"Ok there's a blizzard that might hit us so we're going on a kind of lock down. We're going to load both barracks with food and water just in case. If it doesn't then we'll put it back and continue on as planned." Kuriva said looking at all of them.
"The kitchen detail will be divided and distribute the food and water." Baatar said.
"Everyone understand?" Tenzin asked.
"Yes drill sergeant!"
"Good you can all return to your cabins now." He said nodding towards the door.
When they got back Korra fell face first onto her bed. "Well that's one way to do it." Asami said staring at her.
"Shut up and join me." Korra said only rolling her head so she could be heard.
Asami plopped down beside staring up at her bunk. "How old are you?"
"Twenty." Korra sighed. "And you?"
"Twenty-two."Asami said.
"I figured you for a cougar." Korra said scrunching up her nose is mock distaste.
Asami laughed as she thumped her forehead. "Shut up you dork."
"Ow" Korra said half-heartedly as she fake pouted. "I'm pretty sure abuse between us is fucking illegal." Asami looked at her and they both started laughing their asses off.
"Hey! Shut up!" A girl named Ikki sassed at them.
"Fuck off little girl!" Korra retorted with the same amount of sass.
"I will not be small forever!" Ikki said making everyone in the barracks crack up.
"Keep telling yourself that babe." Asami joining in the fun.
"Fuck you." Ikki mumbled turning away from the other two.
As everyone else returned to their own conversations Asami and Korra stared at each other. Asami had so much she wanted to say. All of them soon to be broken and empty promises as soon as they left her mouth. So instead she went with a simple known lie to finish where they had left off.
"I would never abuse you." Asami said twisting the cover up in her hand.
Korra just stared at her as she brought her own hand up next to her's. She fisted the cover as she spoke. " But another life I would be your girl."
"We'd keep all our promises and it'd be us against the world." Asami said holding the same intense stare with her.
"Katy Perry huh?" Korra choked out as she held it together.
Asami nodded. "But neither of us got away yet." She said trying to lighten the mood. She smiled when Korra laughed harder then necessary.
"That's what I like to hear privates!" A voice entering the barracks yelled making Asami roll her eyes.
She sat up only to be granted with the sight of drill sergeant Kuriva and Jinora with a lot of bags. She narrowed her eyes at a smirking Kuriva. She saw Korra sit up out the corner of her eye but didn't stop the staring war with Kuriva.
"Did we interrupt something private Sato? Element?" Kuriva asked daringly.
"Not at all drill sergeant." Asami replied barely keeping the malice out of her voice.
"Oh really because from here it-" Kuriva was cut of by a jab from Jinora's elbow to her ribs.
"Anyway privates we will be staying with you for safety reasons. Drill sergeant Tenzin and Baatar will be staying with the males as well." Jinora said looking around at everyone.
"Yeah and we brought alcohol because what else are we gonna do? We can't get high." Kuriva said holding up a bag full of liquor as everyone laugh.
Asami tsked as she shook her head. She saw the way Korra's eye's lite up and groaned. "You've never gotten drunk have you?"
Korra but her lip and looked down shaking her head. "I know it's unheard of at my age but the white lotus didn't want me getting into trouble."
Asami sighed as she shook her head. She took Korra's chin raising her head. "Go ahead and enjoy yourself. I'll look out for you." She nodded her head towards Kuriva who was handing out different bottles. Korra was about to protest but Asami stopped her. "I've had enough alcohol for everyone in here to last a lifetime."
Korra studied her face looking for something and when she seemed satisfied she smiled. She quickly went over to ikki who handed her a bottle of sour vodka laughing. Asami propped herself back against the wall as she watched Korra unwind with the group of girls. She didn't even notice Jinora had come up beside her until she spoke.
"I'm sorry." Jinora said looking out into the group of people being egged on by Kuriva.
Asami didn't even jump from the unsuspected intrusion. Her eyes never left Korra. "Not as sorry as I am."