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Chapter 4
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Honestly I still can't believe everything that has happened. Maybe if I go over the events one more time, it would help me decide if everything really happened or it was just a dream.
I'm told that I'm a dreamer, that any where I am, my mind isn't fully with me and that my soul is in another time , past or future, depending on the situation. Those who always betray my soul's location are my eyes. They reflect all my emotions just like a mirror shows one's reflection. After all, it is said that the eyes are the soul's mirror. With their help you can determine if you truly know a person or you only know the mask that barely touches the surface…if you manage to pass the barrier the eyes form, then and only then, can you call yourself a true friend, brother or lover…
I wonder if we are ever going to decipher the mysteries of our soul. How can we say that we know ourselves when we can't answer a few simple questions about our souls?...Why is it that the moment you fall in love that person seems the most perfect being in the world no matter how many defects they have? Why is it that the moment you fight with a friend a part of your heart rips and you can never stay calm and collected? Why do you fall in love when your heart wants and not when you want and with whom you want?...So many questions without an answer, yet it only is the beginning of the variety of questions without answers…and the sad thing is that we may never receive them.
Is this why we are all unique in our own way? Maybe not, but what I do know for certain is that everyone is free to choose their destiny, their life, their actions and most importantly, their dreams.
That fateful day I had a concert and I did a very unmanly thing: I fainted two times. The first time was when I saw the great Tohma Seguchi enter Hiro and my dressing room and the second time was when Hiro told me we were expected the next day at NG pro. Seeing our dream was one step away from becoming true it is understandable that I have fainted, right? I mean my actions are justifiable, right? I wasn't exaggerating, right?...Maybe just a little, but I swear on my impressive collection of Nittle Grasper stuff that I couldn't react any other way.
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The day we were summoned at NG was full of unexpected surprises, new people and a certain stranger that has forever messed up my life from that moment on. You know, if anybody would have told me before that day that I would accept somebody other than Luca as the new keyboardist of Hiro and my band I would have kindly asked them what they were on and probably laughed the rest of the day. I never would have expected to accept somebody other than my old friend, his memory is too precious to me…But I refuse to regret my decision now because it's true that we must grow and mature as a band…although my opinion at that moment would have said otherwise…It's hard but we have to act more professional like and learn to leave the past where it is, in the past…Ok I think I'm confusing you and this was not my intention, all will be explained in the next few lines…boy what a day it was…
The moment we arrived at NG we were escorted to the president's office. We sat in front of his office for about a half an hour (he was in a meeting) before Mr. Seguchi let us in. We both took a seat and stood quietly like we were expecting someone to execute us at any given moment.
"I really liked your concert, but I'm afraid something is missing. Do you have any idea what that is?" While asking this question Seguchi-san was eyeing us intently for any reaction whatsoever…
"Could it be experience?" I asked in an uncertain voice, but I haven't figured it out yet…
"I'll be blunt gentlemen, you need another instrument, meaning a new member, for the guitar isn't enough." Ok know that was unexpected…but really if I'm going to accept anyone else it's going to be over my dead body!
"With all due respect Seguchi-san but this band has always consisted of Hiro and I and this is not going to change just because you have a different opinion." What came next probably drove a blade directly through my heart…
"So does this mean that Luca had no influence on you? The time all three of us spend together performing and writing songs meant nothing to you? That's how quick you've forgotten him?" Yep, Hiro knew exactly where to hit…
"How dare you, that was the most beautiful period of my life and I am never going to forget it. And that is exactly why I don't want anybody to take Luca's place! I thought you knew me better than this Hiro…"
"You idiot, who said Luca's place is being taken away? He will always be a member of Bad Luck, but Shuichi-he is gone for good! I'm not asking you to be best friends with the new member, just treat him like a colleague. Please man, I can't do everything with the guitar. I need help. Or is it that you can't think about anybody but yourself?"…With every word spoken, a tear falls from my heart. I know how hard it is for him…I can see it every time we write a new song, but I can't seem to back away this time…
"Shuichi, listen, if you want to fulfill our dream you have to make compromises, you are not the only member of this band. At least give him a chance. It's really up to you, but, just so you know, I'm backing up Seguchi-san's decision."…I guess he is right. I have to accept the situation.
