It's been two weeks since Roger left, I'm starting to lose hope that he's coming back. The only time I see him now are in my dreams. They're always the same basic dream. It starts out fine, we're just talking. Then I lean in to kiss him and he starts backing away, completely expressionless. There is a big mass of black behind him that he's backing into. I call out to him, but he just smirks and turns around walking right into the mass.
It scares me. I'm beginning to think that I'm never gonna see Roger again, and I don't think that I could handle that.
Another week gone by, still no Roger. Where the hell could he be. Collins, Benny, even Maureen have been by to see what was going on. I told them about the argument, (I didn't tell them what I did that started the argument) and how he stormed out. They all told me not to worry. They said that he was just being Roger, he always gets like this, he'll be back. Maureen even said that Roger PMSes more than she does, which got me to laugh.
I wasn't so certain, however. They weren't there, they didn't see how pissed off he was. He was so mad, and distraught, more than I've ever seen him before.
I just wish I knew what had gotten him so upset. At first I though that he was still hurting from Mimi dieing, but now I'm starting to think that there's something else. I has to be something else, I just can't put my finger on it. Well, I might as well get some sleep. At least in my dreams I can see Roger again.
I believe that Roger has dropped off of the face of the Earth. All of us have looked everywhere for him, and he's no where to be found. It's like it was back when Mimi went missing. I've started checking the obituaries every day to make sure he hasn't been found in a ditch or something.
God, for all I know the man could have gone back to Santa Fe. Maybe he's staying with a friend in the area, I have no clue in hell as to where he could be. I'm at a complete loss of what to say or do. Where ever he is, I hope he's alright. Well, it's my turn to go look for him, Collins just got back. Wish me luck.
I woke up today to the sound of the telephone blaring. Lately I haven't been getting much sleep, what with all time I spend looking for Roger, and I didn't feel like waking up yet. A month of no sleep had gotten me a little edgy. So I yelled at the phone and whoever was calling me.
"Fuck off!" I yelled.
Then I heard the answering machine. "Speeeaaaak." Then a very familiar voice came on.
"Hey Marky boy, I know you're there. Pick up the fucking phone." I heard the voice say.
There was no doubt about it, it was Roger. But it didn't completely sound like Roger, not like I remember it. The voice was a bit more hoarse, raspy, like he had just gotten over a bad cold. It was also a bit weaker than usual, quite unlike his usual powerful confident voice.
"Marky, I'm gonna stay on the damn phone until you pick up." Roger says, his voice rising a bit, but still very weak.
I scrambled out of bed as fast as I could, practically running to the phone. I picked it up, the phone fumbling in my hands as I picked it up.
"He-hello, R-roger..." I sputtered out, breathing heavily. I heard him laughing on the other end, which made me smile.
"It's good to see that you're alive." I continued. "I-we were really worried about you." I said, my face going red. Luckily Roger couldn't see it.
"No, I'm not dead yet..." Roger says, laughing lightly. But I could hear a little bit of sadness in his laugh. I thought about this for a few seconds before his voice came over the line once more.
"I'm coming home tonight." He said.
"Really?" I said, my spirits lifting. "God I missed you." I admitted before I could stop myself.
There was a short pause on the other end before he spoke again. "Missed you too, Marky boy. I gotta go, seeya tonight." He said, then the phone clicked. I just stood there for about two minutes. I couldn't believe he was coming home back.
I just got dressed, now I have to go and tell Collins, Benny and Maureen that Roger is coming back. I don't think it would be good idea for them to all come over tonight, it might be over whelming. But they have the right to know, they've all been as worried as me. Be back tonight