Things Change Chapter 4 What's left, a supernatural fanfic

Disclaimer:I DO NOT own Supernatural or the songs from linkin park or secondhand serenade

Music is well said to be the speech of angels. -Thomas Carlyle Dean was going to stay in California for two days now that a day passed Castiel thought it would be a great idea to hear some songs that Dean has made. Eager to make it to the hotel he told Balthazar he would drive and he could relax in the backseat. As he reached the hotel he woke Balthazar up though it took some glares and blackmail to get his lazy bum up. As Balthazar left to his own room yes this hotel had two bedrooms Castiel went to his own room and pulled out his laptop. As the window came on screen he went to Google to search the biography on Dean (Castiel just wanted to know what occurred to dean when he left). While it was loading Castiel thought it would be a good time to change of his concert clothes as Balthazar would say into some simple sweatpants and a white t-shirt.

As he went to brush his teeth Castiel brought his laptop to his bed and laid down. Reading the biography Castiel found out many things he never knew about dean. Castiel couldn't believe that his first album was as the witter wrote 'heart breaking enough that the angels would cry'. He also found out that most of the time Dean would like to just work on his music or hang out with his brother. Reading this biography made him feel bad for not being there for throughout those years when his parents died or when he was married.

He couldn't believe he has never known about dean being a artist the whole time until Balthazar and Gabriel were talking about how good his music was. Of course Gabriel only cared about the artist younger brother Sam That's when it hit him that he never heard any song dean wrote only the ones today so he made up his mind to hear all songs that were ever made by Dean.

So Castiel got into You-Tube and plug in his earphones so he wouldn't bother Balthazar as he picked a random video called "Pieces" which he enjoyed very much. Time has passed and he has heard almost 30 songs which Castiel were party serious and funny. Though looking for another song one title caught his eye 'maybe' "hmm this sounds interesting" Castiel thought aloud. As he played the video Castiel waiting it to stop buffering to freaking play.

"Didn't you want to hear the sound of all the places we could go Do you fear the expressions on the faces we don't know It's a cold hard road when you wake up and I don't think that I Have the strength to let you go"

Castiel was in awe of how beautiful deans voice was as he started remembering of the last time he saw Dean

"Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face makes me wish that I was never brought into this place "

As the memory came back to him of looking at dean after he has rejected him.

"There goes my ring It might as well have been shattered and I'm here to sing about the things that mattered about the things that made us feel alive for oh so long about the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong"

The moment he saw how Deans eyes look so lifeless as he said he was fine. Castiel shakes his head as if it could stop the memory coming back again.

He remembers the time when he ran with it seem he lost his friend that he loved so deeply.

"And someday, I promise I'll be gone And someday, I might even sing this song To you, I might even sing this song, to you and I was crying alone tonight and I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you So just come back we'll make it better So Just come back I'll make it better than it ever was 2x"

Not noticing the tears that were forming in his eyes when he remember of the good times with dean.

Castiel couldn't see anymore from the tears he was trying to hold back

Now that the song has ended Castiel couldn't help but to let the tears fall as he closed his laptop putting it on the nightstand. Simple tears turn to sobs as he tried to wipe the tears that were flowing so freely as he let his head fall into his hands. "Castiel.." Castiel looked up as Balthazar was standing in the doorway. I forgot to close the door Castiel thought as Balthazar came closer to him "Whats wrong Castiel hearing those words Castiel couldn't help but just cry more as he tried to respond his cousin "I..I.. It's my fault...he.. me...and i-i re-rejected him"Castiel said as he grabs Balthazar shirt.

Balthazar what confused of what his cousin was talking about but whatever it was must of been bad if he's crying this bad. "Who are you talking about? who confessed to you?" he asked as he soothed Castiel by rubbing circles on his back. Castiel looked up at him with tear filled eyes "D-Dean" Balthazar didn't understand how could Dean confess to him if they never met today "When did he confessed to you?" he asked while Castiel rubbed his eyes "5 years ago and i-i rejected him even tough i d-didn't want to im such a bad person i-i broke my first crush h-heart-" he shouted as he started to cry more " im such a heartless bastard! I don't deserve any love or compassion" Castiel said with a pain expression on his face.

Balthazar eyes widen hearing the words coming out of his cousin "Castiel your not a bastard or heartless alright why don't you tell me everything alright" he said with a small smile. Castiel only nodded as he began to tell him about that faithful day...

To be continue...