"I hope you will come to a consensus. Please return in two hours because I want to prepare a surprise for you that will probably help you with your decision."
These words being said, we left the office and went to get a drink…Two hours passed without any of us uttering a word.
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I couldn't believe my ears, that couldn't possibly be our song. I was beyond shock. I can't even explain it, but why do I have to explain something even I don't understand. I can't understand my feelings, my reactions, the moment I heard my voice singing to that beautiful instrumental.
"This is Suguru Fujisaki, your new keyboardist."
"It is a pleasure to meet you, I hope we will reach the top together."
Tohma's voice and that of the newcomer seemed so weak in comparison with the song that was engulfing me fully pore by pore, cell by cell. I couldn't resist anymore, so I excused myself and went straight to the bathroom.
I felt really happy but at the same time guilty. The arrangements that guy had done, were exactly what was missing for our songs. It was the missing piece of a puzzle, the thing that balanced us completely.
It reminds me a lot of Luca because he was the only one who managed to complete us in such a way. But our songs weren't the only place he would bring us harmony, also in our lives. He was the only one who encouraged Hiro and I said that one day we would get far and fulfill our dreams. He never gave up and taught us the same…it seems he was right and we will reach our star, he just won't be here with us…Why did you have to go? Why did you leave us? I wonder if you can hear me wherever you are and are watching me and Hiro know…Tears were flowing freely down my cheeks as his face started appearing from my memories…
He was tall, he had long beautiful blond almost white hair, eyes of a silver so intense it's like he could see in your soul. In those eyes I have never seen sadness once, he always had a good word for everyone and he always managed to cheer you up. Sometimes you would get the impression he was 300 years old, that's how wise he seemed at the age of 25.
It appears he wasn't like anyone else and we couldn't appreciate him, that's why he was taken away from us.
I felt a hand on my back, it was my Hiro.
"Do you promise to always be there for me no matter what?" I looked him straight in the eye.
"You've been thinking of Luca again, haven't you?"
"Answer my question!" I had to hear it from him…
"You know I'll never leave you, you are my best friend and nothing is going to change that. And stop with the tears already, you know Luca wouldn't want us to cry because of him. He would want us to live happy lives and continue with our dreams."
These words being said, Hiro left me alone for a couple minutes longer. I washed my face and I headed towards the studio when I seemed to have bumped into someone…NO THIS IS SO NOT HAPPENING!!!(Somebody is making fun of me).
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"Can't you watch where you are going, brat?"
It…it was the guy from the park…the blond guy who left my lyrics fly with the wind…
"Apologize right now!!!!!!" I couldn't not be rude with the guy, that night I was to shocked, but now I can at least, get a little of my dignity back.
"Me? I'm not the idiot that bumped into me." He had a cold glare but at the same time I couldn't help noticing the beauty in them. But that is so not the point, I won't let the bastard get away with it.
"I meant my lyrics, I spent a week to get them done and you didn't care one bit."
"I am not about to argue with someone like you and just so you know those lyrics were crap and nobody would have understood them." And with that he turned and walked away leaving me screaming after him for an explanation. The further he would get, the more I heard the girls screaming after him: Eiri Yuki, that's what they would yell. Must be his name…anyway I could not care less…I have bigger problems than that, I have to get to the studio.( Note to self: Google the name Eiri Yuki so that I can find more about him.)
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After I apologized to Suguru for my attitude we started rehearsing. Everything went well and I felt great until HE came.
The blond guy sat in a chair next to Seguchi-san….OK….what the hell is going on here?
"I think my dear cousin would like us to sing so that Eiri can give his opinion as well." Wait just a minute…
"Cousin?????????????? You are the great Tohma Seguchi's cousin?"I started yelling. Hiro for his part to avoid a fight started playing and Suguru followed closely. I was left with no choise but to sing as well. I gave everything I had and while I sang, I looked at the so called best romance novelist or so the girls around here say. The truth is he had a rare beauty that always catches me; every time our eyes would meet I would forget to breathe a little.
After we finished our song, he left. Tohma said it was great and that we should keep up the good work, but I wasn't really listening because my mind was elsewhere. I think it was following the mysterious man from the park named Yuki…
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